I can't post something too long right now, because I'm too sad. But I feel like I need support. Yesterday, I made the very difficult decision to have Moritz put to sleep. I can't believe I'm having to write this. He was ready. He was in distress. And when the vet came to house, he passed away just from the sedative.
He passed away in my arms. I believe he waited for that moment, knowing that it was the right way. I held him for awhile after.
I can't believe I'm waking up, and he isn't here. I mean, I know he's still here, but not in the same way. I've never dealt with death like this before. I can't even decide if the best thing to do is have a burial for him (there's a spot outside my bedroom window, where he used to sit at the window) or have him cremated and get his ashes back. And maybe scatter some of those in Berlin, where he came into my life when I was living there.
I know people here are caring and have gone through this, so any support would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you,
Elena and Moritz, always in my heart
He passed away in my arms. I believe he waited for that moment, knowing that it was the right way. I held him for awhile after.
I can't believe I'm waking up, and he isn't here. I mean, I know he's still here, but not in the same way. I've never dealt with death like this before. I can't even decide if the best thing to do is have a burial for him (there's a spot outside my bedroom window, where he used to sit at the window) or have him cremated and get his ashes back. And maybe scatter some of those in Berlin, where he came into my life when I was living there.
I know people here are caring and have gone through this, so any support would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you,
Elena and Moritz, always in my heart