Re: 7/9 Latte - hurt herself
Hi everyone,
Its been a really hard afternoon. Well, day. I have to admit between trying to figure out how to get food and water in Latte, all I have been doing is crying. She cant really move. She cant sit up to eat or drink. I would venture to guess she has had close to a jar of baby food all day, 1/4+ cup of water (with milk or gravy in it), and a handful of various treats. She finally peed (herself), which I told her over and over it was ok to do. I would figure out a way to clean her up. She managed to lift her butt just enough to hit the pee pad rather than the blanket she was laying on. I gave her lots of positives for it because I could tell for a while she was really stressed out and wanted to go to the LB. I did try to put her in there once, but that did not turn out so well. For now, we will figure out the bathroom stuff as we go.
I did give her regular dose of insulin because her last shot was reduced and late (cant remember how late to be honest). She is also bouncing, and I gave her additional steroid. The higher she is, the more she wants to drink/pee...so if low (er) she goes, then fine. Earlier today she laid staring at her water bowl for over an hour, crying, as she was moving into the 400's. It was a very helpless feeling for both of us. Sometimes I can get her to drink - usually if I put some milk in the water...or juice from a wellness packet. Mostly she cant sit in a position/lift her head high enough to lap it up, tho. Tomorrow I may need to reconsider and just play her dose by ear. I do need to stay on schedule as much as possible for Monday due to one small job Monday evening. But I wont get too worked up about it at this point.
Do you mind if I check in tomorrow or MUCH later tonight about the AC? To summarize the big stuff...she is in a lot of pain along her spine from head to tail, but the medicine (bupe) helps quite a bit. She does not know how I can help her right now...she couldnt think because she was hurting too much. She is not ready to go today, but does not feel she can sustain this for very long at all. She is spiritually ready to move on. she was confused as to why I was wondering how she was suppose to 'tell' me when she is ready. She didnt know how she was suppose to predict when her body was going to quit and just not wake up one day. There is more...but I know some are curious.
Amy came over for a while this evening to help me give Latte fluids (I needed a pole-haha- and she was a good one! :mrgreen: ). She came armed with rotissare chicken, more baby food, ice cream, and whip cream, and a few other items. I did figure if I hold a piece for her, she will lick it and kind of nibble. Well, it has worked once so far. She is liking and able to eat temptation treats, too.
As I started this post a while ago, but keep needing to step away, Latte managed to move her body with head at a 12oclock position to 6oclock. I was taking the trash out, so did not see how she did it. She is stretching a lot...kinda hunching and pushing all four legs. I see her try to get her legs underneath her to stand, but she just cant do it. It looks like she is paddling. She so badly WANTS to get up. She is also desperately wanting as many head and ear skritches as possible. Amy thought someone could do it all day and night for her and she wouldnt complain. I have seen her lick her paw to clean it, and once lick her face to clean it this evening. Very, VERY small things that I must grasp onto, right? *sigh*
I think one of the hardest things of all this is seeing her face over and over in my mind as she jumped up. She was so excited that it was morning and time for ME to get out of bed. She is almost always excited. She had fairly decent numbers, and probably felt a little better after having pain meds in her the night before. She had pooped and eaten an hour before the alarm. Her infections are gone. We were ready to try and enjoy a nice long week together in good spirits. And then I see how her body twisted, and how her face changed from excitement to pain and fear. It was like watching a train wreck...you knew what was about to happen, you prayed it would be okay, you dont want to look, but you have to...and that was the last time she was able to walk or sit up.
Thank you all so much for your support. I was just bawling when I logged on and saw how many of you are keeping an eye on us. I was only able to read bits and pieces from the vet, between crying, or caring for Latte. I will go back at some point tonight on my phone and read them ALL to Latte (we will....or I will be up all night).
Bigggest hugs to all of you! Thank you!!!!
I will update again in the a.m. as soon as I can
