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rhiannon and shadow (GA)

rhiannon and shadow (GA)

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yesterday

.... got a 9 am appt and we just returned from vet.
her intestines felt braided but she didn't feel any masses/tumors (it made her very uncomfortable to be felt up and she bit me a few times - good she has little teeth and I don't care anyway)
there really isn't anything to do except increase the prednisolone which of course will make her feel worse and
raise her sugars....
I could also give her more pain medication... day and night.
Her vitals were all good.....but you can tell by her eyes, she's feeling so poorly.
The vet was ready then and there but I told her I wanted it to be at home.
we discussed waiting a while longer, or not..... and I decided keeping her going is just for me, not for her.
her q0l isn't very high with her not wanting to be held, or lay on me, she didn't even want me under the dining room table with her, she kept moving away last night.
She's having to go to the litter box several times a day now and it obviously is hurting her since she never was one to cry out.

I've got her scheduled for 2 pm today, they will come here to the house.
I can change my mind and I'm thinking about it.
I'm going to take a shower as soon as I finish typing and think really hard, searching my heart.
My brain knows it's the kinder thing to do, and of course, my heart doesn't want it to be.
She's just go so much going on.... her hip hurts, her arthritis hurts, her intestines hurt, she doesn't want to eat
much of anything....
about all she enjoys right now is getting her chin scratched, and maybe getting to chatter at a bird she sees out the window.

I've been preparing myself for weeks.... and I know I can have another day..... but it's not going to be any better tomorrow or the next day.
I did tell them I wouldn't bring her body out until tomorrow.... I need time to accept it and have that closure.
I tend to have dreams that they are still here and stop believing they are really gone so I have to see it for hours that they /she is really not here anymore. ( and the crematorium picks up on thursdays only anyway)

I wish so much it could be different or there was something to do to make her feel better ... and this is the only thing, to set her free from her failing body.

okay... i gotta go cry in the shower now.....
 
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Oh Rhiannon! I know this is so hard, but so is watching Shadow be miserable. When we lost Cleo I blamed myself for months afterwards for not letting her go sooner. You are doing what is best for Shadow, not yourself. It is the hardest , most generous thing you can do for her. Keeping you both in our hearts today!
 
Oh Rhiannon, I am wrapping a giant hug around you right now!!!! I am so sorry that it is Shadow's time. You are an amazing bean putting her needs first. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today. Sending much love to you
 
My heart and prayers are with you. You always have put Shadow first. A wise vet told me try everything so you have no regrets. You gave done that. He also told me that Tiffany would not make it easy for me and that I would have to make that final decision for her. He was right. You are giving her that last gift that is oh so hard to do. I'm sending you the biggest cyber hug as I cry with you and celebrate the life of your soul kitty. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
((((((Rhiannon)))))))) I wish I could jump through the computer screen and give you a big hug!!! :bighug: You are in our hearts and prayers always, and yes, I am crying with you!!!

... When I knew it was getting close to our time, I found this post. It took a long time for me to be able to read through it, but this helped me sort of make some sense of things. For now, let yourself cry, feel the love for your precious little girl, imprint those memories deeply into your heart.
When The Moment Comes
 
((((Rhiannon))))

I am so very sorry but the post Ruth linked is so true. You have gone above and beyond to love your girl and take the very best care of her. I'm sending tons of prayers that her crossing is peaceful and that you will find peace in your heart knowing you gave her the ultimate gift of love by setting her free from the pain.

Thinking of you today...holding you close in my heart.
 
My thoughts are with you and Shadow. Whatever decision you make, it will be the right decision. She's been a huge part of your life -- and you hers. Have peace in your heart and give that kitty some extra scritches under her chin. There will be friends waiting her when she learns to fly free.
 
Aww, Rhiannon..........................
Shadow knows she can count on your love... the great love you've given and shown her all along.
Sending you strength and peace for whatever your decision.
You and Shadow are in our hearts and thoughts.
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((Rhiannon)))

So very sorry that it's time for Shadow to leave you, but as others have said, you're doing what's best for her and giving her the final gift any of us have to give.

Fly free Sweet Shadow and land softly....There are many at the Bridge to welcome you and keep you company until the one you love most comes to be with you forever
 
You and she are one. So close. So knowing.

My prayers for peace for you both, healing for you both, and light that will last an eternity to envelop you both.

We are with you....

Safe passage little one. You'll be taking pieces of many hearts.

Shared tears, Rhiannon. And bless you for listening to your Shadow. Most difficult.

Marilyn
 
(((Rhiannon))), I am typing this with tears on my keyboard. You know your black and white girl, your physical shadow, your Shadow so well. I too wish I could reach across the distance and give you a big long hug. I know you are kissing Shadow many times today, please add one for me too. She is loved (also by many here) and blessed to have you as her bean.

Wishing for the most peaceful of crossings for your brave girl. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Rhiannon, I am so very sorry... it is never easy, even when we know. You are so close with Shadow, and you have listened to her. I think she will thank you for your decision. It is so hard when their bodies begin to fail them. It is the last gift, the most loving gift, we can give them, to set them free. Peace be with you Shadow, and safe passage.
 
Oh, Rhiannon, I am crying as I write these words. You have done your so much for your precious Shadow, and sometimes the kindest, most unselfish thing we can do for our beloved fur babies is to set them free from pain. My thought and prayers are with you.

Shadow, my friend, I see you again someday at da Rainbow Bridge, we be like young kitties again...
Wuv,
Lulu
 
Rhiannon:bighug::bighug::bighug: I am crying as I type this. I know how hard this is for you. I wish Shadow a peaceful crossing. I am so sorry it is her time. She will be free of pain and she knows you have so much love for her as she you. Thoughts and prayers are with today during this very hard time.
Paula
 
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{{{Rhiannon}}}

I am just heartbroken. I understand the conflict within you as you make this most difficult decision. I know you will have Shadow's best interests in mind, but it's so hard not to let our hearts take over at times like this. I, too, have regrets about kitties that I lost, that I hung on to them too long, selfishly, and allowed them to suffer because I could not let go. I know you will not do that with Shadow, and if she is ready, you will send her on her way with great love and compassion. Let her tell you if she is ready, and know that she loves you so. I'm sure she doesn't want to be parted, either. I pray you will make a decision you can be comfortable with, and look back only with love - no regrets.

Many prayers and hugs to you and chin scritches to sweet, beautiful Shadow.
 
Oh my heart is breaking for you. Shadow truly had the best life a cat could wish for for she had you. Never forget that. Cherish and hold dear the wonderful memories and times you had with Shadow. She'll always be forever with you.
 
I am so sorry.
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(((Rhiannon)))

You have given Shadow all your love and time and care and now you are willing to give the greatest gift of love. The greatest act of love is allowing your furbaby to be pain free and at peace. May the wonderful memories give you strength and peace at this most difficult time.

:bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
 
Rhiannon, I'm so sorry it's Shadow's time. You've done everything you can for her and now you're doing the last thing you can to help her by letting her go so she can be free and healthy again. Sending prayers and hugs. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Thank you Every One!
I feel your love and your tears and your hugs..... You all mean so very much to me. You gave me an extra 3 years with her.

It's so surreal. She just looks like she's sleeping on her little stool. It's easy to deny that it has happened.
That's why I need the closure.

Wendy, you said it right, she's been my shadow for so long....right behind me.... right over there... that the absence for those first weeks is so painful. Me.... and My Shadow.....
I will post her memorial as soon as I am able to write it.... at least that helps the grieving process.

I am wearing her little nose pendant.... and I have her recordings.... and pictures and memories....
and I feel her in my heart... and she is free of the pain that was holding her down so much. I feel her love.
 
Oh sweet Shadow....fly free my dear sweet girl and don't forget to send your mommabean a sign that you made it safely to the bridge.

I can barely type myself, I am so very sorry, Rhiannon....sending more love and prayers your way....
 
Im so sorry Rhiannon..:bighug::bighug:. Sending healing love and light for your heart, which I know is broken. You did whats best for her, and now she flys free of her tired little body and is in spirit and will rest in your heart always..land softly at the bridge Shadow, and give momma a sign that you made it.
 
(((((Rhiannon)))))
I'm so, so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. You always did everything you could for her, and today is no different. I know she will be watching over you from the Bridge.
Fly free, sweet girl
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