5/28 Jackson Is Home!!!!!!

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Caryl & Sebastian & Alex (GA)

Caryl & Sebastian & Alex (GA)

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Alex was nice enough to let me borrow his condo for his brother Jackson today. Tomorrow Jackson is having surgery to finally have his stupid old cyst removed. It's been there and drained several times for about 5 years an now it's just too large.I know it seems simple and stupid for me to be taking up a whole condo on this but I'm scared. I'm scared of the anesthesia on a 14 year old cat and I just started thinking this morning when Jackson and I were cuddling that I'm scared of what the biopsy might show (I've been putting that in the back of my mind). I have been sick all week..so sick that I had to leave work 2 times with ferocious migraines and I didn't know why. ohmygod_smile Well duh! My baby is having surgery. He has never been away from me. He shakes like his insides are going to come out when he goes to the vet and he used to live with him! He gets so scared that he sometimes hyperventilates like Alex. He has a murmur but not any severe heart problems like Alex. But I'm scared :sad:

He's having this surgery done by a GREAT surgeon, there is going to be a cardio doc there also just in case, the staff all fell in love with Jacky and I know they will take great care of him...especially since he is being brought in by me and a vet that they know very well...but I'm scared. I know everyone has heard this ad nauseam but this cat is my heart.He won't get up in the morning without a full body hug from me. He has been taking care of me when I've been so sick this week..sometimes I feel like I should call him "Mommy".
Don't get me wrong I adore Alex too..it's just different. Jackson and I connect differently. I keep feeling like changing my mind but that's not fair to him. What if it hurts him now? What if there are pre-C cells in there? I don't want him spending the rest of his life be it 1,2, 5 or 20 years(ha ha but I can't even think about that)with that large lumpy cyst on his flank. I know how a cyst on my face feels..I can't imagine that it feels good on him either. So it's being removed. Jaime said it only takes 10 minutes. He won't allow Alex to have a dental because he won't risk him going under anesthesia. He really thought about this and brought his history and chest x-rays when we first visited the surgeon and he feels confident that Jackson can handle this but no one will give me guarantees and dammit I want one!

So please pray for Jackson tomorrow. He is such a good boy and I don't know what I'd do without him. Thanks
xoxoC

Here is a picture of it but it's really uglier....btw this is Jackson waiting for his morning hug

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I wish I was there to hug Jackson - what a cutie.
Sending good thoughts your way that all (the surgery and the biopsy) will be okay! ((hugs))
 
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Oh Caryl, if only I had the words to take away your fear. I won't even say I know how you feel. I don't know your personal fear. I'm so very sorry that you have to have this weighing so heavily on your mind. It's darn scary.
I had to have smaller cysts removed from my little pooch's back, and one near her eye. and was terrified also. She was fine, and lived many more years after each one.
I will send up some prayers for Jackson, and also for your peace of mind.
I'll be looking for your great report tomorrow. :smile:
 
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Of course we will be thinking of Jackson and you tomorrow .. it's scary to deal with, we all understand that .. Hugs to you both!
 
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Of course you have my thoughts and prayers for sweet Jackson.
Stress induced migraines are horrible, try to breathe through it. You both have my best vetty vines
 
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Many prayers for you and Jackson. It sounds like he will be in great, caring hands!
 
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Praying So so so hard for Jackson to be all well!!! --May he come throught the surgery well, and he will be much better with that off of him--Comfort Hugs from uS!!
 
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(((((BIG hugs)))) to you and to Jackson. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and sending lots of healthy strong vibes to Jackson.
Since the surgery is only about 10 minutes, that means he won't be under anesthesia for very long. That is a good thing to focus on. I'm glad he has all the experts there to help him get through this.

We really understand your worries; you are his mommy and love him so much!
I have faith that he will be giving you his morning hugs for many more years. cat_pet_icon
 
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:YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: Caryl :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
cat_pet_icon cat_pet_icon cat_pet_icon Jackson cat_pet_icon cat_pet_icon cat_pet_icon You too cat_pet_icon Alex cat_pet_icon

Sending all the vines and white light i can gather to Jackson tomorrow.
 
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Hi Caryl,
We will be thinking good thoughts for Jackson's surgery tomorrow. He will feel much better without that big cyst. Try not to worry too much and focus on the fact that he will be in the very capable hands of a vet you trust.
Lots of hugs coming your way,

Ella & Rusty
:YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:
 
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will do - it's hard to be worried about your little furry ones.

does he hug with his arms around your neck? i had Felix, who looked like jackson, and he used to put his arms on either side of your face for a hug. big ol' guy!

jackson will be ready for your hugs as soon as it's over!
 
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Caryl, it sure looks like it needs to come out. And you have vets you have confidence in agreeing with you. You are doing the right thing. This is the hardest part of being mom. I hear that courage isn't the absence of fear, but rather, it's doing what has to be done in the presence of fear. Be as strong as you can, and lean on us when you can't be strong.

If indeed Jackson's shaking is fear, as we humans know it, then he will borrow strength from your confidence. So whistle some Bruce, pretend you have no fear, and he won't know you're afraid.

This will pass, and you are surrounded by healing vines, white light, good thoughts and snowflakes throughout your journey through the next day.

Enfolding you in a long big hug.
 
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I'll be sending up prayers for Jackson that he not only fly safely through the procedure, but that everything is as benign as can be. I understand your feelings for Jackson because I feel the same way about Champ. Some people may not understand, but those are the people we need to feel sorry for!! I'll be thinking about you both and will look for your condo tomorrow to see how everything went.
 
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been praying for Jackson all week....i know what you mean about being nervous...

praying everything will be good news.....keep us posted tomorrow.....
 
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Will keep you and Jackson in my thoughts and wishing for only good things.

(((((((((Jackson))))))))))
 
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Caryl,
I will definitey be praying for your boy, Jackson. I can totally understand your fears but it sounds like your doctor is wonderful and I'm glad the surgery will only take a few minutes. Less time under anesthesia. I love his picture and it is so sweet that you give each other hugs in the morning to start your day.
 
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Caryl: I agree it really looks like it needs to come off and it sounds like you have an awesome vet and have done everything to be prepared. We will keep you and Jackson in our prayers.....your boys are so handsome! He just sounds like such an incredible little guy. I won't say "don't worry" because I know how I am when mine have to have anesthesia. We will pray he comes through with flying colors and the cyst is only a cyst and nothing more. Gracie gives you a big hug around the neck with her tiny, striped paws.

 
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Thank you everyone! I feel sick to my stomach.
someone asked me if Jackson hugs back. YES he does. He wraps his arms around my neck or around my head and he kisses my face. And if I don't let him kiss as much as he wants to because it starts hurting, he takes his paw and pushes my head down.
This morning was so odd. I woke up an hour early and I was trying to go back to sleep and Jackson was on the bed with me on his leopard pillows. Usually he goes back to sleep right away but I couldn't fall asleep because he was just staring at me and purring. So we hugged.
I'm sooo scared I can hardly breathe.I can't wait till it's over with and he's back home.

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Many hugs, prayers, and healing vines being sent to Jackson.
I know how you feel, when You wish it were all over and he is home with you (((Caryl))).
 
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((hugs))

Will be sending lots of hugs and good thoughts Jackson's way tomorrow! Of course you're nervous... I think any of us would be! He is such a little sweetie... hugs AND kisses for the bean??? too adorable! Sounds like you have a great team in place. Will be looking for an update tomorrow!

Hope you're able to get some rest tonight!
 
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He looks so cute there waiting for his morning hug! I am adding my prayers and positive thoughts for a successful surgery and outcome. Will be waiting to see how he's doing tomorrow! Hugs.
 
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You both will be in our thoughts and prayers. I wish there was something I could say to take away your fear. I will send hugs instead. One of my civvies had a similar cyst. She did well with the surgery. I know jackson will too. Healing vines for you jackson.
 
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Jackson is so handsome... cat_pet_icon We'll be thinking about both of you tomorrow... :YMHUG:
 
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Kathy and Kitty said:
Caryl, it sure looks like it needs to come out. And you have vets you have confidence in agreeing with you. You are doing the right thing. This is the hardest part of being mom. I hear that courage isn't the absence of fear, but rather, it's doing what has to be done in the presence of fear. Be as strong as you can, and lean on us when you can't be strong.

If indeed Jackson's shaking is fear, as we humans know it, then he will borrow strength from your confidence. So whistle some Bruce, pretend you have no fear, and he won't know you're afraid.

This will pass, and you are surrounded by healing vines, white light, good thoughts and snowflakes throughout your journey through the next day.

Enfolding you in a long big hug.
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funny, I can't even think of a good Bruce quote right now :YMSIGH:
 
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(((caryl and jackson))) sending positive thoughts and healing vines.
will be thinking of you both in the morning. he'll be in good hands.
update us when you can.....
 
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Thank you again everyone...all of these thoughts and prayers mean more than you can know(well I guess you all do know). This is what got me through when I was told that Alex had a few months to live....almost 15 months ago.

We're leaving at 8:15 tomorrow. I hope they take Jackson pretty early tomorrow but I can't count on that because it's a 'professional courtesy' surgery so there is no scheduled time. Believe me, I know how lucky I am...but It's still nervous making. Getting a migraine again and I have to take all food and water up(poor Alex)...Will let you know when I do. Thank you all again. aaaarrrrggghhhhh :sad:
 
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I just left my baby who was scared and shaking and even though I was crying I thank God I had the wits about me to remember to tell them ABSOLUTELY NO METACAM!
 
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(((Caryl and Jackson)))
Sending positive thoughts and lots of smooth surgery vines....good for you, remembering the Metacam! It sounds like Jackson is in very good hands. Please update us when you can.
 
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somehow i knew he was a "hug ya back" kinda kitter.

he's in good hands and i'll bet he'll feel so much better when that giant owie is gone.

we're all thinking of both of you and cheering for you this morning! he must be nearly over with surgery by now. 10 minutes is just a snip snip for them. let us know how he is when you get him home.

and i want to know if he hugs you when you pick him up - if he's not too drugged, of course.
 
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Thinking of Jackson this morning. Sending good surgery vines and tons of white light.

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Good thoughts and prayers for Jackson. We want everything to go well. Please update when you can.

Many hugs,
Ella & Rusty
 
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(((Caryl))) sending you thoughts and prayers. Please update us when you can.
 
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All I know is that Jackson is out of surgery. They wouldn't tell me anything else. They said the doctor would call Jaime a little later. I asked if he could come home today they said they didn't know the status and the doctor would call Jaime. Now I'm thinking the found something bad. I feel like I'm in hell
 
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Caryl,

I can relate to your feelings, but just being out of surgery is reason to feel better. You're over that hurdle, and whatever they may or may not have found was there already. IF(big if) they found something, at least you'll know and be able to deal with it. Ignorance can be bliss, until it kills you.

Jason
 
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Jackson is coming home between 5 and 6 PM. He has a BIG incision but he is still with us. I don't know much else-if a biopsy was done-but he is coming home :) Good thing too because Alex has been a fidgety mess all day-seriously looking all over for him and can't settle down...much like his Mommy. In 14 years they have never been apart for more than an hour or two and this is totally confusing Alex...If I ever had any doubt about this issue, I don't anymore (I have often wondered if either of them would notice if God forbid the other wasn't here) I hope my Jacky doesn't hurt too much
 
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Welcome home, Jackson! Caryl, I am so glad that he will be home soon and thinking positively that all will be fine.

Ella & Rusty
 
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glad to know you will be picking him up and he will be home....make sure they give you pain meds....he will surely need them....

praying for a speedy recovery.....

((((Caryl)))) (((Jackson)))
 
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Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA) said:
Welcome home, Jackson! Caryl, I am so glad that he will be home soon and thinking positively that all will be fine.

Ella & Rusty
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Thank you Ella...!
Me and Alex too (I hope I get to see the surgeon..Jaime said she's swamped today)
 
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