Oh Rachel, I am so sorry for your loss. It's been days since I've been on here and had no idea things were so bad. I am just bawling reading all of your updates. It's been just over a month since I said goodbye to my sweet Sasha and today had been a really sad day for me, no particular reason, just really missing her. I know just how you feel and can't stand that you are having to go through all of this too. I wish there was something, anything that I could say that would help, but there isn't. One day at a time and eventually it does get easier. I lasted only a little over two weeks without a dog in my house (longest two and a half weeks ever) before I ran out and got a rescue. Having another soul to love helps, at least for me it did. Tiki just popped by and sends you his love. He heard me crying and came running. Again, I am so sorry. {{{{{BIG HUG}}}}}