GA 12/6 Neko AMBG 120 - finally free and back home

[Wendy&Neko]

Yesterday - Neko gave me a good PJ party to remember her by.

It's done. Neko, Ron, Theo and I spent the half hour before just hanging out in the warm sunny solarium. There was some quiet purring from my girl. Dr. Sue and her tech did a fabulous job - in the solarium. It was very peaceful. It's back to snowing now, so the timing was perfect. Sue commented how Neko's muzzle was a lot bigger than last time she saw her, which was two months ago. It probably contributed to her trouble eating. She said our timing was good, her circulation was poor too. And she could tell that she was hurting in her back end. If we'd left it longer, there was a good chance of some crisis, with all that was going on. After Dr. Sue left, Theo came out of hiding, took a quick lick of Neko's ear, then grabbed the fresh catnip I had put down beside her. Such a boy!

Ron and I took Neko to Until We Meet Again, the local pet crematorium. I dealt with them a lot during my shelter days, they are great. Very compassionate. I picked out a silver filigree locket that will carry a few of Neko's ashes. I want a part of her near my heart. Where she will always be in spirit too. The design looks a bit like a butterfly in the middle, or as I will think of it, a brown moth.

Although I am sad, and a part of me feels hugely empty, there is also a great sense of relief that Neko is no longer in pain. You have heard this before, but acromegaly sucks. She spent one third of her life with this disease, slowly tearing her apart. Next week is the five year anniversary of her FD diagnosis and sometime aoround the end of this month is her 16th birthday. She is now truly free, once again able to run after brown moths and hummingbirds again. That's the Neko I want to remember.

Thank all of you in FDMB for being there and bringing her sunshine for her final moments. And helping me help her for as long as I could. Love you and miss you my beautiful little girl, my pumpkin. Or as I always told her - the worlds bestest cat.

Neko, in the good times with catnip in her solarium.

 

[tiffmaxee]

Rest in peace dear Neko. I hope you and Max meet and all the other black and white kitties. A part of her is with all of us. I can't write more as the tears are flowing again.

 

[Doodles & Karen]

A sweet girl who touched us all. Go catch those brown moths and hummingbirds Neko. The locket sounds beautiful Wendy. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Lincolns Mom]

You have been on my mind all day... it is so hard to be a bean... especially if we do it right and put them first... and i know as sad as you are you also know you did the right thing... it is a gift of love you gave... i hope brown moths forever find you so that you know Neko is never far...

 

[Bron and Sheba (GA)]

((((((Wendy, Ron and Theo)))))
I am so glad the sun came out and she was able to be in the solarium surrounded by her loved ones.
Fly free beautiful girl....you will be missed

 

[Carol & Murphy (GA)]

RIP, sweet little girl. Hugs to you, Wendy, on this bittersweet day

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Neko is now free of the pains of the physical world

(((HUGS)))) Wendy, Ron and Theo

 

[Madrona and Leda (GA)]

Sending healing thoughts to you and yours, thank you so much for sharing Neko with all of us

 

[Marje and Gracie]

((((Wendy, Ron, and Theo)))

Your girl was blessed to have such a wonderful, loving family that would do everything possible to care for her with acro. I am certain she had many more good years because of your care, knowledge, and always seeking out the best treatments for her.

We all grieve with you because Neko was a special, special girl who taught so many so much. I picture her now romping across fields full of sunshine, hummingbirds, and brown moths.

 

[Red & Rover (GA)]

So nice for the sun to come out. Do what you have to do. Shout, cry, smile, be silent. Neko had the best bean ever. May she bag a hummingbird on a perpetually sunny day. Take care of yourselves.

 

[Josie & Ripley (GA)]

Sending you love and light during this difficult time. I'm so glad it was a peaceful crossing. Wendy, you've been a fine example of a bean for your Neko, and many of us here in L&LL will always think of her as one of our own. I love that she will always be close to your heart --the locket sounds absolutely perfect. Many hugs to you and Ron.

Fly free, sweetest Neko, and land so softly.

 

[Ella & Rusty & Stu(GA)]

Dear (((Wendy, Ron, Theo))),
I know how you feel when you say that your sadness is accompanied by a gladness that Neko is no longer in pain--that she is on her way to a new adventure. She lived this earthly adventure to the full and we all will miss her so much. We will remember her for her strength, courage, and perseverance. And for the innumerable ways in which she demonstrated her love for her beans.

That bright star in the sky tonight belongs to your girl. She will soon be arriving at The Bridge, where so many of her old friends are waiting to greet her. The Bridge Kitchen will now have a Sushi Chef! It will be a wonderful reunion.

Fly free, dear Neko. You are much loved. You will always be in our hearts. Watch over your family and send your mamabean a sign that you are safe and well and among friends.

In loving remembrance,

Ella & Edward, Rusty, and Stu (GA)

 

[Kris & Teasel]

I'm so sorry you've lost your girl.

 

[Judy and Boomer]

Wendy you've made the ultimate sacrifice as Neko's loving Bean and let her go. She is in pain no longer. Her spirit will always be with you and how beautiful that you will carry some of her ashes close to your heart. Fly free sweet Neko.

 

[Gussie's mom (GA)]

I am so glad the sunbeams came to dance with Neko..and glad you will have the brown moth necklace ( I wear two lampworked beads that each contain ashes from my GA Buster and GAJett. The warmth of the pieces and knowing they are laying on the heart does provide tangible comfort.) I am happy you will carry Neko with you wherever you go. The necklace you chose sounds beautiful
My heart has been hurting and tears flowing for you all day..
The sky cleared today about the time I was watching for her..there was some beautiful clouds and I swear I saw in the triangle framed blue blue sky a cloud formation that looked like Neko looking down....might just be because I wanted her to be there but....
Sending gentle hugs of comfort to you Wendy....and shared tears
Fly free and land softly sweet Neko..you are both welcomedand missed

 

[Kathy and TiTi]

Neko, in the good times with catnip in her solarium.[/QUOTE]

Ah, no. I've been dreading this post, and I seem to be crying now.
But what a beautiful goodbye for Neko. For a loved and lovely kitty. Your wisdom and courage saw all of you through.
Sending love and hugs and everything good.

 

[Mandarin'sMom]

I have been thinking of you all day. I am so glad that you got to say goodbye to her at home, where she was happiest and where she was surrounded by her loved ones. Fly free, sweet girl, and watch over all over the FD kitties from the other side. Your strength was an inspiration to all of us.

 

[Asrael]

It sounds like a beautiful transition for her- and just the right time. I can't imagine how hard it was, yet how beautiful and peaceful too. It sounds like a perfect goodbye. Such a beautiful girl, flying fee now- chasing those moths and hummingbirds.

We were with you all day- in our thoughts and spirit.

Sending so so so much Love! And what a beautiful picture- Thank you for sharing..

And Yes- I have tears too

 

[carfurby (GA)]

I'm so sorry Neko's body couldn't contain her sweet spirit any more. You did the most loving thing in letting her go peacefully. I know you miss her terribly. She'll love you forever and always be with you. Fly free sweet Neko. Sending prayers.

 

[Bobbie And Bubba]

Hugs, Wendy, Ron an Theo. Lots an Lots of hugs.

Until you meet again.

 

[rhiannon and shadow (GA)]

I was scared to log on tonite.... knowing this post would likely be here. I'm glad she had sunbeams today and was surrounded with love and in her favorite spot.
Your situation of saving her from the future decline and pain is so similar of my path so I know the relief you feel even though you would gladly continue marching onward caring for her, but when we can't take the pain away..... our heart hurts for them before it's time to let go. The head prevails over the heart.
And the heart knows the huge gift we give and are so fortunate to be able to give to them. Neko has so much love.
Neko will forever be in my heart and I've copied her picture and added it to my photos. I love her solarium pic.
But you know how partial I am to black and whites.

I hope Shadow won't hog the moths and will frolic with Neko as they stalk and hunt.
(((((((((((((((((((Wendy & Ron)))))))))))))))))))))
Fly Free Dear Neko.

 

[Michelle and Mannie (GA)]

Hugs Wendy to you, Ron and Theo. I will shed tear or two too. I am glad that Mannie's sunbeams made it there for her passing. He will be waiting for her. I know how hard this decision was for you to make, but I know too it was the right one. Neko does too, and thanks you for it. To set her free from a failing earthly body is the greatest gift of all. I so understand that sense of relief, Neko does too. Fly free little one, land softly at the bridge. Forever in our hearts Miss Neko.

 

[Ann & Tess GA]

Fly Free, Sweet Neko! Join all your friends at the Bridge and send sunbeams down to your beans.

 

[Photorecon]

So sorry about Neko leaving you... Sure you'll miss her for a long time and that's sad. Her
organs decided it was the best way to go, glad there was no extended suffering.

Hope good souvenirs will stay with you forever.

.

 

[Sienne and Gabby (GA)]

For Neko, there will now always be sunbeams to nap in, warm breezes to sniff, fresh catnip aplenty, butterflies to chase and old friends to snuggle up with. There is peace. Neko has gained her wings surrounded by love and left paw prints on the hearts of many.

Fly free Neko and land softly.

 

[Suzi_S]

Oh, Wendy, I am so sad to read this. But I am comforted knowing she isn't in pain anymore. Sending you tons of love, hugs and vines.

 

[MiCo]

What a sweet pic of your girl. Light & love to you and your family.

 

[marniepaul & miles]

Sweet Neko! What a beautiful picture of her. I bet her arrival lit up the Rainbow Bridge from end to end.
It seems like the crossing went as well as you could have hoped for. I'm still crying though. You gave her such a good life. What a blessing that you all could share time in this world, temporary though it was. I will be thinking of you.
Rest easy, Neko.

 

[Tiger(GA) and Ruth]

You will be in my prayers (((((Wendy Ron and Theo)))) I'll think of your special girl every time I see one of those sunbeams and I know Neko will be basking in them,enjoying the warmth of the sun. Beautiful picture!

 

[Chris & China (GA)]

Nobody could have loved Neko any more than you did Wendy and it was your love for her that set her free.

I don't think there's a dry eye in LL tonight for all you've been through and having to face these first lonely nights without your sweet girl.
Fly free dear Neko and land softly.....You have so many friends at the bridge

The cosmic kitchen krew just gained an amazing sushi chef

 

[Olive & Paula]

Neko, enjoy chasing the moths and hummingbirds in all the beautiful sunbeams.

Wendy, Ron and Theo. I'm so sorry Neko was ready to leave this world and join another. You gave her the most beautiful life possible.

 

[Anne & Zener GA]

Oh my, we should all have such a good death to be the icing on the cake of a wonderful loving and full life. Then that combination of sadness, relief, heartache, love, all rolled together into a mixture of grieving that follows, that is what we beans navigate when we give our beloved kitties that greatest gift. I wish they could stay with us furever. Fly freely beloved Neko, send a sign sign when you are able.

Love,
Anne, Liz and Tillie

 

[Sharon14]

Fly free sweet Neko and land softly, you are so loved

 

[WileyWonderCat]

All the hugs

 

[AZJenks]

Soar on new your new angel wings sweet Neko, lifted aloft by the love of your family and everyone here who was lucky enough to get to know you during your pit stop on Earth. We'll miss you...

 

[Rachel & Chyna (GA)]

(((Wendy))) I'm glad your girl had a peaceful goodbye with her loving family. Many hugs and prayers. It's so hard to do...and a piece of my heart breaks every time one of Chynas beloved FDMB friends has to go join her and leave us. You were the bestest beans for her, too. Fly free, sweet Neko

 

[Kako & Tux]

Oh No Neko..........
I wasn't checking a few days, I was believing that Neko was well.
I'm so sorry.
(((((((((((((Wendy)))))))))))))

 

[mariko]

(((((Wendy))))) (((((Ron)))))
You did absolutely everything for Neko.
Neko told you it was her time and you listened, and she had her last days filled with love and tenderness.
You gave her the best departure any kitty could hope for.

I am blessed to have witnessed the strong bond you and Neko shared.
Those few times I visited, whenever I approached Neko, she looked at you as if to ask "Is this person OK?", and you told her I was nice and a cat person too, and then she let me sit with her, or give her some treats or even pet her.
I saw unconditional love in the way you looked at Neko, and I saw absolute trust in the way Neko looked at you.

All your L&LL aunties will miss you, Neko.
Fly free, run free and enjoy your yummies like you used to.

 

[Janet and Izzy (GA)]

I'm so sorry to you had to say farewell to Neko. They surely break our heart when they leave us, even when we are so in tune with them and know it's time help them to the next realm.

They take our love with them to the bridge. Fly free Neko.

 

[Wendy&Neko]

I wish there was a "love" button for all your posts.

One afternoon when I was outside with Neko in her much younger years, she caught two hummingbirds. I would pick her up and she would release the bird. After the second one, I brought her inside. The Neko of the last few years could only dream of doing that. But she still loved her brown moths until this year.

Tonight was tough as expected. I ended up going to a meeting for a charity for which I'm on the board of directors. I thought it would be a good distraction. Someone brought dinner - sushi of course. I'm pretty sure Neko picked the menu. During the evening I tried to avoid looking at my watch. I finally gave in and looked at 7:30 - preshot time.

The night is clear now - lots of bright stars up there. I'm pretty sure Neko is twinkling up there somewhere.

 

[Anne & Zener GA]

(((((Wendy)))) Hugs to Ron, too, and skritches to Theo. I am so sorry that it was Neko's time. She had a great life with you. As Mariko told her mother, no regrets. It took many months before I slowly stopped being aware of shot time and all of the other things that we did. Thinking of you and sending comfort vines.
Liz

 

[Squalliesmom]

Oh Wendy, I'm so, so sorry to hear your news. My heart is breaking for you. Just (((hugs))) and (((hugs))) and more (((hugs))). I don't have words.

Fly free, beloved Neko, and land softly. The hummingbirds and brown moths are waiting for you, sweet girl.

 

[sarahtee]

I'm really sorry it was time, but love that it was peaceful and sunny for Neko...

Many hugs to you all

 

[Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey]

{{{Wendy}}}

I've tried all day to come up with just the "right" words to say here. But there really are no "right" words, so I'll speak from my heart.

You and Neko joined FDMB while Cinco was OTJ and I was not visiting the Board much. By the time he lost remission and I came back with my tail between my legs, you had established yourself as one of the most knowledgeable and helpful people here. That is how I always think of you - a mentor, a shining example of what a bean should be. You went above and beyond the call in so many ways, trying to help your beloved Neko, and still finding time to help the rest of us and our kitties. Neko had some wonderful years with you that she never would have had without your diligent care and overwhelming love. Together you beat back the monster that is Acromegaly, not once but twice. In the end, the monster could not be denied, but even then you made the choice when and where to end the battle. And what a lovely choice it was - we should all be so lucky as to have such a peaceful, loving exit from this world. Neko knew nothing but unquestioning love from the day she came into your home until the day she left it. There is a hole in your home now, but you can keep it filled with the memories of her, and the sound of her purrs will echo in your ears for years to come.

To Wendy, Ron and Theo, Mark and I send our deepest condolences.

Neko, I hope there is an abundance of brown moths at the bridge for you to chase, and maybe one or two Mr. AC tires for you to rub against. Your beans and your brother will miss you dearly, as will all your aunties, but we are glad you are no longer in pain.
Fly free and land softly, sweet girl.

 

[suki & crystal (GA)]

(((Wendy & Ron, and Theo))) what a peaceful end to a wonderful life, surrounded by those she loved best. You and Neko taught us all so much, especially for us acrokitties. You were one of the very first to welcome us when Crystal and I found our way here just over 2 years ago and you became our mentor and lifeline for all things acro, where your knowledge of that dreadful disease certainly extended Crystal's life. I am eternally endebted to you.

Wear your locket close to your heart, where she belongs always.

Now Neko is at peace and will be able to chase brown moths and hummingbirds until her heart's content. There are many friends waiting to welcome her as she embarks on her next big adventure. Fly free sweet Neko on your angel wings and send your mamabean a sign that all is well - until you meet again.


"Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes.
Because for those who love with heart and soul, there is no separation"

 

[Vyktors Mum]

One last chance to bask in her sunny solarium, purrs for her beloved family and a peaceful crossing. Intellectually I'm so happy that this was the way that she went. A very beautiful end for the most beautiful girl. But that's not stopping the flood of tears. You will miss her so much

Such a lovely idea to keep a piece of her in the locket close to your heart, where her spirit already resides.

I'm so sorry it was her time to leave this realm ((((((Wendy, Ron, Theo))))))

Neko

 

[Shoeskitty-GA]

Wendy, No words, just tears and hugs and prayers for all of you! RIP Sweet Neko! You are much loved!

 

[Osha]

So many tears!! Neko, you have the best kitty mom!! Please send her a message that you made it to the bridge safely.

 

[HWright]

Wendy,
Our love and condolences and hugs for you and your family. Neko was and always will be the happiest being in the universe to have found you and shared your lives together. You gave each other the best, most loving life, all of which Neko brings with her during this her next glorious journey.

When you wrote about Neko's love of moths, memories with smiles abd sweet tears came of how Sootie and her sisters Guernsey (GA also a tux) and Sweetie Pie (GA, little grey and white with flower petal markings), in their much younger and indoor-outdoor time, used to dance on summer moon nights under the street light on our quiet street, pawing and leaping for the moths who fluttered and flickered in the dance of tease. The joy the oneness of all.

May your days be gentle and dreams sweet and full of the love that is never far. I often feel that spirits of our beloveds travel quickly and often on sunbeams and moonbeams and rain and snow beams to visit and to be sure that we are ok I had feeling last night that Bo(GA) was definitely on board in welcoming Neko to the chorus (that Les envisions so beautifully).

With bushels full love and hugs and vines and thanks,
Sina, Sootie, Azalea and their tribe and GA's

 

[Gill & George]

((((((((Wendy, Ron, Theo))))))))))
Last night, George wanted to go out in the courtyard, so I went with him, we sat on the wall looking at the stars, it was a beautiful clear night after the rain of previous days, I knew it was about the time of Neko's crossing, as I looked up at the stars, I felt sure the one that was shining more brightly than them all was Neko looking down on us.
I can picture her, all her fur restored, free from all her aches and pains, happily chasing those butterflies, moths and hummingbirds.
I will miss Neko and her cheeky antics, be it her 'helping' you bake, demanding those elevator calls, and her PJ parties.

Fly Free Neko, and land ever so softly at the bridge where all your GA buddies await you.


Thank you Wendy, for being there for George and I.