GA 12/21 - Wynken, sweet angel forever

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Cara and Wynken (GA)

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THANK YOU... ALL for the tremendous support and concern and VINES, last night.
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I haven't posted for months, but some of you may recall that last February I took Wynken to Ohio State Vet Univ. to have an evaluation by a feline diabetic specialist, because he just didn't seem to respond to insulin the way other kitties do. He was on Prozinc at the time. He had a tip to tail exam and many things were ruled out. Actually nothing of note was found.

Dr Chen Gilor started him on Lev at that time. While initially promising, we have never achieved very good regulation. :( Also, I am gone too much to push his dose and do TR... I never know in advance when I'm not going to be able to get home to check him during the day, so I conservatively have been moving his dose in tiny increments using the digital calipers. But this crisis is not about his diabetes...

I am absolutely overwhelmed at how supportive you all are, when I haven't even been on the board! :bighug: With all of my other cats, and a very demanding job I just don't have time to post daily. But this is the first place I thought of when I was so upset last night - so Thank you!

I was able to sleep for about 4 1/2 hours, but in the middle of that, the doctor called with some preliminary test results.

His BG was *very* high (they measured it in the high 400 to low 500 range), can't recall numbers... Too sleepy. I had explained that I had switched to a human meter, and that I kept my alpha track 2 only to check him occasionally, and that I knew there was a difference in how the meters read. I told him he was on levemir, but they decided to use what they had, she kept calling it "Regular" ...So pPresumably Humalin R? But he is not wanting to eat (does not surprise me with all that's going on). She said she offered him "diabetic canned food":facepalm: My priority today is to get back down there with his normal canned favorites. I sure hope he'll eat for me!

She also gave me her & a specialist's assessment of x-rays they had taken of his heart and lungs, that she said were not indicative of heart disease necessarily, but that the cardiologist she had consulted with agreed that the heart was "slightly enlarged".

His urine was very dilute - but that could be because my local veterinarian had given him some Lasix before we went down there (as well as heparin and a pain med.)

Then she described all of his blood results… And I was extremely sleepy, so I didn't catch it all, but I feel fairly knowledgeable about each of the blood parameters, so as I heard it I felt I absorbed what she said. Nothing indicating kidney or liver issues.

The big "flag" is that his white blood cell count is extremely high. I believe she said that it was neutrophils, and one other type of white blood cell. She said that it indicated some sort of infection (Obviously) or even cancer. :nailbiting:

Today he will be referred to their internal medicine specialist with a cardiac consult to continue to understand the clot. They will do an ultrasound of his abdomen to look for mass/tumor.

I will post more updates when I can, when I know more. :bighug:
 
I hope the cardiologist will do an echocardiogram which is the only way to dx HCM. Doodles vets missed his HCM/CHF and in fact they literally said "it's not like he has heart disease" and sure enough 1 month later when I took him to a cardio vet the eco showed severe HCM and CHF.

It is likely R that they are using which is an in and out insulin that lasts about 4-5 hours and is good for pulling those numbers down. Hopefully Wynken will eat for you today.

So glad you posted Cara. We're all here for you and sending truck loads of continuous vines and prayers for you both. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I hope the cardiologist will do an echocardiogram which is the only way to dx HCM. Doodles vets missed his HCM/CHF and in fact they literally said "it's not like he has heart disease" and sure enough 1 month later when I took him to a cardio vet the eco showed severe HCM and CHF.

It is likely R that they are using which is an in and out insulin that lasts about 4-5 hours and is good for pulling those numbers down. Hopefully Wynken will eat for you today.

So glad you posted Cara. We're all here for you and sending truck loads of continuous vines and prayers for you both. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Yes! Thanks Karen... She had said that to me before I left, that he would get an echo today. They started Plavix last night, and continued heparin. We'll see what today brings. I'm headed back (90 min drive) in about an hour. I have to be with him! My boss is going to be annoyed about end of year stuff... I won't finish things I should.

If he was a 13 yo HUMAN everyone would understand. But I learned long ago to just say I have had a personal emergency and take a vacation day.
 
If he was a 13 yo HUMAN everyone would understand. But I learned long ago to just say I have had a personal emergency and take a vacation day.

This is unfortunately so true.:( I am happy you took the day off so you can go visit him.:cat:
 
Go be with your little man Cara.. cheering you on Wynken... eat for your bean we all know they didnt try to give you good fuds... maybe if there is an infection it is helping making him insulin resistant??? hoping you get answers today :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Guys, I am on the road and using the voice feature on my phone to dictate this to you… I received a call from med vet just as I was about to leave the house that he has taken a turn for the worse. They did an echocardiogram and have definitely found underlying heart disease. During the procedure He became distressed and started panting as well as some odd neurological twitches in his face that the doctor thinks may be related to clots in other parts of his circulation, perhaps affecting his brain.

Needless to say I am out of my mind worrying about him, and at this point I am trying to mostly observe the speed limit as I try to get down there so at least he will not be alone when he dies.

Continuation of prayers and hopeful thoughts are most appreciated, but I think it this point it's just a matter of when. So so scared that he won't make it until I get to be with him! My very greatest fear is that he will feel alone among strangers…And I do not want him to suffer!
 
Please drive carefully! We are all sending massive vines and good thoughts your way. Hang in there, Wynken, your mama bean is on her way.
 
Oh Cara! My heart goes out to you. Keeping Wynken in my thoughts and prays and sending healing vines! :bighug::bighug::bighug: for you. Drive safely!
 
All,

I have been here at the facility for about an hour, speaking to his physician, about everything that is wrong, and all of the possible outcomes. Thankfully, finances are not an issue… so I am able to make the very best choice for the heart of my heart.

Wynken has had a lot of damage to his hind legs and he is on extremely strong painkillers… And he is still alert... and he knew me when I spent 20 minutes with him in the back. I am grateful for the palliative care that has him seeming as good as he does right this moment.

However, I know in my very soul that I have to let him go. He's having a lot of competing medical concerns… And they are all familiar to me because I've done that dance before with other kitties.

I would spend every dollar I have & every waking moment of the next few weeks rehabilitating him, if I thought that it would be a good outcome.

But I need to make the decision that is best for HIM. And that is to not put him through anything further. Too much possibility for more pain/trauma. It devastates me thinking of what could happen....

After visiting with him in the intensive care unit I am now waiting in a very pretty room for them to bring him in and need to spend some time with him before we put him to sleep :(

They said I can take as much time as I would like. I've seldom had that luxury in the past…

My heart is exploding :arghh:
 
Cara how very sad but you are making the right decision. Our kitties have a way of letting us know when it is time.
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Wynken you will always be close to mama bean!!!!! Fly free beautiful little kitty! Prayers to you Cara!
 
Cara, I am so sorry to hear this news and that you have had to make the most difficult of all decisions but I am also glad you got there, will have another snuggle and be there with him when he crosses to the bridge. Wynken will be with you always as your guardian angel as you have and continue to be for him! Fly free sweet Wynken! :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug: Cara!
 
(((Cara))) my heart is breaking I am so very sorry, you have been an amazing bean to sweet Wynken and all your other kitties. You are making the bravest, most loving decision. I'm so glad you got there in time to share a few more precious moments with sweet Wynken. Sending prayers and hugs to you at this difficult time.
Fly Free Wynken, Land Softly:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
My heart is breaking for you :bighug::bighug::bighug:it is the ultimate gesture of profound love but one that taxes the human heart that holds that love to its breaking point. There are no words that can ever adequately convey what my heart wants to say to you right now so sending vines and hope you feel what my words can't say:bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Land softly Wynken.
I'm going to share my thoughts on where Wynken is heading...:rb_icon:
I have a picture of the rainbow bridge in my mind. It is a beautiful bridge covered in millions of tiny sparkling bells. When each new cat arrives it shimmers and all of those sparkling bells move just enough to make the most beautiful sound...the GA kitties are there all around and the new cats bell is added to the bridge and the melody...

I am sure that Wynken bell will add a beautiful new note to that melody:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
My heart is breaking for you as I read this post. You are about to give your baby the ultimate gift of love and I am crying with and for you as you release Wynken from his pain and struggle. Thank goodness you are able to be there to gently guide him onwards towards the Rainbow Bridge.

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Cara, I'm so very sorry - really glad you could be there, and that you could make the decision that it was time to let him go, but so sorry for your loss. Like @Sienne and Gabby (GA), we were in this position a year ago (today) :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:

Fly free, Wynken, and land softly. You will be sorely missed.
 
Saying goodbye to our little ones is perhaps the kindest thing we can choose to do when they are suffering... but the decision itself is one of life's most difficult. Sending many :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug: and prayers to help ease your aching heart.
 
{{{{Oh Cara}}}}} , I am so very very sorry for you and Wynken. You both were on my mind last night , perhaps this is why......... you were the best bean a kitty could ask for and I know that he knows that. Sending you lots of hugs and love and emotional support. You are giving Wyn the last loving act on this side of the bridge. Until you meet again........

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((Cara)) I'm not very good at words just know that my heart hurts for you very much. So glad you were able to spend some time with him before he's flying free of pain and landing softly at the bridge. Much love, thoughts and prayers for you :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Dear Cara I remember the first time you posted on the prozinc forum and @Sue and Oliver (GA) and @Rachel guided you through the whole feeding separately issue. We all knew at that time that you and Wynken were very special. I am so profoundly sorry about this.
2016 has just sucked in every way possible and it just keeps getting worse. Please drive back carefully - your other kitties need you - the very special angel that you are. RIP, sweetest Wynken.
 
Cara, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss - sweet Wynken had the best mom in the world and I am so glad that you made it back in time and were able to spend his final moments with him. There's nothing more sad than saying goodbye and especially when it all happens so suddenly.

Fly free, Wynken, and land softly. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
((((((Cara)))))) I am so glad that you made it there to spend some time with your beloved Wynken and to be there with him when he crossed. Such a difficult decision made with so much love, I'm so sorry that you had to make it.

RIP Wynken:rb_icon: my tears are joining the LL river to carry you gently to the bridge.
 
(((Cara))),

I was afraid to log on to the Board today, and my fears were realized. I am so very sorry that Wynken's name has been added to the much too long list of FDMB kitties who went to the bridge in 2016. I am beyond grateful that you made it safely to the vet in time to say goodbye and get some cuddles in. You gave him the greatest, most loving and selfless gift today, in spite of what it costs you. I hope you feel the love and support from your family here as we cry with you and for you. Never doubt that you gave Wynken's the best life possible and the gentlest crossing.:bighug::bighug::bighug:

Fly free, sweet Wynken, and land softly.:rb_icon:.
 
Wow. I have never experienced such a massive outpouring of love and help as I have over the last 24 hours..... No question this was the worst day of my life. And Wynk is my fourth kitty this year.... But all of you know the unique facets that go with the sugar-dance.

I would love to have time to write back to each one of you individually, but as you can probably imagine after little sleep and then the day I've had I feel rather like I've been run over by a truck.

Before I turn in, I would just like to share that I brought his precious precious body back home with me (to take to MY vet for private cremation) and spent more time saying goodbye, as well as what I consider to be an important thing... Showing his sister (Blynken) that he was gone. I think that was a good thing to do. Plus I really wanted to pet him during the sunset, on his own familiar sunporch.

He is at peace and I TRULY hope there's a way to actually see and meet him again. I have to believe that. I just can't stand it otherwise.

Goodnight my sweet loving L&L friends. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug: You have meant the world to me today on a day when I have otherwise been alone. I wish I could hug you all...

Ironically, I may start posting, or at least commenting again in this forum.... because where else are people going to understand the bereft feeling of not starting the morning with an AMPS and a warm rice-sock? :oops:

cat_wings>o My Angel Wynken, the best boy I've ever known!!!
 
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