GA 10/17, Good Bye, Sweet Susie

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

Beautiful, beautiful kitty. Mustache reminds me of Bama's.

I love the mustaches. Your Bama has a black one. My Susie and Boo had/have a white one. I never really saw how pretty your Bama is. I love the colors in his face. He is a very pretty boy. He had a great day of blues yesterday and the greens the day before. His body should be starting to adjust to the lower numbers and maybe, one day, he won't bounce so high. I looked for your post earlier today but I guess I didn't go back far enough. Usually, you post very early in the morning. I hope everything is good. Thank you for stopping by. Yes, Boo is a sweet, pretty kitty. What is even more important is how affectionate he is. More so than Susie and more so than my previous cats, Mia and Simon. I'm glad I was able to rescue him. He is one tough little dude with the dogs. Such a slight frame but powerful personality.

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

Summer, just stopped in and saw the pic you posted of Boo. He is adorable!

Hi Jessica. I love that picture of your beautiful Callie in the spreadsheet. She is a true beauty and I love those green eyes. She is also doing better with the blues and green. I think about you and your Callie and wish only good things for both of you. This diabetes journey is tough but Callie is very lucky to have you, Jessica. Thank you for stopping by.

 

[Our Dolly Girl (GA)]

Thank you, Adrienne. You are in my thoughts and heart every day. I hope you are doing a little better. I was finally able to take the baby gate down, separating the dogs from Boo, and have actually had all three on the bed with me at one time. Boo is still a little paranoid but Kali (my foxhound) has been very good with him and Molly Pop is just a gentle soul. Boo doesn't come out of the bedroom much - yet - but I know he will in time. He is one of the most lovable kitties I have every owned. Mom is doing about as well as can be expected for someone her age and with her problems. I'm still waiting to get an estimate on my cataract surgery. I cannot wait to be able to see again in my right eye.

Thank you so much for thinking of me. ;

Hi Summer, thank you for your wonderful message, you sound so good. I am so happy to hear that the baby gate is down and you, Boo, Kali and Molly Pop are one beautiful family (and mom)..You sound at peace which is exactly how I feel. I haven’t felt peaceful in a long time. Caring for Dolly and truthfully fighting a losing battle with her health was taking all of my energy, fogging up my mind, both of our spirits were fading away. I had to accept it was time to end her suffering.
I am always happy to hear from you and hope to continuing staying in touch. I hope your mom stays as well as possible, I will add her to my prayers. Continue to enjoy your animals with all the love you have to give, we both know their time with us can change so very quickly. I look forward to the day you can share that you finally had cataract surgery and can see well again, no more yellow haze. Take good care my friend. Talk again soon.

 

[SashaV]

I'm so sorry Summer
You were the absolute best mom for Susie! You really did everything possible for her, and I know she knew that too. I'm proud of you, for getting so far as you did, I know it haven't been easy for you! Love makes us able to withstand lots of things.

Don't be a stranger, please
I'll miss you, your love and caring for everyone. I hope to be able to follow your new adventures

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

I'm so sorry Summer
You were the absolute best mom for Susie! You really did everything possible for her, and I know she knew that too. I'm proud of you, for getting so far as you did, I know it haven't been easy for you! Love makes us able to withstand lots of things.

Don't be a stranger, please
I'll miss you, your love and caring for everyone. I hope to be able to follow your new adventures

Thank you, Sasha. It has been almost a month since I lost my girl. I am moving on but she is still with me everyday. In my thoughts and in the special places here in my home that she liked to sleep. I am still sad about how this all went down after trying so hard to regulate her diabetes. The additional medical issues that come along just suck the life out of some of these kitties. Susie was one of them. I hope all goes well for your Mauer and the other furballs in your house. Big kiss to Theo. Hope he is being a good boy.

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

Hi Summer, thank you for your wonderful message, you sound so good. I am so happy to hear that the baby gate is down and you, Boo, Kali and Molly Pop are one beautiful family (and mom)..You sound at peace which is exactly how I feel. I haven’t felt peaceful in a long time. Caring for Dolly and truthfully fighting a losing battle with her health was taking all of my energy, fogging up my mind, both of our spirits were fading away. I had to accept it was time to end her suffering.
I am always happy to hear from you and hope to continuing staying in touch. I hope your mom stays as well as possible, I will add her to my prayers. Continue to enjoy your animals with all the love you have to give, we both know their time with us can change so very quickly. I look forward to the day you can share that you finally had cataract surgery and can see well again, no more yellow haze. Take good care my friend. Talk again soon.

I don't know if I will ever be able to say I am at peace with Susie's death. I'm still angry at both my vets for delaying treatment after the new diagnosis of IBD and/or Lymphoma. What were they thinking? Why were they delaying anything that might have helped her? Did they know that she was in serious condition and just tried to spare me from any efforts to save her? If so, that was wrong too. Sorry, Adrienne. I don't think these questions will ever go away. I have already considered switching vets but there is one in the office, that was not treating Susie, that I really love. I wish I had gone to him in the beginning.

I am doing better with my new little guy but it is hard to look the other way after so many concerns with Susie that I felt were not addressed. I have anger and I need to let it go. I will, in time. I hope you will bring in one or two lovely additions to your family soon. A new friend, or two, is so helpful to a hurting heart. I am so glad that you are able to relax now and take care of yourself - despite the pain I know you feel.

 

[Our Dolly Girl (GA)]

I don't know if I will ever be able to say I am at peace with Susie's death. I'm still angry at both my vets for delaying treatment after the new diagnosis of IBD and/or Lymphoma. What were they thinking? Why were they delaying anything that might have helped her? Did they know that she was in serious condition and just tried to spare me from any efforts to save her? If so, that was wrong too. Sorry, Adrienne. I don't think these questions will ever go away. I have already considered switching vets but there is one in the office, that was not treating Susie, that I really love. I wish I had gone to him in the beginning.

I am doing better with my new little guy but it is hard to look the other way after so many concerns with Susie that I felt were not addressed. I have anger and I need to let it go. I will, in time. I hope you will bring in one or two lovely additions to your family soon. A new friend, or two, is so helpful to a hurting heart. I am so glad that you are able to relax now and take care of yourself - despite the pain I know you feel.

Thank you sweet Summer, anger is part of the grieving process. It will dissipate in time. There is no way to walk it backwards, acceptance will come in time. Using a new vet is a good ideas, you have to have trust. I have to go to bed, long day with the birthday party for my great grandsons 1st Birthday. I don’t like parties but sometimes you do what you don’t like when it’s something special. So happy we are friends and hope to talk again soon.

 

[Our Dolly Girl (GA)]

Thank you sweet Summer, anger is part of the grieving process. It will dissipate in time. There is no way to walk it backwards, acceptance will come in time. Using a new vet is a good ideas, you have to have trust. I have to go to bed, long day with the birthday party for my great grandsons 1st Birthday. I don’t like parties but sometimes you do what you don’t like when it’s something special. So happy we are friends and hope to talk again soon.

I wanted to add Summer that today began my starting to doubt myself, doubt my decisions, perhaps acted too quickly. Scrolling through pictures for ones of my great grandson and of course picture after picture, I took pictures of Dolly nearly every day. I said to myself, she looks perfectly fine, what did I do, I’ve changed my mind, she looks just fine. I was so sure this day would never come. I knew I couldn’t prolong her suffering, she wasn’t eating, it was beyond painful to watch her walk, she had been to the vet countless times, her heart was tenuous, tried and failed treatments. Her diabetes was no longer controlled. Yet here I am, wondering if I did everything possible. Today is two weeks and it feels like minutes and it feels like an eternity. I really never believed doubt would be part of my grieving. I needed to share this with you Summer because you are a friend and hopefully can understand how I feel.I continue to feel devastated over the loss of my sweet Angel Dolly every day. She was part of every moment of every day from the moment I got up and throughout the night, worry filled my thoughts and dreams on how I could help her get better, feel better. Now I am filled with doubt. Thanks for listening.

 

[Jay Dee]

Oh summer I just saw this. I’m so so sorry to hear the news. I haven’t been on here much dealing with my own human issues and was shocked to see this. Big hug to you!

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

I wanted to add Summer that today began my starting to doubt myself, doubt my decisions, perhaps acted too quickly. Scrolling through pictures for ones of my great grandson and of course picture after picture, I took pictures of Dolly nearly every day. I said to myself, she looks perfectly fine, what did I do, I’ve changed my mind, she looks just fine. I was so sure this day would never come. I knew I couldn’t prolong her suffering, she wasn’t eating, it was beyond painful to watch her walk, she had been to the vet countless times, her heart was tenuous, tried and failed treatments. Her diabetes was no longer controlled. Yet here I am, wondering if I did everything possible. Today is two weeks and it feels like minutes and it feels like an eternity. I really never believed doubt would be part of my grieving. I needed to share this with you Summer because you are a friend and hopefully can understand how I feel.I continue to feel devastated over the loss of my sweet Angel Dolly every day. She was part of every moment of every day from the moment I got up and throughout the night, worry filled my thoughts and dreams on how I could help her get better, feel better. Now I am filled with doubt. Thanks for listening.

Dear Adrienne. Never fill your heart with doubt. You went above and beyond what most people would have done to save their cats. How can you possibly doubt yourself? That is a truly cruel thing you are doing to yourself. You did not act too quickly. You gave everything to your girl to help her and nothing was working in the end. I am blown away that you are feeling any kind of guilt. You know, I am listening to your comments and I am seeing that you did everything for her. Please, PLEASE, do not question your decision to end her pain. I want you to read what you have just written to me. I want you to see that you did everything for your girl. You have got to let go of any guilt because it is totally misguided. Please, Adrienne, find a way to realize that you did the very best you could for Dolly. You need to know that there could be no better mom than you.

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

Oh summer I just saw this. I’m so so sorry to hear the news. I haven’t been on here much dealing with my own human issues and was shocked to see this. Big hug to you!

Thank you, Jill. I miss my girl but after the diagnosis of IBD/Lymphoma she just went downhill. It all happened so quickly I guess I am still in a degree of shock.

 

[Jay Dee]

Thank you, Jill. I miss my girl but after the diagnosis of IBD/Lymphoma she just went downhill. It all happened so quickly I guess I am still in a degree of shock.

We all know how you feel. Hang in there.

 

[carlascalico]

Summer, thanks for sharing the picture of your new Boo. You are right. At first glance, I thought it was Susie reincarnated or definitely she had a paw in sending him to you.
Ironically I also recently adopted a male Tuxedo or rather he adopted me. He belonged to our neighbor who agreed to take him along with an intact male to raise kittens. My tuxedo [named Sheriff Two Socks] climbed 40 feet up a walnut tree outside our horse barn. He was there crying for 3 days as we tried calling fire department, tree trimming companies and finally a private rescue person. The owner was unconcerned saying he would come down when he got hungry. Just before the private rescue person showed up, the tuxedo came down and decided I was his person. Happy cat with his new home, EXCEPT as Jessica knows, “Calicos rule” and Cali detests his entry into our home and lives. Ironically, her BG #s have been the best ever. I believe his distraction and persona have reawakened her.
Things happen for a reason, Summer. Enjoy your Boo and the adventures he has in store for you. May you have a wonderful Thanksgiving
Carla

 

[Summer and Susie (GA)]

Summer, thanks for sharing the picture of your new Boo. You are right. At first glance, I thought it was Susie reincarnated or definitely she had a paw in sending him to you.
Ironically I also recently adopted a male Tuxedo or rather he adopted me. He belonged to our neighbor who agreed to take him along with an intact male to raise kittens. My tuxedo [named Sheriff Two Socks] climbed 40 feet up a walnut tree outside our horse barn. He was there crying for 3 days as we tried calling fire department, tree trimming companies and finally a private rescue person. The owner was unconcerned saying he would come down when he got hungry. Just before the private rescue person showed up, the tuxedo came down and decided I was his person. Happy cat with his new home, EXCEPT as Jessica knows, “Calicos rule” and Cali detests his entry into our home and lives. Ironically, her BG #s have been the best ever. I believe his distraction and persona have reawakened her.
Things happen for a reason, Summer. Enjoy your Boo and the adventures he has in store for you. May you have a wonderful Thanksgiving
Carla

Poor Sheriff. Up 40 feet in a tree for three days. Good for you for being the one to try and get him help. It is interesting that your Cali is upset with Sheriff but her blood glucose levels have been better. You would think just the opposite would be happening. Bless you for taking in this cat who's owner obviously was not that concerned about him. I love the tuxedos and the blacks. I do think Susie guided me to Boo. He has been quite the feisty one. I was afraid my 70 lb. foxhound would harass Boo but it seems it is the opposite. Boo holds his ground and actually stalks Kali. I love that Boo is a little younger than the other cats I have adopted/rescued in recent years. He brings some life to this quiet, boring household.

I also want to wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving. Love the blues and greens Cali has been getting but try to get some more test in in the am and pm. I have seen a really horrible story about a cat that suffered a hypoglycemic event and it just about killed her. She may still need to be put down. If you get the chance, look for the "Sassy" thread and read it. It may change your mind about the testing. God bless and thanks for checking on me.