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Jodey&Eddie&Blue

Jodey&Eddie&Blue

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Hello everyone,
It's over. Eddie is gone. I'm heartbroken.
At first yesterday they thought hepatic lipidosis and that seemed reasonable and the neuroloogist and IM thought he had a good chance. But then they did the MRI and the acromegaly tumour has grown very large and was pressing on his brain stem. i went to the clinic and let him go with Blue.
All I can say is thank you for your kind words, prayers, support, encouragement.
 
Oh Jodey :bighug: :bighug::bighug:

I’d been looking for an update and had a bad feeling when none appeared. You have to be exhausted and gutted. You’ve done so very, very much for both of your boys over the years and fought so hard for them. You’ve been a dedicated and tenacious advocate and it’s clear your love for them runs deep.

After the intensity of the past few years, you might whiplash at the sudden lack of medical tasks. After losing my very special high maintenance guy recently, I wandered around the house in the days that followed saying “I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing right now.” He had been the anchor of my schedule for over 12 years and I was somewhat lost. So please be sure to take care of you too. Transitions can be painful, especially when there’s that much muscle memory involved.

I hate acro. It’s such a debilitating and insidious disease. :( I’ll be thinking of you and sharing in your sadness. I do believe Eddie had quite a few people who have grown to care about him.

RIP Eddie, and go say hi to TomTom for me (another black cat who said good riddance to a wretched body).
 
Oh Jodey. I'm so so sorry to hear this. You were such a dedicated mom to both your boys. Fly high sweet Eddie, I'm sure he is with Blue now. Please take care of yourself. We all care about you ❤️:bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I'm so sorry, (((Jodey))). I'm heartbroken with and for you. You are the most dedicated cat Mom! You did absolutely everything possible for both Eddie and Blue. Sending you many hugs, prayers and love. Please take good care of yourself. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((Jodey))) Tears on my keyboard. :bighug::bighug::bighug:

Anything that could be done to help a cat with acromegaly, you have tried it. You have gone above and beyond for your boys. It can be such an ugly disease for our sweet friends. You gave Eddie such love and I'm sure he knew it.

Do take care of yourself. JL makes an excellent point about how the routine, testing, shooting, assist feeding, worrying takes over us. When it is not there anymore, it hits really hard. You have been dealing this disease for 6 years! I remember feeling like I couldn't move, hit with a ton of bricks when I had to release Neko from her failing body.

If you believe in the life after, there is an acro greeting committee for Eddie, which includes both Blue and Neko. They will show him how to be a kitten again.cat_wings>o
 
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I'm so sorry. I know you did everything you could for Eddie. He knew how much you loved him. Fly free sweet Eddie. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
JL and Chip said:
Oh Jodey :bighug: :bighug::bighug:

I’d been looking for an update and had a bad feeling when none appeared. You have to be exhausted and gutted. You’ve done so very, very much for both of your boys over the years and fought so hard for them. You’ve been a dedicated and tenacious advocate and it’s clear your love for them runs deep.

After the intensity of the past few years, you might whiplash at the sudden lack of medical tasks. After losing my very special high maintenance guy recently, I wandered around the house in the days that followed saying “I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing right now.” He had been the anchor of my schedule for over 12 years and I was somewhat lost. So please be sure to take care of you too. Transitions can be painful, especially when there’s that much muscle memory involved.

I hate acro. It’s such a debilitating and insidious disease. :( I’ll be thinking of you and sharing in your sadness. I do believe Eddie had quite a few people who have grown to care about him.

RIP Eddie, and go say hi to TomTom for me (another black cat who said good riddance to a wretched body).
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Oh, JL, you have so aptly described what I"m feeling. Like right now I cannot believe it's less than 24 hours since I was standing in that room in the clinic saying goodbye to Eddie.

I made it back home and I am exhausted. Again, was that less that 24 hours ago?

Even now, I was in the kitchen and as acutely as I feel Eddie's loss, I looked at the cupboard where his medications are lined up and the clock and thought to myself, "Ok, I've got 2.5 hours before feedng him and shot time." Like I know he's gone and yet I thought and physical felt the lean towards the cupboard in my body. Muscle memory.

I hate acro too.

But it's now Eddie and Blue, together again, like in their photo. My consolation, indeed, as someone said, that in his last few weeks, he was happy. He knew he was loved. I do hope they meet TomTom. :bighug::bighug::bighug:

I also hope it's ok with everyone I took down the "GA".
 
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Hey Jodey, how are you holding up? I’ve been thinking of you a lot the last two days—the first days after saying goodbye can be the worst. :(:bighug:

It’s possible some people don’t realize you lost Eddie given that the GA isn’t on the thread title, but know that many of us care. I didn’t know if you’d have the heart to come back here right away—everyone is different and I know for some it’s too painful for awhile. Please let us know how you’re doing when you feel up to it.
 
JL and Chip said:
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Hey Jodey, how are you holding up? I’ve been thinking of you a lot the last two days—the first days after saying goodbye can be the worst. :(:bighug:

It’s possible some people don’t realize you lost Eddie given that the GA isn’t on the thread title, but know that many of us care. I didn’t know if you’d have the heart to come back here right away—everyone is different and I know for some it’s too painful for awhile. Please let us know how you’re doing when you feel up to it.
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Oh, JL, thank you for the prompt. You are so right about these first days. I had just written a DM to @Wendy&Neko because to put it plainly, I've been so distressed that I couldn't go public . I'll put the GA back in the thread title for now. I just can't put it in the signature. Anyway, I just wrote this:

OMG, Wendy, I can't tell you how disoriented I've been feeling. I keep thinking I have to do certain things they feel like a phantom limb. Yesterday was my first full day back and I woke up at 4:30 am, which is time to test Eddie and then at 8:30 I was planning his food even as I simultaneously knew he is not here. And, honestly, I was so exhausted from the travel and the trauma that I had a short nap yesterday but when I woke up I felt---the only way I can decribe it--panic. I was crying and calling Eddie's name as if I might have him return if only I could get the frequency right. It seemed part of the panic. I quickly phoned a friend because I really needed to get grounded.
I miss posting here about Eddie every day and just visiting the forum I feel like a ghost. This is so terrible. I miss him so much.

Thank you for being t/here, JL.
 
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Jodey&Eddie&Blue said:
Hello everyone,
It's over. Eddie is gone. I'm heartbroken.
At first yesterday they thought hepatic lipidosis and that seemed reasonable and the neuroloogist and IM thought he had a good chance. But then they did the MRI and the acromegaly tumour has grown very large and was pressing on his brain stem. i went to the clinic and let him go with Blue.
All I can say is thank you for your kind words, prayers, support, encouragement.
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Jodey, I am so very sorry for your loss. Fly free sweet Eddie. Sending prayers :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
That is such a wonderful picture of your handsome boy. thank you for sharing it with us.

I hope he sends you a sign, many of us hear from our GA cats. It provides some comfort.

As you can see, I never changed my user name either. Grief takes time.
 
Thinking of you Jodey. What a beautiful photo of your beautiful Eddie ❤️
Thank you for sharing it with us and sharing your feelings. It’s nice to see you here, where we all understand your feeling a part of this group.
It’s so so hard to go through what you are right now.

Please stay in touch and take good care of yourself. Sending you hugs and prayers :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Staci & Ivy said:
Thinking of you Jodey. What a beautiful photo of your beautiful Eddie ❤️
Thank you for sharing it with us and sharing your feelings. It’s nice to see you here, where we all understand your feeling a part of this group.
It’s so so hard to go through what you are right now.

Please stay in touch and take good care of yourself. Sending you hugs and prayers :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
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Thank you so much, Stacy. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to participate at all, but I see this group is part of me, Eddie and Blue and our journey so coming back here feels like coming home to people who understand each other and our commitment to our kitties in need. Thank you.
 
Wendy&Neko said:
That is such a wonderful picture of your handsome boy. thank you for sharing it with us.

I hope he sends you a sign, many of us hear from our GA cats. It provides some comfort.

As you can see, I never changed my user name either. Grief takes time.
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Thank you, Wendy. Blue, Eddie and I couldn't have made it this far without your unflagging support.
I hope he send a sign as well. We're coming up in two weeks to the one year anniversary for Blue so maybe they will team up as they did IRL when they were young kitties.
 
Jodey&Eddie&Blue said:
I'll put the GA back in the thread title for now. I just can't put it in the signature.
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You don't have to put the GA in the signature ever if you don't want to. I didn't think about the fact that the signature was also my login when I added it and it was horrible having to type GA each time I logged in. I couldn't change it because you can only change your signature every 30 days. I just wanted to warn you.

That's a great picture of your sweet Eddie. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
carfurby (GA) said:
You don't have to put the GA in the signature ever if you don't want to. I didn't think about the fact that the signature was also my login when I added it and it was horrible having to type GA each time I logged in. I couldn't change it because you can only change your signature every 30 days. I just wanted to warn you.

That's a great picture of your sweet Eddie. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
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Oh gosh, Carla, thanks for letting me know that! In fact, thanks for much more than that. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Jodey! I am so very sorry

It has been such a long hard road for you,Blue, and Eddie! You took such great care of them, you did everything possible for them gave them such a great life! I cannot imagine how you must feel. This is a great loss I in to update since I've been mia and never ever expected this.

Fly high sweet Eddie cat_wings>o look after mama bean now:bighug::bighug::bighug:

My heart and prayers go out to you!
 
Dear Jodey, I am so very sorry for your loss of sweet Eddie. You truly did everything possible for your babies Blue and Eddie, I have no doubt in my mind they knew the depth of your love for them. You have been in crisis mode for some time now and it will probably take lots of time to come down from it. Be kind to yourself, let yourself grieve, there's no timetable. And don't ever let people tell you that you need to hurry and get over it. There's no getting over a loss like these two, in time, lots of time, you try to get through it but it takes lots of time. One more thing, I lost my Tiger in August. I had always heard the sign they send you is a rainbow from the Rainbow Bridge. Well, it never rains here in the PNW in August. I had to wait until October for that rainbow. But I got signs in other strange ways so I knew she made it there. Good thing because I was a wreck.

Love and peace be with you Jodey, this is another journey.

Fly Free Eddie, and land softly at the Rainbow Bridge
You are so loved.:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Rainbow Conti said:
Jodey! I am so very sorry

It has been such a long hard road for you,Blue, and Eddie! You took such great care of them, you did everything possible for them gave them such a great life! I cannot imagine how you must feel. This is a great loss I in to update since I've been mia and never ever expected this.

Fly high sweet Eddie cat_wings>o look after mama bean now:bighug::bighug::bighug:

My heart and prayers go out to you!
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Rainbow, thank you so much. I feel really quite blindsided by fate this year. It's just now nearing the one year anniversary of losing Blue and now Eddie's precedes this anniversary. I've got to admit to feeling unbalanced not only by grief but also by the fact my highly focussed caregiving of them both has evaporated and I'm left holding the glucose meter, the syringe, the medications, the insulin, all of it.

But thank you for checking in and your kind words. It's good to hear from you and I hope you are doing well.
 
Tiger(GA) and Ruth said:
Dear Jodey, I am so very sorry for your loss of sweet Eddie. You truly did everything possible for your babies Blue and Eddie, I have no doubt in my mind they knew the depth of your love for them. You have been in crisis mode for some time now and it will probably take lots of time to come down from it. Be kind to yourself, let yourself grieve, there's no timetable. And don't ever let people tell you that you need to hurry and get over it. There's no getting over a loss like these two, in time, lots of time, you try to get through it but it takes lots of time. One more thing, I lost my Tiger in August. I had always heard the sign they send you is a rainbow from the Rainbow Bridge. Well, it never rains here in the PNW in August. I had to wait until October for that rainbow. But I got signs in other strange ways so I knew she made it there. Good thing because I was a wreck.

Love and peace be with you Jodey, this is another journey.

Fly Free Eddie, and land softly at the Rainbow Bridge
You are so loved.:bighug::bighug::bighug:
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Oh, Ruth, thank you so much. I am grateful for what I learned from Eddie and Blue about commitment that is based on love and caring. You're right, though, about being for a long time in crisis mode and I'm only just becoming aware of the amount of cortisol I've had circulating in my system at least since Blue died of cardiac arrest and I was there. That was so traumatic and this time with Eddie, I got to thank him in a certain way and to tell him it was ok to go and that I would always keep him in my heart, where Blue is, and that I would see them again. I think you are right that there is no getting over loss but that one is forever changed by it.
Tonight I allowed myself to go out for dinner with a friend and although I really did feel anxious around the time I should leave for testing back home, I could appreciate the feeling. i did get home in time but while I was there at the winery restaurant, the waiter brought us our glasses before they brought the wine. I saw a tiny mauve petal stuck on the inside of my glass and I knew it was Eddie telling me it's ok. It's ok. Maybe next will be rainbow. I wish for you and Tiger as well.
 
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