of all the things I had to learn about FD, from carb calculations to insulin depots and hypo signs...the mental and emotional toll is one of the more challenging things to get under control imo.
When you're seeing the same numbers day after day and the high numbers just seem endless, the bouncing after you finally see a low number....ugh. Very difficult to come to terms with, for me. Take lots of deep breaths, give yourself extra hugs and try to remember it is a long slow process, getting to regulation. Patience is key but I did not have much of it, I wanted my boy better NOW dammit.
Looking at Lou's SS, I get a sense that you're close to what some call a breakthrough dose, where the bouncing stops and BGs stabilize. Keep plugging away and trust in TR it'll come.