(pmps 186 +2.25 230)

Don't know what else I can do. I can't get blood from M's ears. It took about 6 times 6 lancets and even used a new lancing device thinking the old one was worn out. M won't let me touch his paws.
He is now in the yellow and I don't think he is holding the reducie. 1.5u is too much 1.25u is not enough. A F1.25u didn't work. The doses are not working. I can't get blood to test. so what do I do? Watch my baby
whither away into nothing. I wanted to try to get him into remission for the very reason if something were to happen to me there wouldn't be anyone to give him shots. Obviously remission is not going to happen.
I am out of hope. Not being able to test puts Michael at a great risk.
Michael now has 2 sores under his Chin (he originally had one now it went into two.) The bump on his tail has come back. (Neither of these things seem to bother him). I feel like I have failed my baby boy and that I am losing this battle. I'm not well, and with my challenges, I felt I was doing such a good job until all this happened. The stress on both of us is way too much. I don't know that I can give him up. I'm Heartbroken.
Michael is all I have in the world. All of my family are gone. This is awful.
Vets are not that much help. The people on this board have been awesome and for that I am grateful.
You gave me the courage and strength so I could test & gave shots to keep my baby safe.
Without this board I wouldn't of known what to do.
Again thanks for everything you have done for me.
Paula (terribly worried & scared)
