? Tuxie 4/16/15 dose increase numbers going up..Giving up!! Meltdown over thanks all for support

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This is Tuxie's 4th cycle on the .25 increase and his numbers have been either flat or higher. Any suggestions..opinions..ideas??? Thanks
 
julie & punkin (ga) said:
I think I'd give it a little bit longer. I'm just thinking maybe there a little bit of New Dose Wonkiness going on - mainly because he was getting better #s on 5.0. Sometimes NDW can last for a couple of days in some cats.
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Thanks for the reply...maybe I just need more patience but it is very hard to see him going up with an increase . At 5.0 units his numbers were not great but still better than they are now. After almost 5 months with changing insulin types and increasing on the TR protocol I am just not seeing a whole lot of difference so it is really getting very frustrating!!
 
I have tried SO hard this last almost 1/2 year giving up most of my life to do the best for Tuxies..I have had every test run that I can think of and there is still no answer why he does not respond. I need for myself...dental work..new glasses..a holiday..last one was 12 1/2 years ago after my hubby died. I don't know if I have just reached that burn out point but I see no forward improvmenr and I am so sos frustrated.

I want to thank everyone for the support and help and I wish all the best for everyone dealing with their sugar kitties,
 
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I'm sorry you are so frustrated. But with your numbers tonight, it sure looks like he could touch a toe in the green.
It looks like you are getting closer to that good dose.
And if he does see a green tonight, he'll very likely bounce again.... which means you'd see the high numbers.
But....
the big picture I see is improvement. It's not as fast as you are hoping for..... but there IS improvement.

Sometimes it helps to step back and look at the big picture.


I hope you'll keep trying.
 
Aw, sometimes this plain sucks. You've hit that point.

It's hard when your cat isn't one that responds so easily like some cats do. it's very frustrating. Take a deep breath and get a good night's sleep and I hope you feel better in the morning.

Tuxie isn't to 6u yet, which is when we usually suggest getting a cat checked for a high dose condition. Punkin had acromegaly, wendy's neko has both acro and insulin auto antibodies, suki's crystal has acro and couldn't be tested for iaa...in any case, there is some reason why he needs more insulin, but regardless of the reason, he'll get better control as you move ahead. He hasn't been on the Lev that long.

Sending you a big hug. You aren't alone. Lean on us when you feel despair. Tomorrow is a new day.
 
Would it help if you tested less often? I can help you look at his ss and figure out how to test less if you want help.

I think it would be good if you continued doing things you enjoy.
 
Sending you heaps of hugs :bighug::bighug: and support. It can be really frustrating trying to work this all out and still have a life. We all understand. I have been where you are now, but I plodded on and I am finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel and it is a great feeling.
You know the saying.....'it is often darkest before the dawn'.........
:bighug::bighug:
 
So much to do, such a life change... This dance is not an easy one. You have been doing a great job and I am sure your beloved Tuxie appreciates all you are doing. :bighug:
 
Most of us have been right where you are now. You are doing everything you can for Tuxie , though sometimes it may not seem like enough. You need to take a chance to breathe and look at just how much you have done.

I know it can drive you crazy, but many cats do have NDW. Every time I raise the dose Tess goes up. For three days, …… of hair pulling and worry. Then like clockwork, in the 6th cycle, down she comes. Breathe, have a glass of wine and get a good night's sleep. That's the one good thing about high numbers, you get to sleep. And don't feel guilty about it, you need it! Everything looks bleak when you are exhausted.
 
Please don't give up on your boy yet, you have come so far with him. I understand your complete frustration, I have felt it many times too. Crystal has acro but before she was dx she just didn't respond and her doses were going through the roof. They are still high now but we are having a bit more success with using R. Perhaps that might be an option for you? Tuxie has seen blues and greens, and he will do again. Just take a day off and clear your mind, and hopefully you will feel better. Hugs to you and your boy :bighug::bighug::bighug:.
 
I noticed the higher numbers we see in our cats the more often we test even though it should be the other way round! But no, we have to torture ourselves and make it all worse emotionally when we are already weak and feeling helpless. I am in a similar situation, keep on trying to regulate my Barsa. Not seeing any results is the worst. I've almost reached the breaking point too a couple of days ago but I took a step back, got some sleep..sort of recharged my batteries. We have to stay positive. Your darling Does seem to be getting better overall. Look, he's seeing blue numbers sometimes. You're getting there!

I say definitely test less. Morning preshot, evening preshot - always test. Then in AM part, get where you think his nadir is or somewhere in the middle (+6?). And in PM, test before going to bed (if not too early of course). I take +5 or +6. +7 means I stayed up late. This way you'll get about 4 meter readings per day. And you can always do more if he starts going into blues and greens (and he will eventually!).

Stay strong! hugs
 
It is possible to overthink this. FD is a marathon, not a sprint. Tuxie didn't become diabetic overnight, and he won't get better overnight, either. We talk a lot about patience pants here. We all have a pair or two. I know how hard this is, and how it seems to consume your life. You need to step back a little and remember why you are doing this. I know you want to just "fix" it right away, but unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. You can have a life and keep your kitty, too. I hope you will come back and read these messages and understand that you have a lot of people here that want to help you. You don't have to do it alone. Please don't give up on Tuxie. Take advantage of the wonderful people here and keep going. We'll help! :bighug:
 
I hope you come back and read this condo. So many people are in your corner and wanting to help you. For the lucky few this dance is quick and easy. The rest of us are fighting a marathon. Feel our arms embracing you and helping you. :bighug:
 
Thank you everyone for the support. I guess I just had a major meltdown...too many months of not enough sleep and worrying too much.

I am going to take a mini-break with Tuxie's treatment and not be testing him 100 times a day. It seems that my whole day is set around taking readings and when the readings are not too good then my day is not too good either. I know I need more patience. I guess I just worry that if something happened to me and I was sick or whatever, there is no one else that could take care of Tuxie. I think I just worry too much...so I will just take a deep breath, relax a bit and carry on.

Sorry for my little pity me breakdown last night and thank you all so much for your support.
 
So glad you are feeling better, I think a little meltdown every now and then helps you see things a bit clearer afterwards. We all have days when everything is just too much to bear and no need to apologise, the beauty of this forum is that everyone understands and is here to support you. Sounds like a break from testing so much will be a good thing for you, I know how much BG numbers affect our daily lives but at the end of the day it's only a number and if Tuxie is well in himself, that's what matters. You just have to do the best you can, which is what you are doing. Deep breaths, it will all work out in time. :bighug:
 
We are very glad that you have decided to "carry on". It really is possible to have a life while caring for a kitty who needs your help. You will develop your own style, your own modus operandi, and when you encounter those inevitable setbacks, you will be able to focus on the big picture.
It is scary at first, trying to deal with feline diabetes. All of us here have had that feeling of being totally lost and unequipped for the task at hand. Somehow, we have survived!! You will, too!

Enjoy the weekend, step away from too much testing, and have some fun.

Ella & Rusty
 
I recently met with a respected endocrinologist who is considered to be a major expert in diabetes in animals. One of the things he told me was that sometimes we get too focused on the numbers and forget to look at the whole cat. If kitty is eating well, behaving "normally" and seems to be happy and content, then the numbers are really just that. Obviously, we can't ignore them, but they aren't the only factor in how kitty is doing. As long as you are testing pre-shot and maybe once mid-cycle, Tuxie will be safe and you can have a life. You can step up the program after you've had a chance to relax a little and get back in gear. Remember, we're all here for you!
 
I just wanted to add a few words of support and encouragement. When Gracie was newly diagnosed, we, like many of the others here have said, let every number get us down. We were just focused on numbers getting better so she would go into remission. Every pink and yellow number, not to mention the occasional red, set us both into such a funk. But then we looked at her and how happy and playful she was no matter what her numbers. Yes, we still anguished because she was only four and we were scared to death of what the numbers might be doing to her kidneys. We learned to cut back on testing on high days and get out of the house. Those days became days that we went to have fun....movies, golf, whatever and we put a ban on talking about Gracie on our times out.

We still don't like to see high numbers but we no longer anguish. It is what it is, we take her dose up when we need to. We get back to our lives and just love love love her.

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Thanks again for all the wonderful support. I DO focus too much on the numbers..mostly because Tuxie has been in the high range for the major part of the last almost 5 months. Black and red were his favourite colours the first month or so. But since he is doing okay visually I took today off from doing multiple tests through the first cycle and nothing bad has happened..LOL Instead I napped and relaxed which was a welcome change to my usual routine. I will test a couple of times in the evening since that seems to be his active cycle time, but the break from testing and fretting over tests was a good thing!!

Again thank you, thank you all for the support...it really means a lot to me!! :)
 
Oh how I can identify with your 'melt down'. I was SO SO upset because regardless of what I did, I couldn't get Dakota's numbers down. I even walked up to over 4 u's and STILL no good numbers. Then one night something 'broke'. I still can't tell exactly what happened but suddenly I started seeing pinks on lower doses. Then started seeing yellows! THEN came blues! NOW we see greens! We even see a number under 50 every once in a while! Continue hanging in there...glad you're better now!!! BIG YARD DANCE!

HUGS too!!!
 
I wanted to add a little more . . . because this truly is something that many(most) of us go through. FD is not for the faint of heart.

One thing that helped me some - not to say I still didn't get bummed with high numbers and happy with greens - but it helped me to remember that this illness belonged to Punkin. This was not my body. I could do everything I could think of and I still didn't have the power to fix him. He passed away almost 2 years now, and I still miss him no end. Having it to do over, I'd do it all again. This crappy horrible disease also gave me the closest relationship I've ever had with a pet.

There is a post that I've bookmarked - it's on the Where Can I Find? post and it's called "A Break-up Letter to D'Artagnan's Diabetes." Mo wrote it when D'Art (aka the Frenchman) went OTJ. I thought she captured well the mixed feelings about this terrible disease. You might like it too.
 
julie & punkin (ga) said:
I wanted to add a little more . . . because this truly is something that many(most) of us go through. FD is not for the faint of heart.

One thing that helped me some - not to say I still didn't get bummed with high numbers and happy with greens - but it helped me to remember that this illness belonged to Punkin. This was not my body. I could do everything I could think of and I still didn't have the power to fix him. He passed away almost 2 years now, and I still miss him no end. Having it to do over, I'd do it all again. This crappy horrible disease also gave me the closest relationship I've ever had with a pet.

There is a post that I've bookmarked - it's on the Where Can I Find? post and it's called "A Break-up Letter to D'Artagnan's Diabetes." Mo wrote it when D'Art (aka the Frenchman) went OTJ. I thought she captured well the mixed feelings about this terrible disease. You might like it too.
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Julie that it the best letter about diabetes that I have read in the last 5 months. It certainly sums up the highs and lows (in many ways) of dealing with diabetes. And yes...the special closeness that has developed between Tuxie and myself never would have happened if diabetes hadn't poked its ugly head in.

((HUGS)) for you and happy thoughts of your time with Punkin. I lost my Buzzie 15 years ago (another special kitty) and I still shed a tear now and then for him, but I also smile when I go through his photos. They just hold a special piece of your heart forever.
 
Julie, thank you so much for sharing that beautiful letter.
Happy that you're feeling better, Mary Ann. Sometimes it helps to just vent, get it out, and then we can move on.

Hugs to you both :bighug::bighug:
 
Lori & Lulu said:
Julie, thank you so much for sharing that beautiful letter.
Happy that you're feeling better, Mary Ann. Sometimes it helps to just vent, get it out, and then we can move on.

Hugs to you both :bighug::bighug:
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Thanks Lori..a day of not stressing over glucose numbers every 2 hours was a real "spa day" for me and probably for Tuxie too. He actually got food without having his ear poked...I think he was confused..lol.

This forum is definitely my "valium" fix and I do so much appreciate everyone's support and strength.
 
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