TODAY was a good day

[Tuxedo Mom]

Today was a good day. No..my Tuxie didn't have good numbers...no there is no good regulation happening...no I am not optimistic about him getting into remission. But today was a good day anyway. I did what I needed to do today and felt confident that Tuxie would survive the few hours I was not home.

When I look back 6 months when Tuxie was first diagnosed I realize that both of us have come a long way. I still remember the first "ear poke"...Tuxie was screaming and I was crying. Now he goes to his mat and waits. I remember when I wasn't sure if I could handle a diabetic cat...maybe pts was a better option? Today I don't even think about that. I remember when Tuxie used to come and sleep on the pillow next to me at night. He doesn't do that any more but the love in his eyes as I test and feed and shoot and test is so much deeper than the purr kitty on my pillow. (I still miss that though)

I remember when I used to hold my breath every time he moved. Now I just take a quick look to see where he is going. I still have sleep deprivation, but at least I don't have the nightmare I had in the beginning. I still get frustrated and upset, but I don't cry every 10 minutes.

Today was a good day.

As I sat outside with my Tuxie and his civie sister Maxie and watched them stretch in delight on the patio, I came to realize that TODAY is what counts. I have followed other posters (Rose and DH RIP Zoey) and seen so much love and caring given to a beloved kitty. We do what we can because we love our furkids so much. Sometimes we just have to see what is happening TODAY. If your furkid is enjoying the moment then that is precious. There is no guarantee, even with a civie kitty that tomorrow will be a good day.

Don't let the stress and frustration of dealing with our precious sugar kitties take away from what is happening right now. Right now is happening and that is what counts. Tomorrow may be a tough and rough day but TODAY is a good day!

Sending love and healing wishes for all our wonderful sugar kitties and the Moms and Dads that care for them and love them so much.

HAVE YOU HUGGED YOUR KITTY TODAY??

 

[Critter Mom]

Wonderful post, Mary Ann.

And yes, I have. I do every day.

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Wonderful post, Mary Ann.

And yes, I have. I do every day.

I have seen your posts and ss on your much beloved Saoirse and without doubt you are giving 110% to your kitty. Today, in one of those quiet yet revealing moments I came to realize that right now is SO SO important. I mentioned Rose and her DH and their beloved furbaby Zoey in my last post. Even though Zoey has crossed the bridge, the love and care was so so much there. On Zoey's last day, she sat in the garden and literally "drank in" all the sights and sounds, and Rose was there to share it with her. Dealing with diabetes and the complications can make us so focused on getting our furry kids better that we sometimes forget to seize the moment where they are content and holding on. Today was just my epithany on recognizing the good times (minutes or days) and being there to share it. Many on this forum are dealing with multiple issues and very sick kitties and that is such a terrible burden to bear. To those pet parents I can only send my prayers and healing thoughts. But 15 years ago when I found out my Buzzie had intestinal lymphoma, I spent a wonderful evening loving and soaking up his essence before he had to cross the bridge. We love our furkids but remember to love yourselves. You are all remarkable pet parents to choose this difficult journey.

 

[Elizabeth and Bertie]

Your post is an absolute gift, Mary Ann. It exudes a kind of joy; and it warmed my heart and brought tears to my eyes (in a good way) this morning.
When I came on to the board this morning I expected to scan through the list of posts to see if there was anyone I might be able to help. I didn't expect to read a post and feel inspired and uplifted by it. But you did that. Thank you.

And no, I haven't hugged Bertie yet. He's still fast asleep in his basket (it's 6am here). But I have been snuggling with my lovely old civvie, Jonesy, who's been sleeping on the bed next to me. He's about to have his 18th birthday and every moment with him is uber precious now.

All good wishes to you, Mary Ann.

Eliz

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Your post is an absolute gift, Mary Ann. It exudes a kind of joy; and it warmed my heart and brought tears to my eyes (in a good way) this morning.
When I came on to the board this morning I expected to scan through the list of posts to see if there was anyone I might be able to help. I didn't expect to read a post and feel inspired and uplifted by it. But you did that. Thank you.

And no, I haven't hugged Bertie yet. He's still fast asleep in his basket (it's 6am here). But I have been snuggling with my lovely old civvie, Jonesy, who's been sleeping on the bed next to me. He's about to have his 18th birthday and every moment with him is uber precious now.

All good wishes to you, Mary Ann.

Eliz

Thank you for the kind words Elizabeth. Sitting out on the patio with my two kitties and watching them stretch and roll in the sun and watch the outside critters with great interest, just made me realize how important those moments are.Too often over the last 6 months I get caught up with the "treatment" part and forget to relax and enjoy the moment right now.

 

[Blamethecats and Hannah]

Mary Ann, that's just the best post... EVER! Thank you! So many of us here have learned that it's not all about remission or even regulation. There's so much more to it. Those good days you mention are a wonderful gift, and it would be a shame to lose sight of that. May we all continue to enjoy those beautiful moments that lift our spirits and lessen the stress of the sugar dance. Hannah and I are now headed outside to the garden for a little exploring and we're going to savor every second of the adventure. Hugs.

 

[Mogmom and Goofus]

Mary Ann, the first 3 paragraphs of you post described the last 6 months for me! The day Goof was diagnosed, I cried all the way home, I thought for sure I was going to lose him. I finally feel somewhat relaxed about the whole thing, like a weight's been lifted. I used to panic if my last client at the salon was late because that meant that I'd be late to test and feed and I'd be in a panic when I got home. Now I can feel like I can breathe.

It seemed at one time that Goof was headed for remission, but it was no to be...yet. I'm still hopeful tho.

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Mary Ann, that's just the best post... EVER! Thank you! So many of us here have learned that it's not all about remission or even regulation. There's so much more to it. Those good days you mention are a wonderful gift, and it would be a shame to lose sight of that. May we all continue to enjoy those beautiful moments that lift our spirits and lessen the stress of the sugar dance. Hannah and I are now headed outside to the garden for a little exploring and we're going to savor every second of the adventure. Hugs.

I am glad you enjoyed my post. It actually felt good to write it.

Enjoy your excursion to the garden...maybe Hannah can catch a few bugs!!

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Mary Ann, the first 3 paragraphs of you post described the last 6 months for me! The day Goof was diagnosed, I cried all the way home, I thought for sure I was going to lose him. I finally feel somewhat relaxed about the whole thing, like a weight's been lifted. I used to panic if my last client at the salon was late because that meant that I'd be late to test and feed and I'd be in a panic when I got home. Now I can feel like I can breathe.

It seemed at one time that Goof was headed for remission, but it was no to be...yet. I'm still hopeful tho.

I still have my melt-downs, but I bounce back from them quicker now. Instead of focusing on the numbers I am now focusing on my Tuxie and how he is doing. Tuxie may never get into remission, but if that is the way it is, then there is nothing I can do except keep him as healthy and happy as I can. We all learn as much as we can about helping our sugar kitties and go from there, with the help and support of everyone on this site.

 

[Mogmom and Goofus]

I still have my melt-downs, but I bounce back from them quicker now. Instead of focusing on the numbers I am now focusing on my Tuxie and how he is doing. Tuxie may never get into remission, but if that is the way it is, then there is nothing I can do except keep him as healthy and happy as I can. We all learn as much as we can about helping our sugar kitties and go from there, with the help and support of everyone on this site.

Exactly! My thoughts exactly!!!

 

[Megan & Oren]

I still have my melt-downs, but I bounce back from them quicker now. Instead of focusing on the numbers I am now focusing on my Tuxie and how he is doing. Tuxie may never get into remission, but if that is the way it is, then there is nothing I can do except keep him as healthy and happy as I can. We all learn as much as we can about helping our sugar kitties and go from there, with the help and support of everyone on this site.

oh boy does your post resonate with me. I can relate to every high and low you mention, and the overwhelming sense of frustration and despair about not being able to 'make it all better immediately', the stress of battling non-understanding vets, other health issues, lack of sleep etc. Feeling inadequate compared to the numerous amazing beans on this board... all of it. I'm trying to find the balance; that works for me, for Oren, for everything. When he purrs and looks at me adoringly and trustingly, cuddles me on the couch, or chases around with his sister, or just napping/stretching in a sunbeam on the floor...This is what matters.
We all tell ourselves this 'they're more then their numbers', but it is very hard sometimes to really believe it. And we should. Thank you Mary Ann, your words come at a pivotal time for me. We are all doing the best we can and we shouldn't compare ourselves or our situations, just be here to support each other and learn whatever we can to help our little furry loved ones.

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

oh boy does your post resonate with me. I can relate to every high and low you mention, and the overwhelming sense of frustration and despair about not being able to 'make it all better immediately', the stress of battling non-understanding vets, other health issues, lack of sleep etc. Feeling inadequate compared to the numerous amazing beans on this board... all of it. I'm trying to find the balance; that works for me, for Oren, for everything. When he purrs and looks at me adoringly and trustingly, cuddles me on the couch, or chases around with his sister, or just napping/stretching in a sunbeam on the floor...This is what matters.
We all tell ourselves this 'they're more then their numbers', but it is very hard sometimes to really believe it. And we should. Thank you Mary Ann, your words come at a pivotal time for me. We are all doing the best we can and we shouldn't compare ourselves or our situations, just be here to support each other and learn whatever we can to help our little furry loved ones.

I am glad my post was of some comfort to you. I sort of lost sight of the "today" thing, with being so wrapped up with what was NOT happening, rather than concentrating on the good things that were.