carlinsc said:
It is her first day on prozinc....wanna see ugly and scary? Look at her first few nights on Lantus.
I know...I get it...but that's my point...I'm starting at the beginning. I'm just so angry with myself (not you, in case it sounds that way). If I hadn't missed her low, to know for sure she was looking for a decrease, she could of moved down to 0.5u on 2/01/12...and then she would have either settled-in, if that was finally going to be her dose...or she would have taken a dive in 5 to 10 days...and moved to 0.25u. See where I'm heading...or better yet...
where she could've been heading?
I know it doesn't look like it on Google Docs, but I had her dives down to a science. My Excel SS has endless information on her dives and lows. The info is in the form of comments, that can't be pasted over to G-Docs (since it's a half-baked version of Excel), and it's way too much info to re-type...but I had them down to a science...as scientific as you can get with Marilyn's crazy moves. That's why the 0.75u of Lantus was making my head explode. It wasn't "acting right", but it's because I more than likely, probably, maybe, most definitely, missed the freaking dive at least once. I kept thinking she needed to be somewhere between 0.75u and 1.0u, or possibly the Lantus vile was running out of gas...either way I was fed up. I had her figured out, not an easy thing to do, and only accomplished by not sleeping...and everything went out the window with the 0.75u...because I slept for 3-hours.
I do understand what you all are saying about now being able to sleep. And I apologize for venting and driving everyone so crazy when I'm only 2 doses new to this forum. I just feel like I'm starting over, and I don't know yet, if Marilyn won't be a difficult kitty no matter what insulin I'm using. If she
is just a nightmare cat, no matter what, then the nightmare could be about to start over, right back at the beginning, when it may have been so close to the end. The crystal ball...where is that elusive crystal ball?
By the way, I was not following LL TR by any stretch of the imagination. She didn't have to
earn anything, and I wasn't directing myself to any stickies. I let Marilyn lead the way, but I was manipulating her moves, in ways that would have caused me so much grief in LL, that I was delighted to have been pushed off of that forum. I only wish I wasn't so weak, and tired, at that time (and at all times nowadays...with failing health), that I could have moved straight over to RL, instead of going underground to rest my weary brain...oh, and my arms...the arm wrestling was getting to be a bit much. This dance if filled with enough anxiety, without having someone force-feeding it to you. But I digress. My point is I had to get away, before I found myself in the ER, so get away I did. Unfortunately, the RL folks may have picked up on what I was missing, had I been able to stick around.
Okay the tears are coming now...must go...sorry this was so long, and so negative. I just can't take this anymore. I don't even have the energy to give back to this wonderful community. Marilyn keeps bringing me closer to my eventual estimated time of death.
Oh, and Sue (if you are reading this), on a lighter note, I wrote this to you further up the thread:
Sue and Oliver (GA) said:
Carl has covered the basics, Marilyn.
Barn Cats R Us said:
Sue...Marilyn just walked up to me and tapped me on the shoulder, and said, "Aunty Sue just said something like, "Blabbity Blah Blah Blah"...and I said, "Oh Marilyn, I'm sure you misunderstood her, since you can't read you silly girl...and how the heck did you reach my shoulder with such short legs?"
Why do most of my cats have human names anyway? Why couldn't Mini & Micro be the FD's instead of Marilyn & Clark? Geez, I hope Mini & Micro don't read this...they would make horrible FD's...since they are both mental.
:lol: :lol: :lol:
Also Carl, you asked about shooting time. Yes, it's close to midnight & noon. And of course, I increased her to 0.6u ProZinc this afternoon...before I saw all of the advice...so some things never change. Lucky thing I'm usually able to read everyone's minds, without turning on the computer...knock wood. I know it's a bad habit of mine.
Thanks All