Asiina & Alex(GA)
Member Since 2019
Well, universe playing a cruel joke on me, it seems. Alex died a little over a month ago, a little over 2 years after being diagnosed. I was absolutely devastated but things were finally getting back to normal. Then noticed Simon, my civvie, was drinking a lot and peeing a lot, so decided to check his blood sugar on a whim, and sure enough it was 20. I checked 5 times over the next 24 hours and even checked myself to make sure it wasn't some bad strips, but nope all high. Took him in and confirmed by the vet today.
That sure was a nice break I had from the constant monitoring, the adjusting, the planning, the scheduling, the worry over small changes. Sure, most of that time was filled with grief and crying, but there was at least that little bit of freedom I didn't even realize I missed until I found it again.
But now it's back to it all, and I'm sure it'll be easier this time. I know what I'm doing, I know what to look out for, I know how to not panic at a high or low number. I know that I'll need to learn all of Simon's signs that are sure to be different from Alex's, but it shouldn't be as much trial and error this time.
Definitely not looking for medical advice here, I've been through it all before. Could use some emotional support though that this is...really hard, and having to begin again while you're still getting over a loss and finding your life again is just...damnit. Not like there's anything else I can do.
That sure was a nice break I had from the constant monitoring, the adjusting, the planning, the scheduling, the worry over small changes. Sure, most of that time was filled with grief and crying, but there was at least that little bit of freedom I didn't even realize I missed until I found it again.
But now it's back to it all, and I'm sure it'll be easier this time. I know what I'm doing, I know what to look out for, I know how to not panic at a high or low number. I know that I'll need to learn all of Simon's signs that are sure to be different from Alex's, but it shouldn't be as much trial and error this time.
Definitely not looking for medical advice here, I've been through it all before. Could use some emotional support though that this is...really hard, and having to begin again while you're still getting over a loss and finding your life again is just...damnit. Not like there's anything else I can do.
