ScootersMama
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Hi, I'm Rachel and I'm the Meow-ma to three kitty-kids, Spark (10), Gizmo (7), and Scooter (5). We learned today, 1.26.12, that Scooter is diabetic. (Doctor has suspected it for a few weeks, but today was the confirmation). I'm feeling so overwhelmed with everything! The worst part would either be the guilt that I've done something wrong to cause this, or the fear that Scooter will learn to fear me coming toward him with the meter and the syringe. I'm afraid I somehow caused it, even though rationally I know that is not the case as I've always given Scooter and his brothers the best possible care. He's a big boy, but part of that is his bone structure, and I've never fed him anything other than Hill's Science Diet (often we buy the light kind). He doesn't eat off my plate...except we have a ritual of sharing a piece of popcorn or two when we watch movies. He certainly doesn't eat sweets or fatty things!! Did I do something wrong? I feel so guilty for all the long hours I've worked...basically his whole life (I'm a high school teacher and coach/advise many different activities). Is his quality of life going to diminish when his mama is always poking him with needles? Are we going to be less close? We have always been extremely close and the thought of him being afraid of me makes me cry. (Well, I've been crying ever since we got the diagnosis.) Will he ever forgive me? Do others feel these emotions as well in the beginning? When he first started getting sick a few weeks ago, I literally woke up every 15 minutes all night, every night to check on him. Will we ever get another full night's rest? What do we do next?