GA RIP Sassu

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  1. Lilian

    Lilian Member

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    Today (Christmas Day) at 6.30 am Sassu crossed the rainbow bridge. Not because of diabetes, but because of megaesophagus complications. His last 40 hours were very hard for him and for me. After he passed away I opened the windows and lit the candles. Then my boyfriend and I drove 55 miles to my granny's place. Which is around 1,4 miles from the place he was born. Now he is resting in my granny's garden. I put him in his favourite box and covered him with his favourite blanket. And I also put a silver cross on his body. I put 8 candles (he was 8 years old) on his grave. Then we drove to the church and I spoke to the teacher and we prayed together and then I lit 8 candles in the church. I have cried since the afternoon of 23rd of December. Once when I cried especially hard then Sassu went to the other room. I'm in so much pain because I could do nothing to comfort him in his last hours. I hope he knows that I love him to bits and I would have given anything to make him feel better. He will be missed. Sassu was a Sassu.jpg very special cat. He was my soulmate. Rest in peace, my love.
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  2. Beth 73

    Beth 73 Well-Known Member

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    Praying for you today...:bighug:
     
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  3. Lilian

    Lilian Member

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    Thank you! I really appreciate it.
     
  4. Kris & Teasel

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    I'm so sorry for your loss of Sassu.
     
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  5. Critter Mom

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    Oh, Lillian ... :(

    My heart just sank when I saw your dreadfully sad news.

    Sassu does know how very deeply you love him. And he will always be your soulmate; bonds that strong are unbreakable. (((Lillian and Spirit Sassu)))

    For you ...

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:


    For your beloved Sassu ...

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    My heart aches for you ...


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  6. Nan & Amber (GA)

    Nan & Amber (GA) Well-Known Member

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    So, so, sorry. RIP, sweet little guy...
     
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  7. Shoeskitty-GA

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    I am very sorry for this!!! Prayers for you! Hugs too!:bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:RIP Sassu
     
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  8. Lilian

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    Thank you all! Prayers are needed. Special cat, special day for leaving...
     
  9. Dyana

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    I'm so sorry for your loss (((Lilian))).
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    Sassu does know how much you love him.

    My prayers and hugs go out to you on this day.
    I am going to light a candle for Sassu, too.
     
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  10. Lilian

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    Thank you! I truly appreciate it. I have two other cats and maybe tomorrow a third one might join. Thanks to Sassu I am a better mother now. Now I know which food to give and which food not to give. I'm sure Sassu would like me to offer my love to other cats, too. Although noone will ever be Sassu:(
     
  11. Larry and Kitties

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    sending purrs and prayers.
     
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  12. Sharon14

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    I'm so very sorry for your loss. Rest In Peace Sweet Sassu:rb_icon:
     
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  13. Julie and Eleanor (GA)

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    I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you. Sassu does know how much you love him. RIP beautiful boy.
     
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  14. MrWorfMen's Mom

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    Oh Lillian, I am so very sorry to hear this sad sad news! Sassu knew how much he was loved and cared for and he will live in your heart forever.
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    Rest in peace sweet Sassu! cat_wings>o

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  15. Ozzy Pawzbourne

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    My heart is breaking for you! I am so sorry about Sassu. RIP little guy. :bighug:
     
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  16. Marlena

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    Dear Lillian,
    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
    My heart goes out to you.
    Sending love and prayers :bighug::bighug::bighug:
     
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  17. Lilian

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  18. Lilian

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    This is the most beautiful poem ever. Thank you!
     
  19. Red & Rover (GA)

    Red & Rover (GA) Well-Known Member

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    What a sweetheart. My deepest condolences.
     
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  20. Lilian

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    Thank you!
     
  21. Vyktors Mum

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    ((((((Lillian)))))) what a beautiful send off you gave him. I'm sure he knows how much you love him and I'm sure he loves you just as much and left the room so as to try not to be hurting you so much. The bond between soul kitty and MamaBean is so strong. I'm so very sorry that it was Sassu's time to leave.

    RIP Sassu:rb_icon:
     
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  22. Dan&Heather

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    Im really sorry about your loss, he looks like a beautiful cat.
     
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  23. Callie & Patches

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    I am so sorry you lost your sweet kitty. I am sure we will see our pets again some time in the future. They don't want us to be lonely so they like it when we make a home for another to live in.
     
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  24. Lilian

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    Thank you all for your kind words! Much appreciated.
     
  25. Critter Mom

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    Saying a little prayer for you, Lillian.

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:

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  26. Blamethecats and Hannah

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    Oh, Lilian, I'm so sorry for your loss of Sassu. At a time like this, there are no words that can compensate for your loss. The love you shared was a wonderful gift to one another. Sending hugs and prayers your way.
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  27. Lilian

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    Today a new cat became a member of our family. I have 3 cats again, but I feel that Sassu was my soulmate and even working in a homeless cats' shelter would not mend my heart:( But again, this is a very beautiful poem and it is a nice thought that every cat takes a piece of your heart and every new cat gives you a piece of their heart... And also I have been thinking about the poem that MrWolfMen'sMom sent me: "nothing is created or destroyed". It comforts me that Sassu's spirit was out there before this life and will be there after this life... I'm just a little sad that Sassu didn't visit me in my dreams during the night. I wished so much that he would come and tell me that he's okay:( By the way, I have started a blog about Sassu's life. In Estonia it is impossible to find any information about diabetes in Estonian. So I hope my experience helps others.
     
  28. jayla-n-Drevon

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    my heart hurts for you.... I was just looking thru the forum and saw your post about your sweet Sassu.
    I am so very sorry for your pain I can feel your love for him and his for you.
    I know I don't know you but I truly believe Sassu will visit you.....and you will know it is him:bighug::rb_icon:
     
  29. Lilian

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    Thank you! Your words brought tears to my eyes. Yes, Sassu was the love of my life. I do hope that one day he'd visit me. I miss him.
     
  30. ShilohVasquez

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    I'm so very sorry to read this. I lost my Chestnut in October, and this has been a very difficult holiday for me. Know that you are not alone in your grief. Hugs.
     
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  31. Lilian

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    Thank you! I'm watching my two kittens playing and it comforts me and keeps me busy. Like I said - thanks to Sassu I know how to be a better cat mama and I appreciate each moment more. And I promised myself to take more photos.
     
  32. Squalliesmom

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    I am so sorry for your loss. Sassu will always be with you, and he knows the depth of your love for him.


    THE LOVING ONES

    The little orange boy stopped. Behind him, kitties
    were playing, chasing each other and wrestling in the
    warm sunshine. It looked like so much fun, but in
    front of him, through the clear stillness of the
    pond's water, he could see his mommy. And she was
    crying.

    He pawed at the water, trying to get at her, and when
    that didn't work, he jumped into the shallow water.
    All that got him was wet and Mommy's image danced away
    in the ripples. "Mommy!" he cried.

    "Is something wrong?"

    The little orange boy turned around. A lady was
    standing at the edge of the pond, her eyes sad but
    filled with love. The little orange boy sighed and
    walked out of the water.

    "There's been a mistake," he said. "I'm not supposed
    to be here." He looked back at the water. It was
    starting to still again and his mommy's image was
    coming back. "I'm just a baby. Mommy said it had to be
    a mistake. She said I wasn't supposed to come here
    yet."

    The kind lady sighed and sat down on the grass. The
    little orange boy climbed into her lap. It wasn't
    Mommy's lap, but it was almost as good. When she
    started to pet him and scratch under his chin like he
    liked, he started to purr. He hadn't wanted to, but he
    couldn't help it.

    "I'm afraid there is no mistake. You are supposed to
    be here and your mommy knows it deep down in her
    heart," the lady said. The little orange boy sighed
    and laid his head on the lady's leg. "But she's so
    sad. It hurts me to see her cry. And daddy too."

    "But they knew right from the beginning this would
    happen."

    "That I was sick?" That surprised the little orange
    boy. No one had ever said anything and he had listened
    when they thought he was sleeping. All he had heard
    them talk about was how cute he was or how fast he was
    or how big he was getting.

    "No, not that you were sick," the lady said. "But you
    see, they chose tears."

    "No, they didn't," the little orange boy argued. Who
    would choose to cry?

    The lady gently brushed the top of his head with a
    kiss. It made him feel safe and loved and warm - but
    he still worried about his mommy. "Let me tell you a
    story," the lady said.

    The little orange boy looked up and saw other animals
    gathering around. Cats - Big Boy and Snowball and
    Shamus and Abby and little Cleo and Robin. Merlin
    and Toby and Iggy and Zachary. Sweetie and Kamatte and
    OBie. Dogs too- Sally and Baby and Morgan and Rocky
    and Belle. Even a lizard named Clyde and some rats
    named Saffron and Becky and a hamster named Odo.

    They all lay down near the kind lady and looked up at
    her, waiting.

    She smiled at them and began:

    A long long time ago, the Loving Ones went to the
    Angel in Charge. They were lonesome and asked the
    Angel to help them.

    The Angel took them to a wall of windows and let them
    look out the first window at all sorts of things -
    dolls and stuffed animals and cars and toys and
    sporting events.

    "Here are things you can love," the Angel said. "They
    will keep you from being lonesome."

    "Oh, thank you," the Loving Ones said. "These are just
    what we need."

    "You have chosen Pleasure," the Angel told them.

    But after a time the Loving Ones came back to the
    Angel in Charge. "Things are okay to love," they said.
    "But they don't care that we love them."

    The Angel in Charge led them over to the second
    window. It looked out at all sorts of wild animals.
    "Here are animals to love," he said. "They will know
    you love them."

    So the Loving Ones hurried out to care for the wild
    animals.

    "You have chosen Satisfaction," the Angel said.

    Some of the Loving Ones worked at zoos and wild animal
    preserves, some just had bird feeders in their yards,
    but after a time they all came back to the Angel in
    Charge.

    "They know we love them," they told the Angel. "But
    they don't love us back. We want to be loved in
    return."

    So the Angel took them to the third window and showed
    them lots of people walking around, hurrying places.
    "Here are people for you to love," the Angel
    told them.

    So the Loving Ones hurried off to find other people to
    love.

    "You have chosen Commitment," the Angel said.

    But after a time a lot of Loving Ones came back to the
    Angel in Charge.

    "People were okay to love," they said. "But sometimes
    they stopped loving us and left. They broke our
    hearts."

    The Angel just shook his head. "I cannot help you," he
    said. "You will have to be satisfied with the choices
    I gave you."

    As the Loving Ones were leaving, someone saw a window
    off to one side and hurried to look out. Through it,
    they could see puppies and kittens and dogs and cats
    and lizards and hamsters and ferrets. The other Loving
    Ones hurried over.

    "What about these?" they asked.

    But the Angel just tried to shoo them away. "Those are
    Personal Empathy Trainers," he said. "But there's a
    problem with their system operations."

    "Would they know that we love them?" someone asked.

    "Yes," the Angel said.

    "Would they love us back?" another asked.

    "Yes," the Angel said.

    "Will they stop loving us?" someone else asked.

    "No," the Angel admitted. "They will love you
    forever."

    "Then these are what we want," the Loving Ones said.

    But the Angel was very upset. "You don't understand,"
    he told them. "You will have to feed these animals."

    "That's all right," the Loving Ones said.

    "You will have to clean up after them and take care of
    them forever."

    "We don't care."

    The Loving Ones did not listen. They went down to
    where the Pets were and picked them up, seeing the
    love in their own hearts reflected in the animals'
    eyes.

    "They were not programmed right," the Angel said.

    "We can't offer a warranty. We don't know how durable
    they are. Some of their systems malfunction very
    quickly, others last a long time."

    But the Loving Ones did not care. They were holding
    the warm little bodies and finding their hearts so
    filled with love that they thought they would burst.

    "We will take our chances," they said.

    "You do not understand." The Angel tried one more
    time. "They are so dependent on you that even the most
    well-made of them is not designed to outlive you. You
    are destined to suffer their loss."

    The Loving Ones looked at the sweetness in their arms
    and nodded. "That is how it should be. It is a fair
    trade for the love they offer."

    The Angel just watched them all go, shaking his head.
    "You have chosen Tears," he whispered.

    "So it is," the kind lady told the kitties. "And so
    each mommy and daddy knows. When they take a baby into
    their heart, they know that one day it will leave them
    and they will cry."

    The little orange boy sat up. "So why do they take us
    in?" he asked.

    "Because even a moment of your love is worth years of
    pain later."

    "Oh." The little orange boy got off the lady's lap and
    went back to the edge of the pond. His mommy was still
    there, and still crying. "Will she ever stop crying?"
    he asked the kind lady.

    She nodded. "You see, the Angel felt sorry for the
    Loving Ones, knowing how much they would suffer. He
    couldn't take the tears away but he made them
    special."

    She dipped her hand into the pond and let the water
    trickle off her fingers. "He made them healing tears,
    formed from the special water here. Each tear holds
    bits of all the happy times of purring and petting and
    shared love. And the promise of love once again. As
    your mommy cries, she is healing. "It may take a long
    while, but the tears will help her feel better. In
    time she will be less sad and she will smile when she
    thinks of you. And then she will open her heart again
    to another little baby."

    "But then she will cry again one day," the little
    orange boy said.

    The lady just smiled at him as she got to her feet.
    "No, she will love again. That is all she will think
    about." She picked up Big Boy and Snowball and
    gave them hugs, then scratched Morgan's ear just how
    she liked.

    "Look," she said. "The butterflies have come. Shall we
    go over to play?"

    The other animals all ran ahead, but the little orange
    boy wasn't ready to leave his mommy. "Will I ever get
    to be with her again?"

    The kind lady nodded. "You'll be in the eyes of every
    kitty she looks at. You'll be in the purr of every cat
    she pets. And late at night, when she's fast asleep,
    your spirit will snuggle up close to her and you both
    will feel at peace. One day soon, you can even send
    her a rainbow to tell her you're safe and waiting here
    for when it's her turn to come."

    "I would like that," the little orange boy said and
    took one long look at his mommy. He saw her smile
    slightly through her tears and he knew she had
    remembered the time he almost fell into the bathtub.
    "I love you, Mommy," he whispered. "It's okay if you
    cry." He glanced over at the other pets, running and
    playing and laughing with the butterflies. "Uh, Mommy?
    I gotta go play now, okay? But I'll be around, I
    promise."

    Then he turned and raced after the others.
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    Fly free, sweet Sassu, and land softly at the Bridge cat_wings>o
     
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  33. Lilian

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    Thank you! It brought tears to my eyes again. I liked it a lot. I liked the idea that if we choose animals then we choose Tears. And even a moment of love is all worth it.
     
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  34. Lisa & Nacho

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    May he Rest In Peace <3 find comfort in knowing you gave him a great life and home.
     
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  35. Lilian

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    Thank you LisaMarie!
     
  36. Critter Mom

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    Thinking of you, Lillian. I can feel how very sad you are and I wanted to send you a hug.

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:


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  37. Lilian

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    Thank you, Critter Mom! It has been so nice of you to send me so many hugs and keep me going. I got sick yesterday. When Sassu was ill then I prayed that God would give his pain to me. Yesterday I threw up several times and had a high fever. I hope that was some of the pain he didn't have to suffer.
     
  38. Critter Mom

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    This poem brings me comfort. I hope it will bring you a little comfort too, Lillian.

    Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there. I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow.
    I am the diamond glints on snow.
    I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning's hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry;
    I am not there. I did not die.

    (- Elizabeth Frye)

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  39. Critter Mom

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    (((Lillian)))

    You are a wonderful mother. Sassu was blessed to spend his time in this realm with you to love and care for him.

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:

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  40. Lilian

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    Thank you! I knew that poem in Estonian, but not in English. That has comforted me a lot. Thank you!
     
  41. Critter Mom

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    I am glad I could do something to help you a little bit, Lillian.

    (((Lillian)))

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  42. Lilian

    Lilian Member

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    Thank you! I appreciate it.
     
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  43. JeffJ

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    Eight short years is not enough with a sweet fur kid. Just not enough time. We lost an 8 year old fur kid this summer. I'm sorry for your loss, and the pain your fur kid had.

    May Sassu fly free and land gently at the Rainbow Bridge.
     
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  44. Lilian

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    Thank you! Yes, my friend has 3 cats aged 16, 18 and 21.
     
  45. tiffmaxee

    tiffmaxee Well-Known Member

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    I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost Max 10 weeks ago and the pain is so horrible. I think what you are doing to help others is a wonderful tribute to your soul kitty.
     
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  46. Lilian

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    Thank you!
     
  47. Gussie's mom (GA)

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    I am so very very sorry for your loss:bighug::bighug:
    The way I see it, that horrible hurting in your heart that Sassu left when his energy left the body you knew is a testament to how great your love and bond was and still is together. If we didn't care and love so deeply it would not hurt so deeply when separated.
    I am sure Sassu is nearby watching over you to make sure your soul is ok and heals...
    And I believe that our GA cats play a big part in which cats become the next members of our families..I am sure Sassu helped send your new kittens to you to help bring smile back into your life.
    Sending hugs:bighug::bighug::bighug: and hopes your world feels a little better each day even tho it will never feel the same ever again:bighug::bighug:
     
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  48. Lilian

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    Thank you! It's a very nice thought that they play a big role which kitten comes along.
     
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  49. Critter Mom

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  50. Critter Mom

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    After I lost Amadán I'm convinced he sent me my healer puss, Danú. I was utterly devastated to lose Ammie because we were so powerfully bonded ... Danú had the same sweet, gentle, very loving nature as Ammie and the strong way she, too, bonded with me was a great comfort. I hope that your new kitty will be a great comfort to you, Lillian.

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:

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  51. Lilian

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    Thank you! I'm so clad that I found this page in February. And that so many people have felt for me. I do feel better already.
    I absolutely loved those 9 things. Especially the 1st one. I wish I had been able to read it on the day he left. Very beautifully written.
    Lilian and Pepsie and Batman and Triibik and Spirit Sassu
     
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  52. Critter Mom

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    It's only the physical that's missing, Lillian: you have such a strong bond with your beloved Sassu, and his beautiful little spirit will always be with you.

    :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:

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