christina52388
Member
I just got back from putting the love of my life, my best friend, my everything, to sleep. It hasn't set in yet, but there is a feeling of relief for both him and myself. I will cry more than I've ever cried in my life and will be inconsolable as nothing can bring back the feeling and the love of my baby. He lived 15 long years in a loving home and he was my best friend from the start even though he was my sister's pick of the litter. I think the anticipatory grief was more painful, but now I must deal with the huge void left in my heart and soul that he's not here, although he is very much still with me in memory and love. I just wish there was some sort of guarantee that we are reunited with our loved ones after this journey on Earth is over. I want to thank everybody on this board for all your help, love, and support- you are all amazing people and I'm glad I found this board. I will still be around because I have another sugarbaby named Chocolate. Please love your kitties a little extra tonight for me.