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Joanna & Bix (GA)

Joanna & Bix (GA)

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Bix has been doing worse this week and I think it's time. I stayed home from work today to be able to evaluate and spend some time with him, and I made an appointment for 5 pm tonight. He has enough spark left that I feel some conflict over whether it's really time, but also he has been straining to poop off & on this morning and nothing is coming out, so if that doesn't resolve itself soon I don't feel it's fair to let him go overnight if he is straining & uncomfortable. He is much too far gone to consider treating that with enema/meds/etc - he is just skin & bones, and since Sunday afternoon he has been really wobbly, and that has gotten worse today as well - at one point he fell over in the litter box, and didn't even try to get up on his own.

Hate having to debate euthanasia - it's a gift we have a humane tool to end suffering, but a curse to have to be the one to decide when the time is right. He is not in any acute distress, but he is uncomfortable and I don't see that getting better, and who knows how/when it will get worse. Until today I have felt that even though his QOL isn't great, I've felt the good has outweighed the bad on balance, now it seems like the balance has shifted. Still a few hours to go, so if he gets up and acts like everything is fine, I will cancel. For now he is resting.

So.... requesting prayers please for Bix to feel comfortable and at peace, and for me to make the right decision at the right time, and be at peace with that. Many thanks :YMHUG:
 
Oh Joanna, I am so sorry to hear about Bix. You have been so giving and kind to the newbies here, while dealing with Bix's sad situation at home.

You will make the right choice. Who else could - you have loved and cared for him - you will know. I do believe it is a great gift that we can give our kitties, just as we gave them a wonderful, love-filled life.

Thinking of you.

Sue
 
Be at peace, dear Joanna.

You will do what is best for Bix. . . as I did with Chloe.

Hold him and love him.
 
Joanna- you and Bix are in my heart today. You will do what is best for him. As you have his whole life with you. I hope he is as comfortable and content as possible today.
 
Love and prayers and peace coming your way. Making the right decision in a situation like this is never easy. You've taken great care of him, loved him and made his life wonderful. There is much comfort to be had in that.
 
Thank you all so much for the support, it is really wonderful to have a place to go to where people "get it" about cats.

I have really been agonizing all day as Bix has not returned to the litterbox, but hasn't looked like he feels all that good. He has had so many times over the past few weeks that he has faked me out looking unwell, but then gets up and stretches & scratches on the furniture :) that I haven't been sure if I could trust my judgement.

A few minutes ago I decided I had to push things a little to really see how he is, as I can't bear the thought of having him euthanized if I were wrong (of course I wouldn't know, but I know later I will wonder, if it isn't absolutely clear that he really does feel bad). Anyhow, so I picked him up and he got upset & growled at me (he NEVER does that unless something is really wrong), and then he headed to the litterbox and tried again, but nothing.

I had been thinking I might reschedule til tomorrow, but now I feel clear that would be mean, he would just be miserable all night. I've given him some Bupe I had on hand, so hopefully he will be a little more comfortable til we go to the vets in about an hour.

I am very sad, and also relieved that things are clearcut, and that I was able to at least figure it out for sure before the vets close for the night and then potentially have him get feeling even worse overnight. Poor guy, he has really been through a lot the past few months, and he has held his head up high the whole time. cat_pet_icon
 
Joanna, I have been gone and just read your posts today. I am praying for strength and guidance for you, and for peace and comfort for Bix.

Loving, caring thoughts to you both,
Sandy
 
I am so very sorry Joanna that your Bix is not well and his time is growing short.\i send you prayers,Angels and tons of healing green to both of you. Peace dear friend of FDMB you have helped so many od us. Hugssssssssssssssssssssss Kath & Trey
 
Joanna my heart hurts just reading your words. I hurt with you. Alot. We all do. It cuts to the core becuase we all know that day will come or for some of us has come. The absolute hardest most loving thing a human being can do. Put their dearly beloved to sleep forever to end their struggle and have our hearts break while we do it.
Tears Joanna...
I know and yet I can't even imagine.
Tears,
(((((BIX)))))

Lori and tomtom
 
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