Hi Suzzel, hi Junior. Your profile page says "We started this journey..." and that's exactly what it is but the map looks all wrong and the tour guide is speaking a foreign language. Did you know 653 people have looked at this thread and 129 have offered help? That's a lot but it's not because you're doing something wrong and there is nothing wrong about being emotional about it. We all replied because we've all been there and have our own frantic hair-pulling stories to tell but right now you and Junior are what matter. If things look bad I want you to remember this. Years ago you probably had your heart broken for the very first time and you were sure no one else had ever felt like that and the world was ending. The world did not end.
Don't forget to take care of yourself as well. It's not selfish when we say you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of a cat. Unfortunately for you the timing is all wrong but you just got a whole bunch of new friends who are willing to help you. Please take a deep breath and then you can start all over, every 5 minutes if you have to. Noah says hi too!