OT: My beloved brave Comet-7/27/97-1/30/14

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Rocket & his Mom

Rocket & his Mom

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Hi Friends,
I have not posted here and have barely been active since the loss of Rocket...I know the old timers will remember us...I know I have not been in touch but I was taking care of my brave handsome Comet while he underwent chemo and all the other illnesses that surfaced...

I hope it's ok to post for I know all too well that you ALL understand how heavy my heart IS....though he was not a cat but a dog...he understood cats for he had Rocket as a brother...

If I may....I want to share with you all a letter that I wrote for my beloved brave Comet....

"My precious brave Comet,

As I sit here writing this letter I'm looking at you trying to sleep. I question on whether the right choice has been made in calling the vet to come home tomorrow. I think of the many times you were dealt with a new challenge and how frail you looked but you always pulled thru each and every time. Sadly I see in your eyes that you no longer take joy in life. Your body is tired and it's ok to be tired. What truly breaks my heart is the joy I no longer see in your eyes. That spark is gone. At the fear of you not knowing I'm here still loving you, I'm keeping the apt for tomorrow....but I still question myself....

I want you to know that I wished I could have done more for you. I'm sorry if I didn't. I love you very much and I will miss you with all my might. I made you a promise...no more vets, no more hospital stays, no more tests, no more stress.....I'm keeping that promise....

I didn't think this day would come so soon after losing Rocket 15 months ago...I'm sure you grieved the loss of your brother but you were dealing with so much with your own challenges. To me your departure leaves another hole in my heart...Know that I think of you as my hero pup for putting up with the grueling treatments and constant vet visits. I wanted you to have the best care thinking always of you...wanting you to have the very best....you were always first and foremost....and now you are first and foremost as I have made the apt for the vet to come home....

We have come to a cross roads, soon you will be going one way and I the other. I must now go on with my life without you and without Rocket. I know Comet without a doubt that your brother will be there to greet you and you won't be alone.

This is the hardest decision times 2 that I've had to make. I didn't take it lightly. If I could take the pain away and all that is going on inside your body know that I would in a heart beat. I take with me the heartache of not having you here with me, not kissing you, hugging you and telling you (& bugging you) on how much I love you. My heart is so very broken but don't worry about me. You now move onto a better life while I endure life without you and your brother. I must now write and start a new chapter without you and without Rocket....

I never knew that the day when I went into the store to get litter and food for your brother that I would be forever changed.....coming out of there with you, your food, toys, and of course the litter and food for your brother. It was not in my plans to take on a puppy....but you chose me....and I'm forever grateful.

You will always be my handsome pooch and to daddy you will be his little bear....Oh Comet this pain is so immense but I know it's the price I ought to pay for loving you with all my might. Today is our last day together and it's all about you. Looking at you from the couch and though at a slight distance I'm loving you as you now have a nap. I'm taking it all in...your smell, your breathing, your fur, your all....

When you see Rocket please tell him how much I miss him and that mommy says he ought to watch over you making sure you are ok and not alone. It's mommy's orders :)

Tomorrow will be a hard day but Heaven is gaining another Angel...you my brave handsome boy. Your body will be whole again and you will be running free and enjoying your new life.....

With a heavy heavy heart we have moved the vet apt for today rather than tomorrow....I see you are struggling....and I don't want to be selfish in keeping you with me... with us thru another day...I would not be keeping my promise to you....so the vet is coming home shortly...I must say my good bye sooner....and for that I'm so heart broken.

Know that I will forever love you....I will forever miss you....you put up a big fight...I'm proud of you and now you must go on without me and I without you....

mommy loves you, mommy loves you......love you love you love you....."

I never shared this with anyone but I know Comet had a strong connection with Rocket for it was when Rocket passed away that Comet refused to eat and it was only when I served his food in Rocket's dishes that Comet would eat....we always fed him in Rocket's dishes thereafter....

Comet died peacefully while I held him in my arms and took his last breath at 2:21 pm MT.

Our place is so very empty...the reminders of him are everywhere....and it's ok....but we are very broken...I'm very broken...my boy is gone...he was the sweetest pup ever....

He came home last night...his ashes are with me now...very soon and so surreal....but he is home





here after a haircut

 
(((hugs)) Claudia, of course we remember you .. and thank you, for sharing those sweet thoughts of you and your boy with us .. It is so hard when our babies leave us, we are never ready, even if they are .. but you made a promise and kept it .. Comet, you go and have fun with Rocket, but make sure you two visit your beanz from time to time ...
 
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Many of us here know the long and difficult journey you have shared with Rocket and Comet.
Giving them the gift of heaven is so painful when you love them so much here on earth.
They were lucky to have you taking care of them. You were the BEST mom. Never doubt that.
You were their angel here, and now they are angels at the Bridge, waiting for you.

hugs and prayers,
MJ
 
BIG HUGE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG HUG Claudia. I'm SO SO sorry it's so empty there today. I THANK YOU so very much for sharing your letter. I smiled thru the tears...

Fly high sweet baby...you're so very loved....
 
Claudia, I don't know everything you went through, but your letter to Comet made me cry. I can tell you loved him so much so I know, as does he, that you did the very best for him! You have another guardian angel watching over you today. I know Comet and Rocket are playing together now that they've been reunited. (((Hugs)))
 
Dear (((((Claudia and Darren))))),
There is sadness here in Lantus Land, and many tears, but at the Bridge there is a joyful welcome for your brave Comet. Rocket and all of our GAs are gathered around your boy. They will keep him safe until you meet again. You were a wonderful mamabean to both your boys. Your letter to Comet brought tears to my eyes. He and Rocket were so lucky to share their lives with you and Darren.
We will light Stu's candle tonight in honor of a wonderful pup, who is flying free on his beautiful new golden wings.

In deepest sympathy,

Ella & Edward, Rusty, and Stu (GA)
 
What a wonderful letter. Your love for both Comet and Rocket shines through the tears I know must have been flowing while you wrote it.

You have my deepest condolences. Our furbabies are never with us long enough.

When you are ready, you might want to read a fable called "The Loving Ones". That's it's official title, but I've always called it You have chosen Tears

Both Comet and Rocket are looking down at you through the pool of tears that's been wept for our furkids that have crossed before us.
 
Oh Claudia that was such a beautiful love letter to Comet. He and Rocket were so lucky to have been loved by you. What a great mommy you were to them both.
They will always be remembered.
((((((Many hugs to you))))))))
 
Claudia, that was a very beautiful, well written letter to Comet. You did everything you could for him, and he knew it, and still knows it. He will be waiting for you. In the meantime, he and Rocket will be together; both of them will be waiting for you. I wish I could take the pain away from you, but I can't. In time, your grief will ease, but for now, grieve. We all grieve alongside you, my friend, for we all know how very hurtful it is to lose a best friend, a best companion, a family member. You will never forget either of them, and because of that they'll forever live on. :YMHUG:
 
{{{Claudia}}}:

I wasn't on the board when you were here with Rocket, but your letter really touched me and messed up my makeup ;-). I know the pain you are going through - I think most of us, if not all, here do. We can't take it away, but we can lighten it a little by sharing it. The greatest gift you can give anyone (two-footed or four) is to love them selflessly, to do what it best for the, no matter how it affects you. You did that for Comet, many times, and again this one last time when you let him go be with his brother. I know they are waiting by the bridge for you, happy together, with no pain or suffering. You were a wonderful mom to them and I wish you healing and comfort.
 
(((((Claudia))))) We are so sorry about Comet. It's so hard to lose any of our babies and we all grieve with the beans. That is such a sweet story about how Comet came to be with you. :-D :-D He was a very special guy.
Liz, Anne, Zener and Tillie
 
((((Claudia))))

My heart is just broken for you and your DH. It was too much to lose Rocket and now your beautiful Comet. But you will always hold tight to the love and joy they brought you. And they will forever be with you in your heart.

Fly free, Comet. Rocket waits for you. Watch over your beloved mommy.
 
You did right by him as you did for Rocket. You are an amazing Momma and the words you write touch home.. You ALWAYS went above and beyond for them both and I KNOW the heartache you are going through.And i know they BOTH knew all that you did was in their best interest, the running to ERs late at night, the endless hours of self research to find the best plan of action for them meds and meds and trying to give comet fluids ;) ..I have always wished to be able to share the pain I felt with the passing of Argos, Mowgli and Lily too close together... Your words are touching home..Thank you for sharing and KNOW that Comet will be surrounded on the other side of the rainbow bridge with a whole gang to run free again.. To play without pain...
He was such a STRONG AMAZING soul..... And a trooper, fighting as hard for himself as I am sure he was fighting for you....
In this time remember them both as young souls, the way they were so long ago..That is how they are now....
They will wait for you, and as I have told you before, keep your eyes and ears open, they are there with you now....

I am so sorry for your immense loss...
Love Keri,
Mowgli, Lily, (who i told to meet Comet while they were hanging with Rocket)
and of course Scully and all my other kids
Thoughts and prayers are with you.......
PS I am not going anywhere, we have forged a unique bond, and will forever be connected
 
What a beautiful letter to Comet. I cried as I read this, because it hit home so hard the feelings and thoughts I had the day I said goodbye to my first drooler, Shamra. My heart grieves with you. Big hugs :YMHUG: And God bless you for being a strong and loving mama.
 
Hi LL Friends,
I'd like to take this opportunity to Thank everyone who took the time to post and give me support on this thread and another one which Hillary opened...it means a lot to me more than words can say....

http://www.felinediabetes.com/FDMB/viewtopic.php?f=9&t=112898

I know you all understand the pain and sorrow I now feel for you wouldn't be here on this board if you didn't love your babies...

The last few days have been incredibly challenging and so surreal that Comet is not home with us....the house feels so very empty and everywhere I look I see reminders of him...the tears have not stopped flowing....for I miss him so very much....and I know Darren misses him too...

I walk around the house to make sense of it all...I see the backyard and I'm still able to see his footprints on the snow...the tears flow even more...I see his water bowls and I'm reminded that he used to drink his water and make so much noise while doing so....for a small dog...he made a lot of noise...

I am trying to be ok...but I am so very broken...I know Comet is not alone...I know without a doubt he is with Rocket....but still...I'm very broken for not having neither one of them with me....

Someone in the Canine Cancer group shared this poem with me before Comet's passing....I do not know the author but I'd like to share it with you...

"FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND

You're giving me a special gift,

So sorrowfully endowed,

And through these last few cherished days,

Your courage makes me proud.

But really, love is knowing

When your best friend is in pain,

And understanding earthly acts

Will only be in vain.

So looking deep into your eyes,

Beyond, into your soul,

I see in you the magic, that will

Once more make me whole.

The strength that you possess,

Is why I look to you today,

To do this thing that must be done,

For it's the only way.

That strength is why I've followed you,

And chose you as my friend,

And why I've loved you all these years...

My partner 'til the end.

Please, understand just what this gift,

You're giving, means to me,

It gives me back the strength I've lost,

And all my dignity.

You take a stand on my behalf,

For that is what friends do.

And know that what you do is right,

For I believe it too.

So one last time, I breathe your scent,

And through your hand I feel,

The courage that's within you,

To now grant me this appeal.

Cut the leash that holds me here,

Dear friend, and let me run,

Once more a strong and steady dog,

My pain and struggle done.

And don't despair my passing,

For I won't be far away,

Forever here, within your heart,

And memory I'll stay.

I'll be there watching over you,

Your ever faithful friend,

And in your memories I'll run,

...a young dog once again."

This pain is so immense...but I know you guys understand it all too well....
I never knew both of them would change my life....and I so hope they knew how much I love them...

I also wanted to share with you guys...(MJ...you were the only one that knew this prior) ;-)

As with this board and the FDMB calendar....there is the Canine Cancer group who gets a calendar of all their pups that are still fighting the disease or have become Angels....and last November I submitted pictures of Comet not knowing that the lady who put the calendar together (Pam) would peek at Rocket's profile...so I was deeply touched when she decided to include Rocket...when I pointed out to her that Rocket was a cat and not a dog...her response to me was: 1. he was Comet's brother=family 2. he too fought cancer 3. she made the rules.....so friends....if you want to peek at the calendar...Rocket is the ONLY cat among all the droolers....the only month neither is displayed is in the month of May....here is the link

http://www.cafepress.com/sierrapam.1019437260

Once again...thank you for listening...thank you for the support....

I know I will be back to this board lending support and just being there for you guys....I will do the same on other boards as well...for the knowledge that I gained in my journey with both Rocket and Comet would go to waste if I didn't put it to good use....I know they would want me to do so....and to honour them.... I will....

Hug your babies today and always....and tell them how much you love them for they give you unconditional love...they judge you not!

with much gratitude...today and always,

Claudia.....forever missing Rocket & Comet

 
More BIG HUGE HUGS Claudia and Darren. What a beautiful tribute to your sweet boys. Thank you so much for sharing them with us. A beautiful poem too...my GA doggies were pounding on my head as I read it. Keep throwing those wonderful memories of both of them into that Comet/Rocket shaped holes, they'll soon overflow.

Prayers for comfort as you walk thru this pain,
 
((((Claudia)))) You are not alone. We will grieve with you for Comet and for Rocket. You gave them everything and they both know how much you love them. Until you meet again, may your loving memories help ease your pain. Sending prayers of peace and comfort.
Ele
 
((((Claudia)))) I am so very sorry for your loss of Comet. You were the best bean ever and Comet loved you. He is now with Rocket and they are playing having a great time. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
 
My Dearest Claudia..I was so saddened to hear about the very Brave,
Sweet,Loving Comet!!my heart hurts so much for you, but you were so Blessed to
Have such amazing,wonderful fur babies in your lives....
And they lived many many years because of your loving care, your resolve to
Help them, and because they loved you...
Now they are together in a beautiful place, without pain or illness.

I love you, and all my LL friends for being there in all times of trouble & sadness,
You are such a good friend. Our lives intertwine because of our babies,
And the love & caring continue.
May you find Peace in knowing what an amazing wonderful Bean you are,
And one day we will see them again...Hugs & Love from Me
 
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