Noni ~ I Never Know My Life Without You ..(1997-2013)

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asoolty

asoolty

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I don't know what to say or how to start .. I just feel so lonely without you Noni Please come back mummy needs you so bad ..

it's been 3 days now and I still can't believe that your gone, I never know my adult life without you !I had you when you were small kitten 2-3 months old, a gift from a friend, you are my first !

you used to wake up when I wake up .. sleep when I asleep , and even do the wake up stretching when I do.. you are the smartest and the sweetest kitty in the whole world, never thought the the day when come and I have to open this condo for you ! I used to see kitten dying here and say no my baby is still young and maybe I'll see her when she reach 30 , and I'll be in my 60s then still loving and cuddling her .. she left so early .. so early


I still feel her around me in the house.. I still hear her sound of breathing in the house.. and still hope that I one day can walk to the other room and find her sleeping on the sofa and she hides her face in a sweet cuddle when she see me , she hate to see me sleeping if she doesn't feel sleepy and use to do anything possible to wake me up, she would jump on my dressing and push all the perfume bottles and make up on the floor so I get upset and wake up .. and when I go to punish her she gives me this puss in the boots innocent look so instead of punishing her I just hug her and do whatever she wants ...

I can't stop blaming myself .. I feel that there was something wrong and I couldn't help her ! The last day when we were in the vet, after falling down on us in the car and having problem breathing.. she took IV and felt little better, so I was waiting in the other room with her and my sister waiting for her to feel better so we can take the look drive back home .. she was sitting in her carrier with her face down and give me a 30 min look without a blink !! her look meant a lot and I was telling my sister .. I don't know why she's looking at me this way ..Noni is talking to me with her eyes !!! her eyes were so soft and tender .. it was like saying " I love you" ! I didn't know that It was saying goodbye ... P.S. I love you !!

I kept talking and singing to her to feel better I told her you mean the world to me and you are strong we still can fight .. but I guess when time is come there is no more option left for us !

I'm typing this with a river of tears .. I can't stop crying since then her loss is suffocating me .. I can't breath without her !

the stitches are still there in her small belly we didn't have the chance to remove them her appointment is next thursday !

Sorry LL I couldn't write you earlier.. I didn't want to do this and didn't hope to do it .. but we're thankful to you, you gave us nice 4 years together ! I will never forget you guys and will have you in my heart .. (or what is left of that heart) always..

I can't stay home I feel the house is empty without her .. even though my sisters are hear it still empty ! I might go visit my brother and mum in Canada next week ! I just feel so sad and I need some ear ! I don't know If that helps or I will ever recover again ..her machine is untouched for 3 days now ,, she never had the chance to continue her antibiotic, and the fluid I took back home is still hanging there next to my bed ! the oxygen bottle is still there next to my bed too .. her food that I prepare for her is still in the fridge .. I don't know how I'm gonna take all that of my life,, I don't know how a 16 years of my life was just gone with a second .. and all I had in 16 years was like never been there !

Thank you Dyana, Courtney , Rhiannon, Wendy, Ann, John, Carla, Mary , Layresa, Libby, Sienne, Cathy, Michelle , Karen, Ella, Josie, Lisa, Marje, Amy, Emily. and sorry if I forget to mention anyone here, excuse my lost mind and bad memories ,, Noni have all of me now.. the pain is just too real, I don't know if time can deal with that ..


I will be always around you guys,, hug your babies so hard for me and tell them to take this message to Noni " Please wait for me and remember me when we meet again, I will never love again the way I loved you .. "



Aseel .. without Noni this time.


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I am so sorry to read this! I know the pain you are going through all too well. Tomorrow will be 2 months without my boy Scrabble. I will tell you it gets easier but you will always miss her. I have been having a hard time myself but I try to focus on the wonderful memories we made together. Noni will remain forever in your heart. My heart goes out to you because I know how it feels. Take comfort in knowing she is no longer in pain and is flying free. There will be so many kitties, including Scrabble there to greet her. Take care of yourself. I try to keep busy so I don't dwell on what happened. It is hard. My deepest sympathies to you. Prayers for some peace and comfort for you. Take care. Big hugs!
 
(((((Aseel))))) I am so sorry. It sure hurts to lose one of our babies. Noni was lucky to be with you. Thinking of you.
Liz
 
(((((Aseel)))))

Noni will never be fully gone. For as long as you can feel her in your heart, she will be with you. For as long as you an remember the smallest detail -- a look, a sound, the feel of her fur, she will be with you. Right now, I know that seems impossible. The loss is still too fresh. As time passes, the ache will be less. Even if it feels like you will never laugh again, one day you'll find yourself smiling as you remember all of the things Noni would do that delighted you. Right now, it is a time for tears and I am sharing my tears with you. You did everything you possibly could for Noni and I have no doubt that she knew that. Cats know when it is their time. I am truly sorry she left you too soon.

When you are ready, this is a beautiful fable about why we choose tears. I hope it eases your grief just a little.

Fly free Noni and land softly, little one. There are many who we love dearly who will keep you safe at the Bridge until you are reunited with the one you love best.
 
Oh I am so so sorry for you and Noni, sending many many ((hugs)).

When tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.


Fly free little girl..
 
I am so very sorry to read this, Aseel. We all know how much you love and miss your sweet Angel Noni. You were very lucky to have found each other, even though your time together was far too short. Michelle is right...all of our GAs are welcoming Noni at the bridge, where they're all waiting for us to join them some day. Our thoughts, prayers, and deepest sympathies are with you, now and always.
 
Dear Aseel (((hugs))) What a beautiful condo you have left for Noni. I am crying how much you and Noni were such special creatures to each other and how she would play knocking off your perfumes - that is a smile to imagine. Noni sounds like she was a such a wonderful kitty for so many years, and you are clearly an awesome mom for her, doing everything you could for her all this time. Please don't blame yourself - what you did is amazing, and a lot more than most people in the world would do. I've been thinking so much about you the last couple days after we didn't hear from you, and I was praying all would be okay. I will hug Leo when he wakes up and tell him what Noni has said.

I hope your visit goes well with family and that going helps you see all of Noni's life rather than just feeling the pain of the last part of it. I am sending lots of love and prayers and hope you quickly reach the point where Noni is a special pearl in your heart that brings smiles and not just tears.

Lisa and Leo
 
Dear Aseel (((hugs))) What a beautiful condo you have left for Noni. I am crying how much you and Noni were such special creatures to each other and how she would play knocking off your perfumes - that is a smile to imagine. Noni sounds like she was a such a wonderful kitty for so many years, and you are clearly an awesome mom for her, doing everything you could for her all this time. Please don't blame yourself - what you did is amazing, and a lot more than most people in the world would do. I've been thinking so much about you the last couple days after we didn't hear from you, and I was praying all would be okay. I will hug Leo when he wakes up and tell him what Noni has said.

I hope your visit goes well with family and that going helps you see all of Noni's life rather than just feeling the pain of the last part of it. I am sending lots of love and prayers and hope you quickly reach the point where Noni is a special pearl in your heart that brings smiles and not just tears.

Lisa and Leo
 
(((Aseel))) I'm so sorry about your sweet Noni. What a beautiful and moving tribute to her. I kept watching for an update from you but had a feeling this was a condo you were having a hard time opening. Lots of hugs. My heart and prayers go out to you.
 
Oh Man, that hurt to read. Big Tears. And, Big HUGE Hugs to you, (((((((Aseel))))))

You know she will be waiting for you at The Bridge, and you will be with her again. I know it feels like a long time waiting for you. She is happy and healthy, and playing and comforted with other kitties at The Bridge. She will be over joyed to see you when someday you go to meet her again :)

I still cry for a horse I lost about 20 years ago. The hurt does get less with time. I can still imagine hugging him.
I hope you feel some comfort in knowing we understand.


Fly Free Beautiful Precious Noni. You are so loved.
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I am going to hope that she sends you a sign soon, that she is alright. I think you were right about the eyes. ((((Aseel))) I'm so sorry.

I lit a candle for Noni here
 
I'm so sorry Aseel. Many hugs! She knew how much you loved her and I believe you will see her again. She was a gift, a blessing to you.
I share your tears as you grieve her absence.

Fly Free Sweet Noni!
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(((((Aseel))))), I am so sorry. My heart aches for you.
Noni will always be a part of you. Always. Please be gentle to yourself during this hard time.
I'm sending you love across the miles.

Fly free, sweet Noni, and land softly.
Hugs to you, ((Aseel)).
 
Hello Aseel - I am so very sorry to hear about Noni. It is quite clear in your beautiful tribute to Noni how much of your heart she had. I find that one of the most amazing aspects of the human heart is it's ability to love our beautiful little creatures we call pets. I often times find that love to outshine our love for our human companions. Noni will never forget that love you have for her and it will carry on through all the ages. Your fragile heart will heal in time but your everlasting love and devotion for her will never leave your heart.

Sending you healing vines and many warm and comforting hugs.
 
Dear (((Aseel)))

My heart aches for you, and my tears fall with yours. What a beautiful tribute you wrote for your sweet Noni. One day, you will look over at her favorite spots and will smile with happiness and joy instead of through tears of grief. I know how impossible it must seem to you now, but with time, it will get better. I lost my childhood cat, Elvira, to CRF in 2005, and I still miss her every day. I got her when I was a little girl, and she was my BFF for 13 years. Her Mom was a stray who showed up on our doorstep pregnant. I had Elvira from the day she was born. I thought I would never get over losing her, and I haven't, but the pain has eased with time.

I can't stop blaming myself .. I feel that there was something wrong and I couldn't help her !
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Please don't blame yourself; you did everything in your power to give her a long, happy, healthy life, and that is what she had. Noni was a very lucky kitty to have you! I've asked Elvira to greet Noni at the bridge, and to love her and look after her until she can be reunited with you again. My wish for you is that the love and memories you have of and for Noni will help see you through this difficult time. She will always be with you, always a part of you. She enriched your life, as you did hers. I've lit a candle for Noni. May she fly free and land softly wings_cat

Take good care of yourself, Aseel. Sending peaceful vines, prayers, and love.

-Courtney and Kismet
 
So sorry for the loss of your beautiful Noni.
I feared the worse when you hadn't posted for a few days.

We all know how much you loved her and, of course, how much she loved you.
You did everything you could for her.

Fly free Noni.
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(((Aseel)))) Your tribute to your very special girl is poignant and beautiful. There are a million tears being shed in LL at the crossing of your Noni. Aseel....you were an amazing mama to her; never feel guilty. You were faced with so many difficulties there and yet you still did every single thing a person could do for your sweet baby. She was just ready to leave her little ill body. She is with you and I know you see and feel and hear her there. She will always wait for you and you will still go through forever together....there will just be a space in time but your love for her will carry you through the years until you are united.

We have lit a Candle for Noni. Gentle journey, sweet one.

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear:
And whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)
 
I am so sorry to rad this. I so hope the memories will be of comfort to you. Noni will never be far away, always tucked away in a corner of your heart, never to be forgotten. Fly free little one, you will be forever missed.
 
(((Aseel)))
so very sorry Noni is gone...gone in body....she will remain forever in your heart....

i know the pain all too well....it's been 5 months without my beloved Rocket and i feel as though it was just yesterday....the pain is immense...

be gentle with yourself....in time...only in time the tears will turn into smiles....i know it will be a long time yet for i still cry when i think of Rocket....so i know i'm not there yet...but i'm hopeful that the tears will turn into smiles....

she knew she was loved...don't doubt that

until you meet again....

Fly Free Sweet Noni wings_cat many GAs are awaiting for you and you are in good company until you are reunited with your mom....
 
I am so sorry Fly free sweet Noni, you are much loved and will be sorely missed.

No matter how long we have our loved ones, be it 16 days, 16 months, or 16 years, it is never long enough and they always leave us too soon. There are no words that can be written to spare your grief and pain. Hopefully, in time the grief and pain will lessen and when you think of Noni, you will be able to smile between the tears.

Until you meet again.
 
Dear (((((Aseel))))),
Noni will always reside in that special spot in your heart that is forever hers. She loved you so much and her love will see you through this difficult time. You were such a good mamabean and you did all that you could for your furbaby. Now she is healthy and safe at the Bridge, surrounded by all of our kitties who have Gone Ahead. They will watch over her and she will watch over you until that joyful day when you meet again.
All of your many friends in Lantus Land are grieving with you tonight. I hope that you can feel the love that surrounds you.

Fly free, dear sweet Noni wings_cat

In deepest sympathy,
Ella and Edward, Rusty, and Stu (GA)
 
Oh Aseel, I cry for your loss. You and Noni are in my prayers and I pray that sweet Noni continues to look after you from beyond the Rainbow Bridge. Blessings to you, dear Aseel.
 
Aseel. I am so sorry that Noni passed on. You did everything you could have done for Noni. It was her time to say goodbye for now. You'll be together again. Please don't blame yourself, as I said, you did everything you could have possibly done and in doing so added years to her life. Noni knew how much you loved her. When you feel your worse try to remember a special time you had with Noni, go to that place in the house and sit down and think of that special time you had with her there. Hopefully that will ease some of the pain.

Please know that we will be keeping you in our Prayers. I hope your visit with your mom will help some. Take care of yourself and please check in occasionally and let us know how you are doing. Always remember you have many friends here to talk to at any time.

Gods speed, Aseel.
 
Dear {{{Aseel}}}

I am sooo sorry for your loss! I will keep you and Noni in my prayers! You did everything you could for Noni! She knows it and you should remember all the love you gave each other!
 
(((Aseel))) I am so sorry to hear of your loss. From your tribute to Noni, I know you both loved each other very much. There will always be a part of her in your heart. You were a team.

Fly free sweet Noni, and land softly. May there be pleasant gardens for you to play in. wings_cat
 
My heart hurts for you - reading your goodbye to your baby Noni.

When one of us loses a furry companion here, we all feel the loss; we all share the tears; and we all can feel the emptiness left behind. It's so difficult to say goodbye - but don't blame yourself - you loved your sweet baby for 16 years and received so much love in return. Amazing how they fill our lives with such love and contentment - just by a purr or a touch of the paw - or a blink of the eye.

Again, my heart goes out to you in your sadness - each of us has felt it - and knows what you're going through. Sending many comforting prayers to you in your grief.

Emmy & Dude (GA) & Mittsi too
 
Oh Aseel, I am so sorry for your pain. but Noni is free of hers. There is no guilt, you loved her so much and did everything for her. Noni knew it was time to leave her body, but she will always be beside you. Fly free , Sweet Noni! Watch over Aseel from the Bridge and send her a sign that you will always be in her heart.
 
Be strong Asteel. Noni has & will never leave till you are ready to tell her to go. She has passed on to another form like one day we all will be leaving this old & fragile body behind. Listen to her with your heart.
Take care.
 
(((Aseel)))
I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, Noni. I know the feeling of total heartbreak -- I just lost my Cleo a little over 3 weeks ago and I don't think the emptiness in my heart will ever go away. I have slowly put away a few things of Cleo's, but many things remained untouched. You will know when it is time to sort through things. Right now, just know that you gave Noni the best care ever and you loved her with all of your heart. And she loved you with all of her heart. She is free of pain and will be waiting for you one day. Big hugs to you.
 
((((Aseel)))) I am so sorry to read this. What a beautiful tribute to Noni. She is running and playing with the other GAs. The hole in your heart will always be filled with her love. Fly free little one and land softly.
 
My heart is with you and my tears are too. I'm so very sorry about Noni. She was so fortunate to have shared incredible love with you. Her struggle with her body is over and you are suffering the pain of her loss. The love you have for her will always be strong and I wish the pain of missing her will be less as time goes on. Noni would not want you to hurt forever, even if it feels that way right now.
(((((Warm hugs to you Aseel.))))) ♥♥♥
 
Oh, so very sad. I am sorry for you loss, Aseel. Fly high and free, Noni and come back to visit your mom often.
 
Aseel, I am so sorry to learn this. I have been reading Noni's condos and learning about you both. She was so blessed to have you for her friend and caregiver. Fly free, Noni! And thank you for sharing your beautiful life with the family that will always love you so very much. cat_pet_icon
 
My dear Aseel, I am so very sorry Noni had to leave her body. My tears are falling as i read your beautiful tribute to her. You must know that you did everything there was to be done. She never wanted to leave you and she never will. Your heart and her heart are one and she will tell you in your heart that she is healthy, happy and waiting for you at the bridge. I will always remember the story you told about how happy she was when the two of you were sitting together in the garden. I will always see the two of you, together, in a garden, happy and whole.
Please know that we are here for you always. Let us know how you are. Much love to you. mary
 
Aseel,
BIG HUGE LOOOOOOONG HUG...I'm SO sorry it was Noni's time to cross. The hole they leave in our hearts is SO big. Start throwing those good memories in that hole, it will fill up again. REMEMBER - Noni's not 'gone', you just have to hug her differently. SHE knows you did everything in your power to help her but there was just no fixing that broken body.

Another big loooooong hug, I light a candle today for sweet girl....

Noni's Hug
 
(((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry to hear of your recent loss of Noni :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG: :YMHUG:


Fly Free Sweet Noni wings_cat wings_cat rb_icon
 
Aseel, We dont know each other but the tears are shared from the loss of your best friend and companion Sweet Noni. Our hearts just dont seem strong enough to bare this pain. But Noni is strong again and waiting. You WILL be together again. A love like yours cannot be forgotten.

God must have needed a special kitty, now hers is the brighest star in the heavens. lighting it's way to your heart.

My sincere condolences,
jeanne

For Aseel and Noni:
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I am so sorry for your pain. You did your very best for her and loved her dearly. While it is hard right now.....Noni is still in your heart and hopefully soon your memories of her will bring you a smile rather than tears. I am sure she would want it that way. rb_icon
 
Aseel,
I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet girl Noni. My heart goes out to you and I feel your pain. I lost my sweet girl Sara and felt guilty just like you. I know now that I gave her 17 wonderful years. Remember the good times you had with her and how she made you smile. I'm glad Noni gave you love and said her goodbye through her gaze. She will be welcomed by many wonderful kitties at the bridge.
Till you meet again.

http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm

Fly Free Sweet Noni rb_icon
 
Aseel-
My heart aches for your loss and how you must be grieving. When I did not see any posts from you, I feared Noni may have passed. You have NOTHING to be guilty about. You loved and cared for Noni to the very end. The long eye contact let you know how much she loved you and was letting you go as well. I continue to pray for you and lift you up. May the vacation to Canada and visiting your family be a balm on the pain in your heart. You will never forget her. And while it seems impossibl to believe now, the pain of her loss will getbetter. I lost my beloved Baxter and Simon 2.5 months apart. And at the time the grief was overwhelming. Allow yourself to grieve.
Sending you hugs across the miles. Know that you have an LL family lifting you up.
HUGS
Kaen
 
Aseel, I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Noni...I also lost my sweet baby girl Moonie on Valentines Day. Noni will always be with you, in thought & mind..The Love you had for each other never dies, and one sweet day you will see her again. My Moonie was 16 1/2 yrs in my life, the best years ever, with her brother(GA) as well..I cannot tell you it gets better, but it does get different...
You will look back at this time as a wonderful time you spent with the most special kitty ever.
Praying for you & hoping you find peace..Hugs & Love from me-
Fly free dear Noni and Land softly on the other side!
 
Aseel, I am so very sorry about your beautiful Noni. She has landed softly on the other side and she will always be with you in your heart.

wings_cat
 
Aseel, I saw the candle and read your story. I am saddened and wholly touched. I feel the love you have for Noni it is deep and so beautiful and will never fade. Blessings from Mr Grey, Butterscotch, Lima, and myself.
 
Noni in my dream

There is a cat that comes everyday to my window to eat, she's pregnant maybe I mentioned her in one of my posts 2 weeks ago, she started visiting when Noni first had the liquid in the lungs. she used to come around to play but Noni got upset as she was in pain that day in the front garden of my house, she started coming to my room side (back side of the house) through the backyard, I feed once or twice a day, and sometimes its not the food that she want, she just wanna chat with me and be around even when she's full she stay there for hours,, its been almost 5 -6 weeks ..

last night I had a short dream of Noni,, she was sitting at the same place behind my window with this cat ,, and many many other cats.. waiting for me to feed... they were all so clean and pretty .. all fluffy and happy together.. Noni was sitting in the middle between them in front of her bowl and looking at me through the distance.. she was full of nice fur.. all the shaving is gone .. and she gained a nice weight just like before .. or maybe more.. I was so so soooo happy to see her

but then the dream was just for 5 min.. I was just getting to sleep , not totally unconscious ..and it felt so real

Finally she came to me..even in a dream but I waited for 5 days, and it feels like a year.



Dyana thank you for sharing Noni's picture with us ..that was a year before getting diabetes.

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Thank you all for being here for me I love you so much , I kept reading your replies over and over..

Michelle, I still remember what you wrote for Scrabble.. It really touched me and made me cry for days.. now it's my turn I guess to cry and feel your pain .. for real this time

I miss my baby so much now .. its been 5 days without Noni now .. won't lie and say it's getting easer .. it doesn't .


Aseel and Noni forever
 
(((Aseel)))

What a beautiful dream you had! I love that she was surrounded by other cats and they all looked happy and healthy. Maybe those are the other GAs who are watching over her until she can be reunited with you. I'm glad Noni finally visited you, it must have been nice to see her.

Sending you tons of peaceful vines and hugs.

Maybe you will have kittens in your backyard soon? That's something to look forward to :)
 
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