Thank you everybody for your kind and helpful words.I love and need those hugs!!!
I am being over-sensitive and I know it. I mean, we do get blood everytime, and in truth, he is taking it well except for occasions like last night (not sure why that was). I do believe I need a larger gauge lancet,(I free-hand it after watching the video, I thought that was probably the best way rather than fool with the pen).We have tested now a total of 9 times since I got my supplies (did a curve the 2nd day) and I have consistently gotten enough for my meter( Relion Micro). I am being somewhat of a baby, I guess. I don't like the idea of such a sweet kitty turning sour, even though I know I am helping him. Sometimes he walks away looking at me like-what the heck are you doing to me, mom? All I could think after last night's fiasco is-I hate this new life we have to have. Perhaps if it was the only thing going on in my life, I may not feel quite like that, ya know? When your kitties are one of the positives-the high points in your life and then something major happens there too.. well. let's just say, I have HAD IT with major life-changing events.
When I look over the success we have had, and the fact that Caesar does not run from us, I should be grateful. I do stay calm, and my son helps me out with holding his head steady-he ALWAYS jerks his head when I prick his ear- but the blood seems to stay(thankfully). I will get onto getting the spreadsheet today but these are his numbers since the 14th: 305,( 244. 343. 325- curve).329.294.354.268. I am testing always before his shot. So, I guess I am doing ok? More importantly how does that look for him??