Deb415andNikki
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Dearest Tracey -- sorry, sweet Suzie, this is mom talk,
The answer is no; but, could be yes.
My hands used to shake as I put the key in the door after a long day's work wondering if Giz was still alive in the very rough and very tenuous early days after her diagnosis and three days/nights in ICU for DKA.
She was on N back then, and I was incredibly nervous about us doing this dance...
I started testing her pee pretty fast with KetoDiastix so knew she was diabetic (spilling sugar in her pee) and, thankfully, had no ketones; but, was hesitant about home testing. It took me one month and 28 days. And, no, I'm not proud of the fact that it took me that long... But, apparently, that was when I was ready. Giz was certainly surprised!
Here's the deal, Tracey. I stopped walking on eggshells when I started home testing Giz. Yes, I still dropped to my knees every time she greeted me at the door which was often; but, it was from gratitude, not from fear or dread.
And, I found myself putting the key confidently in the door when I came home each night.
There is such a good feeling in your heart when you become proactive. You just smile knowing you're doing the absolute best you can do!
I'm sorry if what I'm about to type out loud seems harsh, because that certainly isn't my intention. And, trust me, Tracey, this is coming from someone who truly feels your emotional and financial pressures, okay? Open the box from Lori and Tom and start home testing. Answer Venita's PM. Start being proactive. Stop walking on eggshells...
You'll not only be saving Suzie, you'll be saving yourself. You'll just find yourself feeling better about a lot of things...
It's a leap of faith. Just leap, dear Tracey. Leap!
Much love and our countless hopeful, healing, and encouraging prayers and hugs continue for you both,
Deb and Nikki -- and, Giz, who taught me to be a better person... And, who then sent me Nikki, just to make sure I hadn't forgotten all her lessons...
traceyg said:Do you ever get used to living in the edge of life and death with someone you love? That is were it seems Suzie and I are. I am very sore today so I am sure that has a lot to do with my thinking. . .
The answer is no; but, could be yes.
My hands used to shake as I put the key in the door after a long day's work wondering if Giz was still alive in the very rough and very tenuous early days after her diagnosis and three days/nights in ICU for DKA.
She was on N back then, and I was incredibly nervous about us doing this dance...
I started testing her pee pretty fast with KetoDiastix so knew she was diabetic (spilling sugar in her pee) and, thankfully, had no ketones; but, was hesitant about home testing. It took me one month and 28 days. And, no, I'm not proud of the fact that it took me that long... But, apparently, that was when I was ready. Giz was certainly surprised!
Here's the deal, Tracey. I stopped walking on eggshells when I started home testing Giz. Yes, I still dropped to my knees every time she greeted me at the door which was often; but, it was from gratitude, not from fear or dread.
And, I found myself putting the key confidently in the door when I came home each night.
There is such a good feeling in your heart when you become proactive. You just smile knowing you're doing the absolute best you can do!
I'm sorry if what I'm about to type out loud seems harsh, because that certainly isn't my intention. And, trust me, Tracey, this is coming from someone who truly feels your emotional and financial pressures, okay? Open the box from Lori and Tom and start home testing. Answer Venita's PM. Start being proactive. Stop walking on eggshells...
You'll not only be saving Suzie, you'll be saving yourself. You'll just find yourself feeling better about a lot of things...
It's a leap of faith. Just leap, dear Tracey. Leap!
Much love and our countless hopeful, healing, and encouraging prayers and hugs continue for you both,
Deb and Nikki -- and, Giz, who taught me to be a better person... And, who then sent me Nikki, just to make sure I hadn't forgotten all her lessons...