I see you are sad, and I understand. My cat was diagnosed about a month ago and I was sad, angry, shocked, afraid--you name it. But this board has helped me a lot. I still have moments when it feels overwhelming, but I'm learning a lot. I know you will, too, as everyone here is so supportive. Like most of us, I have multiple cats, 3, all of whom according to the vet need different specialty diets, but I live in a sort of one room open area and separate feedings are virtually impossible, so they mostly share food. My black cat Savvy has several issues including kidney disease and food allergies but when Kali his litter mate became a sugar cat, we switched to mostly low carb food which is exactly what kidney cats don't need. The vet was not happy. When we had his numbers checked last week, she was quite surprised that he had actually improved a little. I was relieved! We can only do the best we can and diet is one of the most challenging things to figure out. I know you'll find what works best! So glad you are here with Crush. Nora and Kali