GA My Sweet Radar is gone and my heart is so heavy

Jan Radar (GA)

Jan Radar (GA)

Member Since 2015
I haven't posted a message here for quite some time, but I wanted to let all of you who might remember Radar know that yesterday was the day I knew would come but didn't really want to think about.

In the last few months he had started a gradual decline and his arthritis had gotten so much worse. He was still able to get around but he asked for help often to get up on the bed for a nap or to be carried to his favorite sunny window. We had to syringe feed him a lot because he was simply unable to eat on his own. He couldn't see very well, but there was nothing wrong with his nose or his ears. He knew when we were fixing his most favorite treat of baby food and a little pureed pumpkin warmed in the microwave to a nice warm mouse temperature perfect for enjoying in the late afternoon. He always lifted his head in eager anticipation of the moment when we'd bring the treat to him and he could begin licking the plate. We knew there was something really wrong when he refused to eat his babyfood. He was at the vet's office everyday this week as she tried to help him get better. Yesterday his breathing was raspy and he was clearly uncomfortable and struggling for every breath. The vet discovered he had fluid in his lungs and then he gave us the look we all know will come one day. "Please help me mamma. I can't do this any more." So we gave him the most precious and loving gift a pet owner gives through rivers of tears as we held the paw of our beloved kitty.

Now our task is to survive these early difficult days of an empty house with no purring kitty to hug and cuddle with in our laps. I'm sure we'll have good days and bad ones and all the thousands of photos we took will help us remember all the years of joy and love he brought to our house.

The pawprints he left on our hearts will remain forever.
 
{{{Jan}}} I am so sorry for the news. :bighug::bighug::bighug: I know you loved Radar so much. Almost 7 years a diabetic is a testament to how much you cared.

Take care of you now. Having a kitty with multiple issues is incredibly hard on caregivers. I know I found myself exhausted afterwards. Pictures and videos were indeed helpful.
 
Jan I'm so sorry. It's never easy to say good-bye. Radar was lucky to have had you. Fly free sweet Radar. You will be missed. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Jan, I am so sorry to hear Radar has gone to the rainbow bridge. You have been a wonderful mama to him.
The days ahead will be hard for you but know you have given him a wonderful life.
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Jan Radar said:
I haven't posted a message here for quite some time, but I wanted to let all of you who might remember Radar know that yesterday was the day I knew would come but didn't really want to think about.

In the last few months he had started a gradual decline and his arthritis had gotten so much worse. He was still able to get around but he asked for help often to get up on the bed for a nap or to be carried to his favorite sunny window. We had to syringe feed him a lot because he was simply unable to eat on his own. He couldn't see very well, but there was nothing wrong with his nose or his ears. He knew when we were fixing his most favorite treat of baby food and a little pureed pumpkin warmed in the microwave to a nice warm mouse temperature perfect for enjoying in the late afternoon. He always lifted his head in eager anticipation of the moment when we'd bring the treat to him and he could begin licking the plate. We knew there was something really wrong when he refused to eat his babyfood. He was at the vet's office everyday this week as she tried to help him get better. Yesterday his breathing was raspy and he was clearly uncomfortable and struggling for every breath. The vet discovered he had fluid in his lungs and then he gave us the look we all know will come one day. "Please help me mamma. I can't do this any more." So we gave him the most precious and loving gift a pet owner gives through rivers of tears as we held the paw of our beloved kitty.

Now our task is to survive these early difficult days of an empty house with no purring kitty to hug and cuddle with in our laps. I'm sure we'll have good days and bad ones and all the thousands of photos we took will help us remember all the years of joy and love he brought to our house.

The pawprints he left on our hearts will remain forever.
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So sorry for your loss. Yes they do leave us in a void when they pass however they leave us with a lifetime of loving memories. Cherish those everyday as they will help you get through this difficult time. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((Jan))) I remember you and Radar well, and am deeply saddened to see that it was time for you to say goodbye. The first little while is indeed so hard, constantly passing between numbness and grief, with a heartache that will take time to heal. May your fond memories of Radar help lift your spirits.
 
I never knew Radar, but your beautiful words really struck me. He held on for as long as he could all because of the love you piled on to him. My heart breaks for you, I cannot fathom your pain. Fly high, sweet kitty, and watch over your mama who loved you so. cat_wings>o
 
Oh my! This is so sad! My heart goes out to you. I can tell how very dear Radar was to you. I can also tell what perfectly amazing care you took, out of this tremendous love, for your special boy! I see that he was diagnosed as diabetic in 2015! You took care of him all that time. I daresay as the years went on you had additional health problems to manage. I am so very glad you had Radar and that Radar had you! I am so sorry for your pain. I know how much this separation hurts. God bless you all.
 
I am so sorry and sad for you, (((Jan))). He will always be with you and you will always have the love you share.

Gentle journey, Radar.:rb_icon::rb_icon:
 
Jan – you gave Radar the best home and the most love he could every have asked you. You did good – and one day that thought will help put the pieces of your heart back together. Look after yourself in the coming days. They won't be easy. :bighug:
 
Oh Jan, my heart breaks for you - and yes, you gave him the most loving gift of all - knowing the time was right to help him over the Rainbow Bridge.

I know you're heart is breaking today - and understand that as you heal, the memories and love you have for him will stay with you for the rest of your life....

How fortunate he was to have found you to share his love and his life with.

Sending you hugs and soft paw pad pushes today... :bighug::bighug:cat_wings>o
 
Dear Jan, :bighug::bighug:
I am so sorry that you had to bid farewell to your dear boy. He will always be in your heart in that special place that belongs only to him. At the Bridge he has joined all of his old friends and is "in good paws" until that wonderful day when you will be reunited. He is free of pain and sending you his love.
Fly free, dear Radar. You are much loved and will be fondly remembered. cat_wings>o
 
I am so very sorry for your loss of Radar. Your house may seem empty, but your hearts are not. You have given the most courageous of loving gifts. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((((Jan)))))
I just saw your post.

I am so very sorry. You did the most selfless and loving thing possible by giving Radar his wings. So many of the Lantusland kitties are with Radar at the Bridge. His paw prints will always be on your heart and you know you will be together any time you think of him. I found the quote in my signature shortly after Gabby crossed the Bridge:

"Cats never completely leave you. They side step time, shrug off death - come at the call of memory their beauty undiminished, their touch as gentle, their love perpetual."
 
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