My Precious Girl Buffy is at Peace

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My husband always called her "The Buff" and said she was the best cat in the world. I called her "Precious Girl." She also had a nickname, "Missy Lou" for no particular reason, it just seemed to fit. She was a very special gift that came into our lives and we never once took her for granted.

To my Buffy: I'll miss you something awful sweet girl, you know that. I'll miss the way we would snuggle and you would put your little head up to my lips for kisses (you never seemed to get enough, and neither did I). And I'll miss the sweet way you would give me and your daddy eye sugar (only we three know what that is). I'll never forget how you brightened our lives and made us laugh for over 14 years - chirping with your stuttering little mouth at the birdies that seemed to taunt you as you watched from your perch, swatting at fluttering bugs on the other side of the window, scaring Wags with your batting paws on top of his head. He'll miss you, too; and Punkin and Tom will miss you. Most of all your daddy and I already have a hole in our hearts that looks like a miniature you. Come to me in my dreams sweet girl, I'll be waiting there.
 
Awe, that's a nice tribute. tears.

Fly Free Precious Girl Buffy.
Happy and Healthy waiting at the bridge, for one day when you will be reunited with your loving mom and dad.
 
Everyone: Thank you for your kind words. I've not been able to come here without crying, so I've just come and gone. Now that I have nothing but time on my hands, I'm afraid I'll start searching for all the things I could have done, and didn't. I'm already doing that in my head, over and over again - "I should have....", "Why didn't I...," "Would it have helped her if..." So I'm not doing well at this point.

The pain of losing Buffy is excruciating and I don't know if I can get through it with my sanity intact, although I'm trying as hard as I know how.

I work from home, and my Precious Buffy has been beside me nearly every day, lying in her own office chair, or sitting not too far away on her window perch. I left her only twice in her 14 years, once to visit my ailing father, and once to take an overnight trip. I suffered separation anxiety on both occasions which was difficult enough to deal with, but now I'm totally without her and I'm not coping well at all.

My husband (a self-described former non-cat person) is very supportive, as he is as much in love with her as I am. He cried like a baby as he held her for the sedative we requested. He continued to hold her afterwards, as she heaved and let go. He wept like a father losing a child.

We are having Buffy cremated and we will have her back sometime early next week. I've been collecting her things - her collars, leash, her brush that has her fur in it, her puffy (now mangled) ball that was her "mouse," and her little rolling foam ball. I'll be purchasing a box of some sort that I can insert her picture into, and I'll set her ashes inside and surround it with her things. Her vet promised she would get a paw print for me, and my plan is to somehow transfer it to the box, if possible.

I'm crying vocally now as I type so I think it's time to sit quietly and just do some of this grieving thing that I knew would be here one day.

Again, a heartfelt thank you to all.

Nancy - (Buffy's mama)
 
Nancy,
BIG HUGE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG HUG. Of course it hurts - we can't have that strong of love and NOT hurt when they must leave. No words I can say can really help right now so I won't even try...it just hurts. One of the things I do when I lose each one of mine is write their names and dates inside their food bowl - later when I can, their food bowls are put on the fence in our Angel Garden. I also have a windchime made with their collar tags - the top is just a round ring, I use clear fishing line to hang them. I swear sometimes it tinkles when there's absolutely NO wind....I feel like it's one of my babies visiting when that happens.

Another big loooooooooong hug,
 
What a beautiful tribute. I am sharing your aching heart I know how hard it is when they are so much a part of your daily life. I didn't want to even get out of bed this morning. She sounds a lot like my Teddy. He had so many endearing traits. When I feel able, I am going to sit down and write all of my memories of the things he used to do. I don't ever want to forget any of them.
My husband cried too, and we still break down out of the clear blue sky crying.
I'm hoping you get many visits from your dear Buffy
((HUGS))
Teddy's mom Carol
 
(((Nancy & dh))) I am so sorry for your loss. Fly free Precious Buffy rb_icon

Your beautiful girl will be in your hearts forever. I know the pain is unbearable now. I lost my Jeddie in July and it still hurts, but I try to remember all the good things and look at all the photos I have of him being goofy. Gather the good memories to your heart, maybe write down favorite stories about her. And maybe a favorite photo in a very special frame sitting near your desk will remind you that she is still there in your heart and will never truly leave you.


(((hugs)))
 
Thank you for your words of comfort. Hugs to you also on the loss of your Jeddie {{{{{Sheila}}}}}.

To all who understand where I'm at: No words can describe, can they? Yes, she'll always be in my heart. But right now it's as though my heart has been ripped completely out, and I'm thinking, how can I live without my heart? It seems the sadness will hang over me forever.

I've already started writing memories of her. I'm searching out pictures and I'm collecting her things for the box where her remains will be kept. The tears are flowing so I'll leave it here.....
 
I don't remember having any dreams at all, until the last two nights.

November 19/20 – Dreams all night of feeding Buffy. I would wake up, go back to sleep, and I would be feeding her again. I was trying hard to help her and it seemed very real.

November 20/21 – More dreams, but this time Buffy was healthy and I was able to hold her and feel her again. When I woke up I actually felt emotionally as if I had been with her and was happy for a while. Also had a dream that a cat that looked and acted just like Buffy wandered into the yard and I remember thinking, "she's been sent back to me."

I miss you sweet girl.
 
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