My dear Chloe passed away yesterday, needing support

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My beloved kitty Chloe passed away yesterday because of her diabetes. Chloe was almost 18 years old, and has had diabetes for about 3 years now. I am devestated because I have had Chloe since I was six years old. I have spent most of my life with her and now she's gone. I can't help but cry constantly ever since yesterday morning when I woke up to my mom yelling at me to come downstairs because 'Chloe won't wake up'. I found Chloe stretched out in her bed breathing but unconcious and stiff. It looked as though she had stopped breathing and I thought she had passed. Me and my mom rushed her to the vet hospital and they took her right in, they said Chloes heart was still beating, but she was very cold. They tried to revive her with syrup and she did open her eyes after having an IV and the syrup. The vet sent us home and said she'd call after they did some blood tests on her. The vet said Chloe didn't have enough brain activity as she would like, so the only option was to put her to sleep. I have never been so overwhelmed with saddness in my whole life walking into that room having to say goodbye to my first pet. Chloe's eyes were open but she didn't even know I was there, she was 'brain dead'.

I can't help feeling guilty for not paying enough attention to her that last night before she slipped away, giving her the insulin shot, petting her and going to bed. I wish I had known that her blood glucose wasn't what it should of been, she must have needed a different dose instead of the 1 unit of insulin. I can't help being angry at my vet for not letting us know it was time to come in so they could check her blood glucose levels.

I seem to be the only one who is having the hardest time with the loss of Chloe, its hard for me to sleep and to stop crying. She meant the world to me, and I feel guilty for her death. I just joined this forum, I need some support and to talk to people who are going through feline diabetes.

Thanks for listening,

-Megan
 
Darling Megan,

Please understand that we all do the best we can for our furries. And, you did your best for Chloe. Please don't second guess yourself.

There will come a day when your heart will be flooded with the wonderful memories of growing up with Chloe! Grieving hearts take time to mend, Megan. Just give your heart time, okay? There will come a day when you smile again thinking of Chloe... And, that will be the day you understand that love endures...

I am so truly sorry for your great loss, Megan. Please accept my profound condolences and deepest sympathies. And, please be gentle with yourself as you grieve. We grieve with you...


















Fly free, precious Chloe! Soar high on your beautiful new wings! Visit your mommy's dreams and tell her you're okay now. Tell her you'll always, always love her. Send us all a rainbow!

Much love and countless gentle hugs for you, darling Megan,
Deb and Nikki -- and, Giz, forever whispering in my heart...






Poem For Cats

And God asked the feline spirit
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.

Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered angel
But I must come slowly
For my human friends are troubled
For you see, they need me, quite certainly.

But don't they understand? asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is... forever and ever and ever.

Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am... forever and ever and ever.

Author Unknown
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. Deb is right, do not second guess yourself. You took great care of your cat friend. It sounds like she had a wonderful life and was loved by you, and you by her.

It's so sad when they have to go. She will be deeply missed.

My deepest sympathies are with you.
 
I'm so very sorry for your loss of your sweet Chloe. I know it's no consolation but 18 years is a wonderful, long life for a kitty. You did everything that you knew how to do to help her. don't look back with negativity. There will come a time when the happy memories will be the first thing you think of when you remember her. It will take time, though. It sounds like Chloe was very fortunate to have you, as you were to have Chloe. We all know how special our sugarcats are, and how our bonds are stronger because of it. It is heartbreaking to hear of one passing. Chloe is free of her broken body that was holding back her beautiful spirit. Fly free, Chloe wings_cat ((((Megan)))) hugs for you.
 
Dear Ms. Chloe~~
thank you for giving mommy 18 yrs! and please send mommy some extra tender memories! Please hang in there mommy and allow grieving! As much time as you need! Cry, scream, stomp and smile!
Sending (((hugs))) to you!
 
I am so sorry for your loss of Chloe. Megan, you are in my prayers. May peace find you and memories of Chloe bring a smile to you.

Pattie
 
((((((((((((((((((((((((MEGAN))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sending lots and lots of cyber hugs to you. Its so hard when we lose them. I am so very sorry for your loss. Chloe is flying free now, whole and healthy over the Rainbow Bridge. rb_icon
wings_cat
 
I'm so very sorry for your loss. To lose a friend of 18 years is so very sad and hurts so much. You were honored to share the love of a life time. We wish for forever...
Fly free sweet kitty land ever so softly...
jeanne
 
So sorry for your loss Megan. She's at the Rainbow Bridge and is young and healthy again. rb_icon
 
Oh Megan, my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for you loss.

Have you visited http://www.petloss.com/ I know I found great comfort there when my sweet boy passed away.

(((((((((Megan))))))) also holding you with a big sympathetic cyber hug.

Christian sends his condolences as well. Rest well sweet Chloe, enjoy the Rainbow Bridge!

Megan, it is true that they can visit us in our dreams, my baby passed in 07, and just this last Saturday night I had my first dream visit from him, and I really needed it. Greiving our pets is so hard, so very hard. Be kind to yourself, and know you really gave Chloe the best she could have, a lifetime of incredible love. How blessed was she to see you grow up. She will always be with you Megan.
 
Megan
My heart goes out to you. I think I know how you feel because my 12 year old Baby was diagnosed today with an inoperable tumour. I love her dearly and will soon have to make the decision to put her to sleep and my heart is breaking right now. I am consoling myself with the knowledge that Baby has received love and tenderness every day of her life and it gives me comfort, but the grief is still there. I lost a 17 year old cat Dubh many years ago which devestated me, and the pain is not any easier with Baby, but from that experience, I know that you do get over the hurt and pain of loss; and memories of happy, friendly times take over. I wish that I could take away your pain but that is not possible - but be assured you will survive it and remember dear Chloe with fond joy.
Bless you
Dan
 
Megan,

Just last month I lost one of my bestie's to kidney failure and while I know it doesn't get easier,
but you do eventually manage to carry the weight around. You were so lucky to have one another for so very long.

I'll be sending out warm thoughts and prayers for both of you tonight.
 
Thank you all very much for your kind words, made me have tears of joy as well as saddness. All of your comments meant a lot to me:)
It's nice to think that somebody else out there cares or knows what I am going through. I just received a beautiful bouquet of pink flowers from my auntie, she too is a cat owner and her dear cat Misha has cancer so she knows the end for her cat is near as well.

I wish that all of our fur babies would live as long as we did, but I know that is not possible. They are just such special creatures that bring us so much love, a type of love that no one else can give us.

Chloe will forever remain in my heart and her memory will stay with me forever.

Give extra love to your babies for me, and I hope none of them fall fate to thier diabetes as did Chloe.

With love,

Megan
 
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