MITZI NOT IMPROVING!!!

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Mara and Mitzi

Mara and Mitzi

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I don't know what to do. The vet yesterday confirmed it was neuropathy but wouldn't do new bloodwork because I "owe them enough already." Assholes. I fricken make payments to them on a weekly basis and it's more than enough, but whatever. I did schedule an appt. with my hometown vet for Monday at 6:30 because she doesn't care about money, she cares about Mitzi. It'd be sooner but that's the soonest I could get in. I guess I just wanna see what her results say because maybe it's something besides her kidneys that I can help or improve on so she isn't the way she is right now?! I just can't stop crying cos I know she's not herself but what if I can do something to help her? I literally pray to GOD every single night that if it's her time that he should take her while she's sleeping in my arms at night. How is that too much to ask for?! I can't murder her. I know everyone says it's ending one's suffering but I can't look at it that way because Mitzi means more to me than my own blood family. Granted, I love them more than anything, too but I'm just proving a point that Mitzi is my world and I don't consider her an animal or pet, she's my baby. I just can't live without her. I literally can't. I've had her for 17 years and she's my baby and has been there for me through thick and thin. I just want her here forever. I even try making deals with the devil that he can take away my ability to have children or subtract 20 years off my life if he's just give them to her but GOD forbid anything like that ever work. I just hate this so much and I'd rather be the one in kidney failure and have diabetes so she can be healthy. She hasn't purred in over a week and she usually purrs herself to sleep in my arms every night. The vet said her two teeth should be extracted but it wouldn't be good cos of her condition and age. I don't think they're abscess but her gums are infected and there's a lot of tartar/plaque buildup. I wish I could have her pain instead of her. It's not fair. Can she get better? Maybe I just need to start her on B12 injections and the Clindamycin that the vet prescribed and go from there and also see how bloodwork is this next week? What do you think? Would that be alright? I mean she's not herself but I wouldn't be either with a crappy couple of teeth. The vet said she's not in pain as far as her body goes just her teeth area. She did a whole bunch of stuff with her legs and what not to check for pain and I watched and Mitzi didn't show any signs she was in pain. I guess that's good, right?! I mean Mitzi is bright and alert and everything, not like our old cat, Mya, who died from diabetes, kidney and thyroid failure and dimensia. She was BAD and super skinny and peed all over herself when she didn't even know it. So Mitzi is def better than that. Should I see how the weekend goes? I'm having such a hard time with this cos I just don't think she's ready. Everyone always says they can see it in their baby's face when it's time but I don't think it is. Then again maybe I'm a selfish ***** who doesn't want to believe it's time but I honestly don't think it is. We've had to put babies down in the past and we knew they were really suffering and couldn't fight anymore but Mitzi just seems better than they ever were. I mean there are cats on this site who have lost complete ability to walk and they aren't put down?! I just hate this and I don't think I could honestly live with myself knowing I killed her. I don't see it as ending her suffering, I see it as murder. We don't get to put people down when they're in pain or on their death bed so why should we do it to our babies with 4 legs?! It's literally the same to me. I just don't know what to do and maybe she can get better?! Am I being unrealistic?! Now she keeps trying to stuff herself under my nightstand! Why?! I blocked off the underneath of my bed this last Saturday cos she was hiding under there for over 2 weeks and I didn't really like that, especially when I couldn't see her. I'm heading to take my last final now so I'll get back on afterwards but send Mitzi all your love and prayers. Thanks.
 
Sending continued prayers....

If it were me, I would call around and find another vet... although Monday is probably as good as you will get without an emergency visit.....
I would find one that understands that the dental extractions and quality of life is extremely important.... and who would be willing to try to remove those teeth....

you probably don't have to make a deal with the devil.... but maybe one with student loan, or credit card to get funds to cover costs....


the b12 shots would help with the anemia.... (someone will correct if I am wrong)
but for the neuropathy, it has to be methylcolbalmin ...
if you have a well stocked pharmacy you can find some locally, but most of the pharmacies around me only have methyl -b12 that is cherry flavored ( so it has sugar)

Zobaline can be found on this link or you can get it thru amazon.
or

vitacost capsules
I used this one because it was a capsule that I could just pour in the food and mix it in..... no taste....


trying to hide means she's in pain..... and doesn't feel good.....
Maybe you could set her up a little covered nest in the closet where you can access her easily but she thinks she's hiding.....
 
If her gums are inflamed, it's going to effect her BG numbers which will not help with neuropathy. I agree with Rhiannon and with your idea to get her to your home town vet. It's likely that those teeth need to go. I seriously doubt that a dental infection/inflammation is helping Mitzi's overall health.

I also won't tell you what I think about a vet withholding care and abandoning his responsibility because of payment issues.

(FWIW: You may want to remove the 911 icon. We generally reserve this if there is an immediate, life threatening medical emergency.)
 
sending you a big hug, mara. it's a hard time to be in - one of those times when you'd rather not be the adult making these tough calls. all i can say is that i loved punkin as much as you love Mitzi, and i did let him go when it became clear that his quality of life was gone.

what people said to me was to think of 5 qualities that made punkin uniquely punkin. the things that really spoke to his character and personality and that brought him joy. Punkin purred so loudly you could hear him in the next room - and he would purr for a couple of hours at a time. He loved to eat! He kinda pranced when he walked and had a little cute butt wiggle, and his tail stood up tall and fluffy. He loved to be held and just wanted to stay attached to my body. He loved Anya and they would wash each other's face and snuggle. He had a psychic gaze that spoke to my soul and he would make eye contact and tell you exactly what he wanted you to do for him. But there was a time - a year ago this week - when all of those quirky special things were gone and he could only walk a couple of feet before laying down. We did everything we could, but when the inevitable was in front of us, we choose to have the vet come and we let him go so he wouldn't suffer. His chest had filled with fluid and his lungs were squished to the point where he could hardly breathe. We loved him too much to let him feel like that. I still miss him and wish he could be here, of course.

Only you know what those special things are with Mitzi. You might think about them, and when the time comes that those 5 things are gone, you have to seriously consider whether or not it's the right time to let her go. i don't think it's murder at all. we all die - it's a guarantee that she's not going to stay with you as long as you hope for - our kitties never do. Making these decisions for our little ones is one of the hardest things we ever do.

I trust you're doing everything you can for her now, but when the time comes, i hope if you need to make that decision you'll be able to do it out of the bottomless love you feel for her.
 
I think that Julie hit the home run here and I couldn't have said it better. Still sending more prayers for Mitzi and for your heart Mara that you will do the very best thing for your baby. Letting go is never easy and when the time comes no matter how many times in your life you have to do it, it still hurts like nothing else. Keep her close, talk with her, look into her eyes, listen to her, you WILL know! Hugs :YMHUG:
 
Also am sending you my love and prayers, too. :YMHUG: I'm glad that you're going to your hometown vet, also. I really hope that this vet can help Mitzi get better. Hang in there.
 
Julie said it better than I could. Lots of prayers for you and Mitzi, Mara. You'll know what to do when a decision has to be made.

~Suzanne
 
Adding my prayers, hugs, and good thoughts for your regular vet to help Mitzi get better.
 
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