Hey Pat121 -- Sorry it took me a bit to answer. I totally understand the overwhelm!! My oldest boy kitty, Theo (aka, PuPu), 14, is in renal failure, moving into 4th stage. He also has a heart murmur and hyperesthesia. I cannot believe I am dealing with both him and CoCo Beanie at the same time, poor prognosis for both (I also have three, younger kitties, who all just turned 4 years old). Then Beanie has high blood pressure, on top of the diabetes, IBD and/or lymphoma -- and we're both still trying to adjust to her new blindness. I feel like every day there is some sort of small change -- there are good days and not-so-good ones -- it is truly a roller coaster here.
I spend about 4 hours a day on meds, food prep, glucose testing, insulin injections -- then subcutaneous fluids every 1-3 days (I have to have help with that) and B-12 injections every two weeks.....I feel so broken down. But I don't want it to be like I'm complaining -- I tell God I'd rather keep doing this (as long as tbey feel good) to still have them with me. I beg them to want to stay with me.....my heart is breaking every single day because the writing is on the wall.
I have 6 weeks left to my last semester for my masters degree, it's an awful semester -- I pray they can both hold out till at least then. I'm a teaching assistant for 5 professors/5 classes and I've been buried since the start -- I feel beyond exhausted, on all levels. I have chronic health issues and pain, physical and mental, including an active blood clot. My depression/anxiety has been exacerbated and there are some dark times. My fur babies are my world, truly my kids in this life, and I'll continue doing what I can for them. I feel at times it's not enough -- but I have to push away those thoughts and repeat to myself I'm doing the best I can -- as I'm sure you are.
In the beginning, when I also had issues with trying to poke her ears, I had asked my vet and a tech about the feet. They both (separately) said it is more painful than their ears, as there are many more nerve ending in their foot pads -- and very few in the ear tips. You know how our fingertips can be sore with one little poke -- but then each time we're doing things, grasping stuff, etc., we continue to feel that. That's also what goes on with the kitties and their feet, they will have to keep putting pressure on those points, versus the ears. I was concerned about potential bacteria entry points with the feet, when they step into the litter box, for example. But the bottom line is, you have to find a way that you can personally handle, because no matter how much we don't like to do the checks, it is important for them. You will do it!

Here's my email address, you are always welcome to write.
write2bhappy@yahoo.com. I might be a little slow to respond, but I will always answer! Once the semester is over, that will help my perception of time!