RG & Mali (GA)
Member Since 2013
I have been trying to get this post in for a while now and every time I sit down to do it I break down again.
We could tell Mali was getting in more and more pain as she would walk a shorter distance each time all the while meowing until she would just lay down on her side and rest. After we went to bed last night she started the squall she has been doing last few nights so we put her up the bed with us to comfort her and I eventually went to sleep and DW kept vigil trying to comfort her and keeping her water bowl by the bed so she could get over it and wet her bib like she has been doing for a while now. DW drifted off around 3am and I heard Mali squall around 4 or so and finally got up with her a little before 5. I was going to start blending her food and get her fluids ready for after her shot at 6:30. I let her out as we usually do at about 5 so she can go and get over her water bowl outside. Lately she has been staying there hovering over her bowl wetting her bib and chin and drinking a little. Last night she was out with me while a grilled and she would squall and walk slowly around the pool deck and sometimes stop to look at the water and then she would come back and go in, then back out searching for something to make her feel better.
After I let her out this morning, I came back to send a few posts and was in here about 30 mins or so. I always turn the outside lights on for Mali and did this morning. I went out to check on her and could not find her, but sometimes although not so much lately, she will go out in the yard behind the pool in the palms and shrubbery. I got my flashlight and looked for her for about 15 minutes going back in the house but knowing she wasn't in there b/c I always pull the door to just so the a/c doesn't leak out, but she can alway pull it open to come back in. The door was not open when I went out to look for her so I knew she was still outside. I finally wake up DW and she comes out with her flashlite and we look and look and cannot find Mali.
Now Mali has done this routine hundreds of time....going out, never venturing off out of the fenced yard. I taught her that many years ago.
There is one little opening between the wrought iron gate and fence going out to the front that is possible for her to squeeze through but she has been in so much pain and that is a pretty good distance that it is almost inconceivable that she squeezed through that opening...
Yet after about 3 hours of searching the yard, under all landscaping many times, going outside to search the small wooded area behind the house and the street, we have not found Mali. I can't tell you how many times we have gone over the same area thinking we just missed her and she's laying down under something.
We are convinced that as she grew weaker and closer to her time, that she must have gotten out through that small opening to go off and lay down to find her way to the bridge. I've considered predators but the only possible one where we are would be a big coon, but there is no evidence anywhere of that happening in the yard or outside the yard.
We knew Mali was very sick, but were not prepared for her to leave us this way...I am a big, strong grown man and I have cried my eyes out this morning wondering what the hell happened to our little Mali. DW and I got in the pool together and had a good cry and I know that will continue for a while as I put up all Mali's stuff. I lost it again when I came in to do this post and among all the vet bills, lab reports, copies of posts from you all and Mali's picture on the top right corner of her latest lab report.
I am old enough as many of you are to have lost loved ones(beans and furryguys) in the past and I don't have to tell you how it hurts. I just hope we can find some sign of what happened to her...it would make it a little easier to handle, I think. I'm not lighting the candle in this post....just my way of being in denial, I guess.
I want to thank all of you that have put your hearts and souls into helping Mali with her sickness and I know she is up there at the rainbow bridge feeling much better now.
Special thanks to Marje and Dyana who have furnished so much of their time and effort to Mali's cause.
Love to all of you
Robert
We could tell Mali was getting in more and more pain as she would walk a shorter distance each time all the while meowing until she would just lay down on her side and rest. After we went to bed last night she started the squall she has been doing last few nights so we put her up the bed with us to comfort her and I eventually went to sleep and DW kept vigil trying to comfort her and keeping her water bowl by the bed so she could get over it and wet her bib like she has been doing for a while now. DW drifted off around 3am and I heard Mali squall around 4 or so and finally got up with her a little before 5. I was going to start blending her food and get her fluids ready for after her shot at 6:30. I let her out as we usually do at about 5 so she can go and get over her water bowl outside. Lately she has been staying there hovering over her bowl wetting her bib and chin and drinking a little. Last night she was out with me while a grilled and she would squall and walk slowly around the pool deck and sometimes stop to look at the water and then she would come back and go in, then back out searching for something to make her feel better.
After I let her out this morning, I came back to send a few posts and was in here about 30 mins or so. I always turn the outside lights on for Mali and did this morning. I went out to check on her and could not find her, but sometimes although not so much lately, she will go out in the yard behind the pool in the palms and shrubbery. I got my flashlight and looked for her for about 15 minutes going back in the house but knowing she wasn't in there b/c I always pull the door to just so the a/c doesn't leak out, but she can alway pull it open to come back in. The door was not open when I went out to look for her so I knew she was still outside. I finally wake up DW and she comes out with her flashlite and we look and look and cannot find Mali.
Now Mali has done this routine hundreds of time....going out, never venturing off out of the fenced yard. I taught her that many years ago.
There is one little opening between the wrought iron gate and fence going out to the front that is possible for her to squeeze through but she has been in so much pain and that is a pretty good distance that it is almost inconceivable that she squeezed through that opening...
Yet after about 3 hours of searching the yard, under all landscaping many times, going outside to search the small wooded area behind the house and the street, we have not found Mali. I can't tell you how many times we have gone over the same area thinking we just missed her and she's laying down under something.
We are convinced that as she grew weaker and closer to her time, that she must have gotten out through that small opening to go off and lay down to find her way to the bridge. I've considered predators but the only possible one where we are would be a big coon, but there is no evidence anywhere of that happening in the yard or outside the yard.
We knew Mali was very sick, but were not prepared for her to leave us this way...I am a big, strong grown man and I have cried my eyes out this morning wondering what the hell happened to our little Mali. DW and I got in the pool together and had a good cry and I know that will continue for a while as I put up all Mali's stuff. I lost it again when I came in to do this post and among all the vet bills, lab reports, copies of posts from you all and Mali's picture on the top right corner of her latest lab report.
I am old enough as many of you are to have lost loved ones(beans and furryguys) in the past and I don't have to tell you how it hurts. I just hope we can find some sign of what happened to her...it would make it a little easier to handle, I think. I'm not lighting the candle in this post....just my way of being in denial, I guess.
I want to thank all of you that have put your hearts and souls into helping Mali with her sickness and I know she is up there at the rainbow bridge feeling much better now.
Special thanks to Marje and Dyana who have furnished so much of their time and effort to Mali's cause.
Love to all of you
Robert
