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I'm sorry I've not been here for a little while. As many older members know, my health's not great at the best of times and I needed to devote what energy I had to caring for my own furchild.

It is with a leaden heart that I write to tell you that my darling Lúnasa transitioned from this realm on Thursday.

Not a sugar, Lúnasa, aka The Noodle, reached stage III CKD with quite severe anaemia (secondary to a UTI) and moderate hypertension (heading for severe) in early July 2020, shortly before her 14th birthday. Prognosis for her survival was guarded at that time, maybe a few months.

Thankfully, the Noodle responded well to her treatment and became an absolutely stellar little patient, which was a blessing for her as her regimen didn't stress her out and a huge relief for me because I had feared her obscenely high level of tortitude might mean she wouldn't allow me to help her.

My Little Miss Milky Paw let me check her blood pressure every day, and got to the stage where she would let me pill 2-3 separate meds in each sitting (gobsmacking her mama in the process, and another relief because she didn't get on well with gelcaps). She accepted all her supplements and, the keystone of all, she readily took all the oral fluids she needed to keep her little kidneys well perfused and toxins flushed from her system. (Keeping up fluid levels can be a huge issue for UK-based CKD cats where veterinary support for home administration of sub-q fluids is quite limited. Thank the kitty gods my little Noodler loved her dilute cat soup.)

We celebrated Lúnasa's 15th birthday in early August. (((Lúnasa)))

My little trooper had a dental earlier in the year where several teeth needed extraction. Following the procedure, her jaw had to be wired for a while but she sailed through it all like an absolute champion. I am so proud of her!!! Right the way through, her kidney function remained stable and her anaemia markers showed gradual improvement. Indeed, her November blood test results were really good, showing a significant increase in HCT and haemoglobin levels plus a little improvement in her creatinine levels.

Unfortunately one of the remaining teeth had no match to bite down on, her gum became inflamed and she developed a benign growth that made it a bit uncomfy for her to eat so a fortnight ago our vet removed the offending tooth.

Lúnasa was holding up well on the CKD front but a silent time bomb was lurking inside her little body. In early 2017 she developed hypertrophic cardiomyopathy secondary to hyperthyroidism. Although the hyper-T was cured through radioiodine treatment the thickening of the heart wall did not subsequently reduce.

While Lúnasa was symptom-free in spite of the HCM with a low resting respiratory rate and resting heart rate in quite an acceptable range, she had been quietly tipping over into congestive heart failure. The recent anaesthetic procedure proved too much for her and she developed a pleural effusion late last week.

The vet performed a thoracentesis to drain the fluids and put her on a low dose of furosemide (diuretic). She was more comfortable over the weekend and getting food on board, but by Tuesday she again became reluctant to eat.

In order to enable me to make a fully-informed decision the vet ran a blood biochemistry panel. The results were OK so we took the chance of increasing the diuretic dose but to no avail. While Lúnasa was comfortable for a little while, as soon as she would eat or drink anything the discomfort would return until it went down a bit. The fluids were building back up around her lungs. Her emotional heart was as strong as ever but its physical counterpart was not...

I am beyond grateful to so many members here and to Helen, the author of Tanya's Site, for all the knowledge you've shared, and the support you've given to me over many, many years. Because of that, my little Noodle lived well and happily in spite of her health issues, and only in the last few days did her quality of life diminish. My darling girl...

I found Lúnasa when she, a five-week-old kitten, had somehow become separated from her mother and was sat catatonic with fear on a shop windowsill. On Thursday afternoon, fifteen years and two months later, with our vet's help my cheeky mare, my nutjob, my floozy, my darling gorgeous girl slipped gently and peacefully into her shiny new wings, and a chunk of her mama's heart was torn to shreds.

I love you Noodle, I always will. My little singing cat...

((((((((Noodle))))))))



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It is with a leaden heart that I write to tell you that my darling Lúnasa transitioned from this realm on Thursday.
Oh... Dearest Mogs, I am so very sorry to hear your sad news. :(
My heart truly goes out to you.

Your tribute to Lunasa is profoundly moving to read... What a wonderful girl she was. And what a great 'Mum' she's had. The two of you have had quite a journey together. And what you have shared can never be taken away.

I am so sad that she has crossed over. But perhaps your darling Saoirse will greet her on the other side...

Sending you huge hugs, dear Mogs. And I wish I could hug you in person.
Much love to you, and to 'Lunasa in spirit'...

Eliz xxx
 
I'm absolutely reeling. I feel so lost!

No litter box to clean. No blood pressure measurement to take. No night meds to administer, no wonder soup to mix up, no feed to set out.

No chin to scritch. No little velvety nose to kiss.

No warm little creatúir contentedly stretched out on top of her mama in the bed, waiting to accompany her along the road to the Land of Nod.

No Noodle.

No cat. No cat!!!

No hint of colour. No vestige of joy...


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Oh Mogs. We've missed you so. I am so very sorry for the loss of your Noodle. I can't begin to imagine the enormous hole you feel in your heart. You have all of my sympathy. :bighug::bighug::bighug:

Fly free, sweet kitty. cat_wings>o
 
(((Mogs))) This is so not why I wanted to see you post again. I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet Noodle. :bighug::bighug: Balancing heart and kidneys is a herculean task. Take care of yourself, you've been superwoman caregiver and it will take some time to recover.
 
Oh, Mogs.... I am so sorry you lost your beautiful, unique, silly little Noodle! Such a hole they leave in our lives, it seems impossible to fill when they go.

Take good care of yourself. Lúnasa was tenacious and lucky enough to find you as a terrified and lost five-week-old kitten, she won't be leaving your heart any time soon. Grieve, and remember her as you pass all her favorite places. Fifteen years of love creates a lot of beautiful memories, may you find some comfort in them even as your heart is breaking.


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Oh Mogs, dear Mogs. I can’t put the right words together but I am feeling your profound grief and wanting to wrap you in a big but gentle hug. Why don’t our little ones live for ever…? Maybe they do, just in a different way to our understanding now. My one wish is that we will all be reunited one day with our lost loved ones…

Please take care of yourself snd know you are among the best of friends here…
 
Oh Mogs :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug: many, many hugs. Thank you for sharing your love and care of Lúnasa. I've been thinking of you and wish you much peace during this season ❤️
 
Big hugs Mogs. I actually do know how you feel right now, I have a huge problem with letting go. I remember fondly all the warmth and love but it always comes with a cost doesn't it? I've never regretted giving and the pain it brings but as the years go by and the cost builds up it's taken a toll on me. I'll soon be 65 and if I were lucky enough to adopt another Leroy who made it to 23 I need to think "can I do this when I'm 88 years old". I cannot imagine no cats in the home but the emotional investment and my PTSD have set limits on how much I can give. You have had a big impact on me and so many other members and all I have for you is a digital hug, it just doesn't seem right. I hope to hear from you again but remember you're not indebted to anyone, you've given more than your share.
Recovery takes time, please take care of yourself and know that you are not alone. :bighug:
 
Dear sweet Mogs,
I so deeply saddened to hear of the loss of your Noodle. I was trying to find you when My Dolly girl crossed the Rainbow Bridge on Halloween. I tried to send you my forever gratitude for all of the help and support you gave us a year ago. Now you are suffering this tremendous loss and I wish I had known sooner. I understand your pain and emptiness. Noodle has joined Dolly to fly free of pain and illness. My heart breaks with you. You were such an important part of my diabetic journey with Dolly. You gave so much of yourself. May you find peace in time. I’m wrapping my arms around you with hugs. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Fly free sweet Noodlecat_wings>o
 
Oh my. I only saw this today. I set it aside to process through what you wrote for a while. What a special beautiful girl you had. I have been through the HCM, CKD, pleural effusion experience and I understand. It brought back sad memories. I am more than sorry about your beautiful Noodle. She was a real trooper. She was beloved. I am so very very sorry.
 
Mogs, I’m so sorry to see this (sorry I didn’t post sooner). I hope your heart is healing a bit and that your health is the best possible for you.

There’s no easy way to let them go, just “better” and “worse” ways. I understand your love of The Noodle and my thoughts (and heart) are with you. They trust us to do right by them, and you did what needed to be done so she didn’t suffer, despite the angst it caused you. That’s love, my friend.

I hope you’re up to coming back around soon. We miss you around here. :bighug:
 
I'm absolutely reeling. I feel so lost!

No litter box to clean. No blood pressure measurement to take. No night meds to administer, no wonder soup to mix up, no feed to set out.

No chin to scritch. No little velvety nose to kiss.

No warm little creatúir contentedly stretched out on top of her mama in the bed, waiting to accompany her along the road to the Land of Nod.

No Noodle.

No cat. No cat!!!

No hint of colour. No vestige of joy...


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Hello, Mogs. I haven’t been here in ages and just found your post. I’m so sorry for your loss of Noodle. Just want you to know that I care and that you still cross my mind, my friend. Thinking of you and hoping you’re okay. Sending hugs.
 
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