To every kind person who has replied. Feel my little kitty is headed home. She has become very quiet. Not eating or drinking.
No pooping or peeing. Won't let me touch her. She was just barely interested in her favorite toy. She can walk, but very slowly.
Hunches over the water bowl. She doesn't behave like she is in pain but she is purring almost constantly and LOUDLY so realize that
it *could* be pain or she may be trying to calm herself.
Her history...run terribly high blood sugars for six months now, daily BS >300. A 250 thereabouts once a week or so. Have tried every insulin
available, but PZI gave her the best "control", if >300 can be called control. Nothing else brought her <400 even at max. doses for her weight. Her urine output has been massive in the last six months, specific gravity always very low. As a nurse knew that those high glucose levels were devastating her kidneys, and other organs. Vet tried valiantly to bring under control, but without even doing an ultrasound said he was certain it was chronic pancreatitis, insulinoma, hepatic encephalopathy, or cancer somewhere in the gut.
Carl, you asked about the possibility of insulin overdose all along...since we took her blood sugar daily and with her all day long, very much doubt it.
Every insulin we tried had little effect even at max doses for her weight. She had insulin resistance beyond anything our vet has seen. I continued taking her blood sugars and giving PZI on the faint hope that something in her little body would change. On the day she became comatose, her blood sugar was 320 four hours previously. Again that 320 blood sugar was her normal and no signs of hypoglycemia in the days and weeks preceeding. Was hoping that it was an outrageous anomaly, but when it happened 2 days later knew something bad was in process. Vet's prognosis was poor. Of course I stopped insulin altogether in the last two weeks with her waning appetite.
She's not eating today- maybe 2 tsps yesterday. Tried to get her BS a few hours ago- she screamed, never does that. Tried 3 times with no success. I'm a pediatric nurse and have a perfect success rate getting blood, and take it as another sign she's dehydrated and circulatory system shutting down.
So she's sitting in her condo, eyes half shut, purring LOUDLY (which scares me- doesn't act like she's in pain but never know!)
I could bring her in to vet, get labs, ultrasound, rehydration, etc, but maybe at the point where it's enough for her. She's devastated every time we go in, and particularly the last couple weeks. It's at that awful stage where you start to beat on yourself for all the things you may have missed in the past. And now beating myself for indecision about her future course. I vacillate from moment to moment.
My last cat died of CRF at age 20 and I kept her alive and sadly suffering way too long. Want to let little "White Cat" be with us until she is no longer comfortable. Thinking it won't be long. Unfortunately we are having houseguests, little 1 yr and 3 yr grandkids and their parents tomorrow. Parents aren't cat people and won't understand my hovering around little White Cat. Very awkward, but the way it is. I won't let her suffer, but want to keep her with us as long as we can. So hard to evaluate as you all know!
Thanks for listening everyone. Deeply appreciate your words of wisdom, caring and prayers. Will write again. Love to you all. Nancy