Could someone please help me?

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Sharon14 said:
Oh Shawna I’m so very sorry :bighug: You made the most difficult, and most loving decision for your sweet Teddy. He is now free of pain and while I know it seems impossible right now, I pray that you will find comfort knowing that you did what was best for him even though it caused you so much pain. :bighug:

Fly Free Sweet Teddy, Land Softly, You are so Loved:rb_icon:
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Thanks Sharon, I hope and I think that it was the right thing, even though I want him back so bad. But I had to remind myself it wasn’t about me and I had to do it for him. I just hope he is ok with that decision. I mean I know he didn’t want to be in pain, but honestly I don’t know where he is now. I believe in God but I don’t know anything else. And I just hope my teddy is ok right now and I hope he is glad I made that decision because I kept thinking who am I to decide and I didn’t know what to do.
Thanks again for your kindness and understanding xoxoxoxox
 
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Carol & Murphy said:
Shawna, I am just reading through this thread now, in tears for you and Teddy. I lost my first kitty 20 years ago and I still remember it well. But I didn't have a choice because his body didn't' work any longer, and poor Teddy being in so much pain, he is released from that now. I am so sorry, I know it hurts so unbearably much. Wishing you strength and peace in the coming days, weeks, and months. :bighug::bighug:
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Thanks. I’m sorry about your cat, Ted’s didn’t either, well he couldn’t move at all. Ted started with one paw starting to bend in earlier in the year and I watched both his front legs deteriorate until he would limp, and then eventually near the end he couldn’t even move himself. He could move all his legs but he couldn’t stand or walk. The vet said it was neurological. It’s hard to understand but I do understand.
xoxox
 
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shawna said:
Thanks for your sweet message. Means a lot to me. To be honest I’m not ok. This has been the worst day of my life. He was put to sleep around 11am and I was kissing his cheek as he left. I didn’t realize how fast it all happens. I cried so bad, but the moment she gave him the medicine I was able to be calm and just tell him I love him and smooch his forehead. I can’t believe I made it through that. I honestly didn’t think I could.
After I walked out of the vet and got in my car, something made me run back in and ask to quick see him one more time. I kissed him and said bye again.

I didn’t sleep at all last night. I cried all night petting him, kissing him, smelling him and talking to him. I just kept smelling his fur to try to remember him. And this morning the waiting for the time to go was heart wrenching.

And now I can’t bear the thought that he’s gone. I want to be with him so bad. I’ve lived alone with him for almost 15 years, he was my best friend.
I won’t ever be able to pet him again or anything. I need him back. He’s just suppose to be here. And while I do believe in God and heaven I’m still feel scared of where is he. I just wish I could always be with him.
Sorry to ramble, I just haven’t stopped crying in days. And the lack of sleep from the past week is starting to wear on me. And the crying comes in bad waves and it’s really bad.

One more thing, I realized last night when I stayed up all night that he would moan and do little cries in his sleep....and he couldn’t move....I realized he really is hurting even on three medicines and the vet said he won’t get any better and my heart knew he won’t get better. And I know if I want to be good to him I had to do it this morning whether I wanted to or not. And I didn’t want to chance waiting just for my sake and then him having to go in an emergency state or having something happen at night or something. So I at least know I don’t have regrets. I don’t think I do. I hope I did the right thing for him.

I understand life works this way. But I need my teddy here with me.
You know last night he licked me off and on throughout the night on my hand and even on my face! He was purring which he barely does. We cuddled all night, well with a few growls here and there. And I just knew at that moment he knew I’ve always loved him and I knew I had to do this for his sake.

I just want more than anything for him to be back. And he’ll never be back.

xoxoxoxo
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I know it hurts sooo bad. Heartache is real! I’m sorry but you did the very best for him & he is happily playing again. You will reunite in heaven my dear! (Hugs) x1000000000
His kisses told you That he loves you & knows how upset you are. He knows how much you loved him! Kitties know! I truly believe he is thanking you & running & jumping with new furry friends. I may be a nut but when I had to put my 17 yr old Lizzie down, I asked my mom in heaven to please look after her. I believe I am proud of you doing the right thing & no regrets!
Xoxoxo. In time it gets easier to bear... god bless you angel
 
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Becky & Baby Girl Kitty said:
I know it hurts sooo bad. Heartache is real! I’m sorry but you did the very best for him & he is happily playing again. You will reunite in heaven my dear! (Hugs) x1000000000
His kisses told you That he loves you & knows how upset you are. He knows how much you loved him! Kitties know! I truly believe he is thanking you & running & jumping with new furry friends. I may be a nut but when I had to put my 17 yr old Lizzie down, I asked my mom in heaven to please look after her. I believe I am proud of you doing the right thing & no regrets!
Xoxoxo. In time it gets easier to bear... god bless you angel
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Thank you...it’s good to read you think I did the right thing. I am glad I was with him when they put him to sleep. I kissed him and told him I loved him.
They had to tranquilize him before they could put the catheter in because teddy has always been a difficult patient in his older years. I hope that just calmed him before they put him to sleep. I couldn’t tell because he was zoned out when they brought him back to me before they did it. His eyes were still open. And after she injected him he looked the same. I might call the vet to thank her tomorrow and also just to ask, just want to know.
I hope the pain does get easier in time. And I hope I can see him again someday.
Thanks for your kindness, xoxoxoxoxoxo God bless you too!
 
Shawna- I used to live in East/South East Asia and came to know many Buddhist and Hindu beliefs. Some believe that we go through our many reincarnated lives with the same souls but have different relationships with them in different lives. For instance, in this life, Teddy was your beloved cat, but in your next reincarnation, he may be your child or parent. I have found this concept comforting - I hope you do as well :bighug::bighug:
 
Carol & Murphy said:
Shawna- I used to live in East/South East Asia and came to know many Buddhist and Hindu beliefs. Some believe that we go through our many reincarnated lives with the same souls but have different relationships with them in different lives. For instance, in this life, Teddy was your beloved cat, but in your next reincarnation, he may be your child or parent. I have found this concept comforting - I hope you do as well :bighug::bighug:
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Aw thanks for sharing with me. Thats interesting. Do they believe in heaven too?
 
shawna said:
Oh my heart is sad for you about what happened with the coyotes, that’s a hard thing to carry. It wasn’t your fault and I wish so bad you didn’t have to go through that....I’m so sorry, Hugs xoxoxoxoxox

Ted has been my only pet. I’ve had him the entire time I’ve lived here in Florida and it’s just such an odd feeling that isn’t here this morning. A part of me doesn’t even understand even though I do understand.
Yes teddy would never usually lick my face. And all last night he would rest and then off and on lick my hand and face. Cat licks hurt on the face! Smile! But i didn’t even care. It was the sweetest thing and it made me feel like he loved me so much. It was sweet and I’ll never forget it. So heartbreaking but I’m glad to have that to remember.

Thanks for your kindness and understanding. xoxoxox :)
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One night, Pogo licked the side of my nose so much, it began to bleed. I should have known then that he was saying goodbye.
 
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