Karrie and Maverick
Member Since 2010
I debated about posting this. I know everyone is different about loss though and about when they would be ready and you guys have been there for Maverick and I.
My friend and I are going to the shelter tomorrow. I met her there today to drop of an SUVs worth of stuff for their spring/summer garage sales. I got a tour while I was there (she is on their board of directors). The shelter was impressive. Great big rooms/pens with multiple cats that get along - tons of space. A TLC room for cats with needs (where the itty bitty mini Maverick was - Willie was his name) And another room with cats up for adoption ready to go.
Willie is a tiny grey maine coon and a little love bug and rail thin. And when he rolled over, he kept rolling - very strange. Something was wrong with him. When he stood up it looked like what I've seen as neuropathy. They don't test BG and they have to bring cats or their urine to the vet for testing. They said he's too young to have diabetes and that he's dealing with a urinary tract infection (coffee coloured urine). He's less than a year old. My dog (13 with CHF) cannot deal with a kitten like him - it wouldn't be fair to her. But he pulled at my heart BIG time.
I was talking with them about Willie and testing for diabetes etc. I let her know I was keeping my heart open for a talker - was waiting for one to talk to me. And she was like, a talker huh - did I consider Nickle? And she pulls up her picture. She wasn't there today she was getting spayed. Guess she is on the shy side for cuddles (not a lap kitty) but talkative. After soul searching and emotions running high today and tonight, I've decided to go meet Nickle tomorrow. Here is a link to her tiny bio: http://www.lanarkanimals.ca/cats1.asp?page=6
Even with the tv going and 3 fish tanks, the house is so quiet and its so lonely without him here. The quiet is hard to get used to even after accepting losing Maverick. I knew after the physical pain of his loss had passed, that I would have my heart open again. I am not looking to replace Maverick - there is no replacing my soulmate kitty. I will still be grieving his loss - its been less than two weeks. I will be grieving him a lot longer - its a process not a race. I've been staying busy. Organizing the house, reading (haven't read a novel in three years or more), and I joined the gym before Maverick crossed and started going again a couple days ago.
If there isn't that energy that I expect to feel then its not the right time or cat, I'm going to wait until there is. If anything, they'll have test strips and dip sticks. Guess we'll see what tomorrow has in store. May or may not have a kitty. My emotions are high - my heart is going back and forth. I think you guys can understand its not an easy decision. I don't want Maverick to think I'm moving on without him, even seeing a cat other than Maverick in the house will have heart tugs and emotions, whether I'm trying to circumvent the grieving process, whether my dog will adjust okay or if it will be too much for her (working out a plan to minimize an impact on her), etc.
I hope everyone is okay with this condo rental - maybe in place of Maverick's until tomorrow? I wanted to share so it wasn't a surprise tomorrow if I do have a connection.
Sending hugs.
My friend and I are going to the shelter tomorrow. I met her there today to drop of an SUVs worth of stuff for their spring/summer garage sales. I got a tour while I was there (she is on their board of directors). The shelter was impressive. Great big rooms/pens with multiple cats that get along - tons of space. A TLC room for cats with needs (where the itty bitty mini Maverick was - Willie was his name) And another room with cats up for adoption ready to go.
Willie is a tiny grey maine coon and a little love bug and rail thin. And when he rolled over, he kept rolling - very strange. Something was wrong with him. When he stood up it looked like what I've seen as neuropathy. They don't test BG and they have to bring cats or their urine to the vet for testing. They said he's too young to have diabetes and that he's dealing with a urinary tract infection (coffee coloured urine). He's less than a year old. My dog (13 with CHF) cannot deal with a kitten like him - it wouldn't be fair to her. But he pulled at my heart BIG time.
I was talking with them about Willie and testing for diabetes etc. I let her know I was keeping my heart open for a talker - was waiting for one to talk to me. And she was like, a talker huh - did I consider Nickle? And she pulls up her picture. She wasn't there today she was getting spayed. Guess she is on the shy side for cuddles (not a lap kitty) but talkative. After soul searching and emotions running high today and tonight, I've decided to go meet Nickle tomorrow. Here is a link to her tiny bio: http://www.lanarkanimals.ca/cats1.asp?page=6
Even with the tv going and 3 fish tanks, the house is so quiet and its so lonely without him here. The quiet is hard to get used to even after accepting losing Maverick. I knew after the physical pain of his loss had passed, that I would have my heart open again. I am not looking to replace Maverick - there is no replacing my soulmate kitty. I will still be grieving his loss - its been less than two weeks. I will be grieving him a lot longer - its a process not a race. I've been staying busy. Organizing the house, reading (haven't read a novel in three years or more), and I joined the gym before Maverick crossed and started going again a couple days ago.
If there isn't that energy that I expect to feel then its not the right time or cat, I'm going to wait until there is. If anything, they'll have test strips and dip sticks. Guess we'll see what tomorrow has in store. May or may not have a kitty. My emotions are high - my heart is going back and forth. I think you guys can understand its not an easy decision. I don't want Maverick to think I'm moving on without him, even seeing a cat other than Maverick in the house will have heart tugs and emotions, whether I'm trying to circumvent the grieving process, whether my dog will adjust okay or if it will be too much for her (working out a plan to minimize an impact on her), etc.
I hope everyone is okay with this condo rental - maybe in place of Maverick's until tomorrow? I wanted to share so it wasn't a surprise tomorrow if I do have a connection.
Sending hugs.