Jenn & Baxter
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100 days ago my life completely changed. My best friend Baxter was DX with FD. I am not going to candy coat anything....it hasn't been easy. It changed my life in many ways. I have made so many sacrifices, I missed spending the holidays with my family & passed up numerous invitations to different events. Not to mention lost lots of sleep. FD has been overwhleming, a emotional roller coaster and frustrating. Sometimes all three wrapped into one day.
When Baxter was DX on November 12, 2011, I was a emotional wreck & so overwhelmed. I cried for about one week & was scared to leave my house for about one month. I feared something would happen while I was away. Needles terrified me & I hated the sight of blood. I didn't have a choice I had to over come my fears in a matter of hours. Learning to give shots & home testing has helped me grow as a person. I spent countless hours reading & reading about FD. Trying to learn everything from diet & insulin to home testing. I wanted to learn anything & everything possible. It was so overwhelming, but I believe knowledge is powerful. I don't think I read that much while earning my college degrees. I still read & do reasearch because in my mind you can never know to much.
If I could sum FD into one word it would be frustrating. I would say this path Baxter & I are on has been frustrating since day one. I have chased almost every food on the market trying to find that "right one". Everyday is a new day with new BG numbers. Some days with fantastic green numbers, some days just recently red numbers. I never know what I am going to get. At times when I get the beep with the result, I truly want to pull my hair out. Baxter & I have been through so much in the last 3 months. Within the first 3 weeks of being on insulin, I had him off of insulin. The good feeling & excitement lasted only 3 weeks. Baxter numbers for some reason began to climber higher & higher to the point of needing insulin again. The pancreas teased me & my heart was broke again. Thinking back I won't change anything. I am so blessed to still have Baxter in my life. I have over come fears and learned so much. I still have hope one day I will be able to give Baxter the ultimate treatment....remission.
With all that said, I want to say thank you to everyone who have offered me ideas, comments, emotional support or encouraging words over the last 100 days. Without my FDMB friends I would be lost in the treatment for my best friend, Baxter.
Thank you my friends,
Jennifer & Baxter
When Baxter was DX on November 12, 2011, I was a emotional wreck & so overwhelmed. I cried for about one week & was scared to leave my house for about one month. I feared something would happen while I was away. Needles terrified me & I hated the sight of blood. I didn't have a choice I had to over come my fears in a matter of hours. Learning to give shots & home testing has helped me grow as a person. I spent countless hours reading & reading about FD. Trying to learn everything from diet & insulin to home testing. I wanted to learn anything & everything possible. It was so overwhelming, but I believe knowledge is powerful. I don't think I read that much while earning my college degrees. I still read & do reasearch because in my mind you can never know to much.
If I could sum FD into one word it would be frustrating. I would say this path Baxter & I are on has been frustrating since day one. I have chased almost every food on the market trying to find that "right one". Everyday is a new day with new BG numbers. Some days with fantastic green numbers, some days just recently red numbers. I never know what I am going to get. At times when I get the beep with the result, I truly want to pull my hair out. Baxter & I have been through so much in the last 3 months. Within the first 3 weeks of being on insulin, I had him off of insulin. The good feeling & excitement lasted only 3 weeks. Baxter numbers for some reason began to climber higher & higher to the point of needing insulin again. The pancreas teased me & my heart was broke again. Thinking back I won't change anything. I am so blessed to still have Baxter in my life. I have over come fears and learned so much. I still have hope one day I will be able to give Baxter the ultimate treatment....remission.
With all that said, I want to say thank you to everyone who have offered me ideas, comments, emotional support or encouraging words over the last 100 days. Without my FDMB friends I would be lost in the treatment for my best friend, Baxter.
Thank you my friends,
Jennifer & Baxter
