Barb and Tori
Member Since 2009
Yesterday's Post: viewtopic.php?f=9&t=25769
Hi everybody. Well I don't really know where to begin so I'll start with a WCR. Well she saw some blue again today which is good. I've been thinking of maybe upping her dose again but will hold off until her vet appointment tomorrow. There is a chance that the Pred will be discontinued. She's been eating well today. She's already downed a small can of Wellness, 4 heaping teaspoons of her raw chicken and 2 heaping teaspoons of the fishy combo. She hasn't had dinner yet. So I'm pleased. Right now she's cuddling with my grand daughter. They have become such good friends.
Doug called today. The oncologist finally got back to him. The news isn't really very good. She said that because Tori never really went into remission with the protocol she was on that we should now give her a rescue drug CCNU (Lomustine) or she still feels that radiation would be much more effective. As I've mentioned before radiation isn't really a viable option for us. It would mean she would have to go down to Calgary for 4-6 weeks for treatment which would be 3 times a week. Because of my work schedule she would have to board most of the time. I only get 2 weekends off a month. That would mean that the staff would be in charge of her diabetes. DOug and I both have a lot of reservations as how that would go down. She would be away from me for a at least a week at a time. Also there is the cost. It would be $8000 for the radiation and then of course the boarding costs. All in all we both feel that it just isn't right for us. I couldn't bear the thought of Tori spending what may be the majority of the rest of her life in a cage with just strangers being around her.
So we are opting for the CCNU. The upside to this drug is that it is oral and at least at first we would be giving it every 6 weeks. The main side effect of this drug is immunosupression . There are few GI side effects. However the question is of course will it work. The only way to know is to try it. So that's what we're going to do. I'll be taking Tori in tomorrow afternoon. She'll have her CBC checked as usual and then receive the med.
I don't know guys. I'm just so depressed about all this. I just keep thinking that I'm going to loose her and I can't bear it. I'm been fighting back tears all afternoon and was so grateful when Tori and Ayanna both fell asleep so I could indulge myself in a darn good cry. I know it's not good for Tori to see me upset it only serves to stress her out. I keep thinking we have fought so hard and that now matter what I do we're going to loose anyway. I guess I just need someone to hold me while I cry and then say OK that's enough. Get off your butt and fight for your baby. Tomorrow I'm going to ask Doug how long he thinks she'll have if this drug doesn't work.
My family have not been supportive to say the least. My daughter doesn't give a hoot at all and Daniel well all he said was "I'm sorry you're sad but you knew the odds were stacked against her.' All I really wanted was a hug and a shoulder to cry on.
I'm sorry I've been ranting and rambling here. Please pray for my baby tomorrow.
Kiss all your babies for me. They all are so very, very precious.
Hi everybody. Well I don't really know where to begin so I'll start with a WCR. Well she saw some blue again today which is good. I've been thinking of maybe upping her dose again but will hold off until her vet appointment tomorrow. There is a chance that the Pred will be discontinued. She's been eating well today. She's already downed a small can of Wellness, 4 heaping teaspoons of her raw chicken and 2 heaping teaspoons of the fishy combo. She hasn't had dinner yet. So I'm pleased. Right now she's cuddling with my grand daughter. They have become such good friends.
Doug called today. The oncologist finally got back to him. The news isn't really very good. She said that because Tori never really went into remission with the protocol she was on that we should now give her a rescue drug CCNU (Lomustine) or she still feels that radiation would be much more effective. As I've mentioned before radiation isn't really a viable option for us. It would mean she would have to go down to Calgary for 4-6 weeks for treatment which would be 3 times a week. Because of my work schedule she would have to board most of the time. I only get 2 weekends off a month. That would mean that the staff would be in charge of her diabetes. DOug and I both have a lot of reservations as how that would go down. She would be away from me for a at least a week at a time. Also there is the cost. It would be $8000 for the radiation and then of course the boarding costs. All in all we both feel that it just isn't right for us. I couldn't bear the thought of Tori spending what may be the majority of the rest of her life in a cage with just strangers being around her.
So we are opting for the CCNU. The upside to this drug is that it is oral and at least at first we would be giving it every 6 weeks. The main side effect of this drug is immunosupression . There are few GI side effects. However the question is of course will it work. The only way to know is to try it. So that's what we're going to do. I'll be taking Tori in tomorrow afternoon. She'll have her CBC checked as usual and then receive the med.
I don't know guys. I'm just so depressed about all this. I just keep thinking that I'm going to loose her and I can't bear it. I'm been fighting back tears all afternoon and was so grateful when Tori and Ayanna both fell asleep so I could indulge myself in a darn good cry. I know it's not good for Tori to see me upset it only serves to stress her out. I keep thinking we have fought so hard and that now matter what I do we're going to loose anyway. I guess I just need someone to hold me while I cry and then say OK that's enough. Get off your butt and fight for your baby. Tomorrow I'm going to ask Doug how long he thinks she'll have if this drug doesn't work.
My family have not been supportive to say the least. My daughter doesn't give a hoot at all and Daniel well all he said was "I'm sorry you're sad but you knew the odds were stacked against her.' All I really wanted was a hug and a shoulder to cry on.
I'm sorry I've been ranting and rambling here. Please pray for my baby tomorrow.
Kiss all your babies for me. They all are so very, very precious.
