knolet
Member Since 2012
Hi everyone,
Thank you all so much for the kind words, the love and support, and vines... It has meant a lot to me.
I have had a couple of weird things happen in the last couple of days. First, let me back up to Sunday morning before I took Zeus to cross the bridge (tears again). It was so quiet, Zeus didn't feel well, I had made the decision and we were just waiting. I needed some background noise, so I turned on Pandora radio on the iPad - 80's rock radio (I love 80's music, big hair bands, so many good memories). Anyway, I didn't have it on long, it was not comforting the way I thought it would be. I couldn't tell you what song was playing when I stopped it.
Monday night I opened the iPad, and up popped a picture of Eddie Money's album and the title song was "take me home tonight". I didn't have Pandora on, there wasn't any music playing, I had used my iPad between Sunday morning and Monday night, and nothing weird happened. I kept trying to analyze it, was this just a blip or was it Zeus? If it was... What did it mean? Was he not happy where he was, and he wanted to come home to me? I felt horrible. A friend told me that it meant the opposite, she said that he was telling me that he would always be with me. I hope so.
My TV is web enabled, and I often put Pandora radio on while I'm getting dinner ready for Smokey (and doing all Zeus' stuff before). So, I did that again last night. There, saved as one of my favorite channels, right on top of the list, was "take me home tonight" with that same album cover. I know that I did not do that, Eddie Money was never a favorite of mine so I wouldn't have searched for him or for that song... I didn't dislike him or the song, but It wasn't something that I would have searched for. I listened to the channel for a while, and the song played again. Still didn't know what to make of it... I asked Zeus to show me something else.
I asked Zeus to watch over Smokey because she was sad. I also asked him to ask her to eat since she hadn't been eating well, and to help her poo as she hadn't gone since Saturday. Less than a half hour later, she went poo - right on the kitchen floor. She went again later that night in the LB, hooray.
This morning, as usual, I woke up at Zeus' normal meds time, I went back to sleep and when I woke up again I felt little foot prints on the bed. It felt like Zeus was walking around my legs like he used to, and then jumping over my legs, and walking around again. It was so real that I thought it must be Smokey so I opened my eyes. She wasn't even in the bedroom so it wasn't her.
Smokey is not happy, she keeps looking for Zeus and meowing at me. She even lets me pick her up and cuddle her a bit. As for me, I've had good moments and not so good moments. Tonight I loaded the dishwasher and got the soap out from under the sink, that's where I kept the sharps container. I picked it up to dispose of it and broke down. Had to put it back under the sink. Too soon.
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. Tons of vines to all that need them.
Kathie
Thank you all so much for the kind words, the love and support, and vines... It has meant a lot to me.
I have had a couple of weird things happen in the last couple of days. First, let me back up to Sunday morning before I took Zeus to cross the bridge (tears again). It was so quiet, Zeus didn't feel well, I had made the decision and we were just waiting. I needed some background noise, so I turned on Pandora radio on the iPad - 80's rock radio (I love 80's music, big hair bands, so many good memories). Anyway, I didn't have it on long, it was not comforting the way I thought it would be. I couldn't tell you what song was playing when I stopped it.
Monday night I opened the iPad, and up popped a picture of Eddie Money's album and the title song was "take me home tonight". I didn't have Pandora on, there wasn't any music playing, I had used my iPad between Sunday morning and Monday night, and nothing weird happened. I kept trying to analyze it, was this just a blip or was it Zeus? If it was... What did it mean? Was he not happy where he was, and he wanted to come home to me? I felt horrible. A friend told me that it meant the opposite, she said that he was telling me that he would always be with me. I hope so.
My TV is web enabled, and I often put Pandora radio on while I'm getting dinner ready for Smokey (and doing all Zeus' stuff before). So, I did that again last night. There, saved as one of my favorite channels, right on top of the list, was "take me home tonight" with that same album cover. I know that I did not do that, Eddie Money was never a favorite of mine so I wouldn't have searched for him or for that song... I didn't dislike him or the song, but It wasn't something that I would have searched for. I listened to the channel for a while, and the song played again. Still didn't know what to make of it... I asked Zeus to show me something else.
I asked Zeus to watch over Smokey because she was sad. I also asked him to ask her to eat since she hadn't been eating well, and to help her poo as she hadn't gone since Saturday. Less than a half hour later, she went poo - right on the kitchen floor. She went again later that night in the LB, hooray.
This morning, as usual, I woke up at Zeus' normal meds time, I went back to sleep and when I woke up again I felt little foot prints on the bed. It felt like Zeus was walking around my legs like he used to, and then jumping over my legs, and walking around again. It was so real that I thought it must be Smokey so I opened my eyes. She wasn't even in the bedroom so it wasn't her.
Smokey is not happy, she keeps looking for Zeus and meowing at me. She even lets me pick her up and cuddle her a bit. As for me, I've had good moments and not so good moments. Tonight I loaded the dishwasher and got the soap out from under the sink, that's where I kept the sharps container. I picked it up to dispose of it and broke down. Had to put it back under the sink. Too soon.
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. Tons of vines to all that need them.
Kathie
