carolynandlatte
Member Since 2009
yesterday:
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Well those amps tell a lot...lots of treats, ice cream, reduced shot, extra steroid (more than I meant to give), and pain.
latte and I had the best evening as possible. I sat with her and read every single post from yesterday. I gave her a few temptation treats, which she was able to pick up, after every 5-10 posts and some skritches. I then showed her some OTJ videos and a few Utube music videos from my phone (she actually watches...or pretends). She got some vanilla Hagan Daaz Ice cream, which she has not been allowed since her FD diagnosis. Before that, I would only ever get ice cream with vanilla in it, because she loved it so much. She liked to share. At one point she was meowing excessively. After trying numerous things (water, various foods), she settled with a piece of chicken the size of my thumb. She accumulated hours of chin and ear skritches thru yesterday.
I tried to lay down next to her for some cat naps, setting my alarm every 45min- 1.5hrs. She insisted on having my hand lay touching her, or again she would meow excessively. Eventually after missing an alarm and sleeping maybe 2-3hrs, I saw she turned herself back to the 12 oclock position. I dont know how she did it. I think she was hoping she could get to the LB. *sigh*
Sadly, I see no improvement. She cannot sit up still, exept for an occassional few seconds. Obviously she cannot stand. It was really hard to get up this a.m. and not have my girl jump up all happy, if even for a few minutes. Its hard to say if its the bupe or if she looks depressed. Could be a bit of both. She did eat a little chicken and some treats, 1/3 jar babyfood, as well as drank some milk/water mixture off a tsp before her shot. I got a few purrs out of her, but also a number of meows...like she wants to go somewhere and is frustrated. I have not seen her try and stand up since some time early last night. Im wondering if she has given up on that. She has also peed a few more times, and Im trying to figure out the best way to change what she is laying on. Mainly she is hitting a pee pad that I can pick up...but some excess urine has gone onto her bedding. Sometimes after eating she is licking her paws to clean, and occassionaly cleaning her face.
I gave her full dose of insulin, for obvious reasons. I hope she is able to come down into the 200-300 range. I know at least something will feel a little better if she does.
I guess all we have in store today is continuing to try and keep her comfortable, offer food and water every hour or so. I was really hoping for some improvement overnight. As you can guess, Im looking for every little sign, Im also becoming quite scared and trying to find some peace in my heart while spending almost literally every moment by her side (she meows excessively if Im gone more than a few minutes...like while Im typing this...because she wanted food - 1/4 jar baby food YA!).
Her regular vet is in today, so I have left a message for him to call so we can touch base and talk about her situation.
Below is more on the Animal Communicator, for those interested:
How is Latte doing/feeling...in general, but most specifically today?
She is in pain. She is having a hard time breathing (in general), almost like in a paper bag. Its hard to get clean air and enough oxygen. She likes how Im trying to keep the air more clean and cool - that has been helping. Her left, top molar is in pain. And her spine - from head to tail hurts very bad. Pain rated in human understanding around a 6 or 7 (she was due for more bupe).
Was her pain better earlier today?
Yes, earlier it was closer to a 3.
Did the Pain medication help?
Yes, she thinks so. But not so much at the moment (she was due for a shot of bupe).
What can I do to help her right now/today - in her pain?
She did not know. She couldnt think about it. She was hurting to much. She had no energy to think of the answer, it was to hard. She did say it was minimized by just sitting with it, and not getting all wrapped up in the pain. She has no expectations from moment to moment about the pain. Her current pain is not sustainable and she does not know if this is a setback or the end.
(we went back to this later and she thought *maybe* being brought to the LB, but was not sure...eating off a spoon...and maybe drinking off a spoon, possibly flavored water was good. At this point the only thing I had been able to get her to drink WAS flavored water - with milk).
What does she LIKE about being here?
She likes having me nearby. Less is more. she likes to be peaceful. She likes how Im keeping the air cooler - its a better thing. No big complaints.
What does she NOT like?
She does not like to be handled - picked up or held. Less is more (again). She does not like loud noises or bright lights. Very sensory sensitive.
IS there something wrong with her food? WHy is it so hard to get her to eat?
Nothing is wrong with the food. She likes it all. But she gets an upset tummy after eating a lot of times - not specific to any food. She likes when I bring it to her, but also wants it removed when she is done because the smell makes her feel sick. Latte was asked about her initiating laying next to the food (kibble, Im guessing?) and what I was suppose to do about it. Latte said move the food. :lol: :roll:
Why will she not eat her regular food off a spoon? Why only baby food?
She doesnt know, but she would try eating regular food 'for me'. :YMSIGH: She would like food offered maybe every 3-6hrs.
Is there anything I can be doing differently to help her with any of her ailments?
She didnt know. All of the pain and discomfort just seems to be one, not related to any specific disease or condition.
Why does she like to lay in certain spots (I didnt mention bathroom or piano, LOL)?
Because she just does.
Why, if she likes the cooler/less humid air does she like to lay in a room far away from the air?
Sometimes its too intense where the a/c is. She likes to just have the cooler air 'around' her, and know its there.
Will she be able to give me a sign when she is ready to go?
Latte did not answer initially. Supposably she asked a follow up question, wondering how she was suppose to know that her body was shutting down and was not going to wake up? (that made me sad - so innocent). I clarified my question to specify letting me know if I needed to put her to sleep. She said she thought it would be clear to me when she was dying. She mentioned again that she did not know if right now was that time. She said today (yesterday) was not, but she did not know what the days ahead would bring. Apparently, in a cat type of way, she said she was spiritually ready to die.
I asked her to tell Latte how much I love her.
She said Latte appreciates all the love I give and feels a special bond with me. The AC noted numerous times in the conversation it was obvious Latte felt very close to me.
I told her to let Latte know that when she was gone I would miss her so much, think of her every day, and probably be very sad...but I would be okay. I had her tell her how grateful I am to have her in my life.
Latte responded in a similar fashion as the above question, but also said she had not really thought about that...about dying and how I would feel ( :lol: --that made me chuckle).
*I was sitting next to Latte during this time. For the first time all day she became very vocal (could have been that I was on the phone), and rarely took her eyes off me.
*it was said many times that Latte's answers were somewhat foggy and a bit incoherent. At the end of the conversation when I brought up the medicines she was taking (bupe), she thought it was possible that had something to do with it.
*Most of what I was told I kind of knew already (likes/dislikes). I think the next time Latte is seen by a vet I will have them look at her front, left molar. If anything seems wrong with it, then I may get a little wigged out. For now, Im taking what comforts me. And letting the rest just sit.
*would like to add a special thanks to Amy's Winston for the opportunity to do this. I dont know if the timing was good or bad. I think it was meant to be, tho ((((((((amy)))))))
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=19311&p=191428#p191428
Well those amps tell a lot...lots of treats, ice cream, reduced shot, extra steroid (more than I meant to give), and pain.
latte and I had the best evening as possible. I sat with her and read every single post from yesterday. I gave her a few temptation treats, which she was able to pick up, after every 5-10 posts and some skritches. I then showed her some OTJ videos and a few Utube music videos from my phone (she actually watches...or pretends). She got some vanilla Hagan Daaz Ice cream, which she has not been allowed since her FD diagnosis. Before that, I would only ever get ice cream with vanilla in it, because she loved it so much. She liked to share. At one point she was meowing excessively. After trying numerous things (water, various foods), she settled with a piece of chicken the size of my thumb. She accumulated hours of chin and ear skritches thru yesterday.
I tried to lay down next to her for some cat naps, setting my alarm every 45min- 1.5hrs. She insisted on having my hand lay touching her, or again she would meow excessively. Eventually after missing an alarm and sleeping maybe 2-3hrs, I saw she turned herself back to the 12 oclock position. I dont know how she did it. I think she was hoping she could get to the LB. *sigh*
Sadly, I see no improvement. She cannot sit up still, exept for an occassional few seconds. Obviously she cannot stand. It was really hard to get up this a.m. and not have my girl jump up all happy, if even for a few minutes. Its hard to say if its the bupe or if she looks depressed. Could be a bit of both. She did eat a little chicken and some treats, 1/3 jar babyfood, as well as drank some milk/water mixture off a tsp before her shot. I got a few purrs out of her, but also a number of meows...like she wants to go somewhere and is frustrated. I have not seen her try and stand up since some time early last night. Im wondering if she has given up on that. She has also peed a few more times, and Im trying to figure out the best way to change what she is laying on. Mainly she is hitting a pee pad that I can pick up...but some excess urine has gone onto her bedding. Sometimes after eating she is licking her paws to clean, and occassionaly cleaning her face.
I gave her full dose of insulin, for obvious reasons. I hope she is able to come down into the 200-300 range. I know at least something will feel a little better if she does.
I guess all we have in store today is continuing to try and keep her comfortable, offer food and water every hour or so. I was really hoping for some improvement overnight. As you can guess, Im looking for every little sign, Im also becoming quite scared and trying to find some peace in my heart while spending almost literally every moment by her side (she meows excessively if Im gone more than a few minutes...like while Im typing this...because she wanted food - 1/4 jar baby food YA!).
Her regular vet is in today, so I have left a message for him to call so we can touch base and talk about her situation.
Below is more on the Animal Communicator, for those interested:
How is Latte doing/feeling...in general, but most specifically today?
She is in pain. She is having a hard time breathing (in general), almost like in a paper bag. Its hard to get clean air and enough oxygen. She likes how Im trying to keep the air more clean and cool - that has been helping. Her left, top molar is in pain. And her spine - from head to tail hurts very bad. Pain rated in human understanding around a 6 or 7 (she was due for more bupe).
Was her pain better earlier today?
Yes, earlier it was closer to a 3.
Did the Pain medication help?
Yes, she thinks so. But not so much at the moment (she was due for a shot of bupe).
What can I do to help her right now/today - in her pain?
She did not know. She couldnt think about it. She was hurting to much. She had no energy to think of the answer, it was to hard. She did say it was minimized by just sitting with it, and not getting all wrapped up in the pain. She has no expectations from moment to moment about the pain. Her current pain is not sustainable and she does not know if this is a setback or the end.
(we went back to this later and she thought *maybe* being brought to the LB, but was not sure...eating off a spoon...and maybe drinking off a spoon, possibly flavored water was good. At this point the only thing I had been able to get her to drink WAS flavored water - with milk).
What does she LIKE about being here?
She likes having me nearby. Less is more. she likes to be peaceful. She likes how Im keeping the air cooler - its a better thing. No big complaints.
What does she NOT like?
She does not like to be handled - picked up or held. Less is more (again). She does not like loud noises or bright lights. Very sensory sensitive.
IS there something wrong with her food? WHy is it so hard to get her to eat?
Nothing is wrong with the food. She likes it all. But she gets an upset tummy after eating a lot of times - not specific to any food. She likes when I bring it to her, but also wants it removed when she is done because the smell makes her feel sick. Latte was asked about her initiating laying next to the food (kibble, Im guessing?) and what I was suppose to do about it. Latte said move the food. :lol: :roll:
Why will she not eat her regular food off a spoon? Why only baby food?
She doesnt know, but she would try eating regular food 'for me'. :YMSIGH: She would like food offered maybe every 3-6hrs.
Is there anything I can be doing differently to help her with any of her ailments?
She didnt know. All of the pain and discomfort just seems to be one, not related to any specific disease or condition.
Why does she like to lay in certain spots (I didnt mention bathroom or piano, LOL)?
Because she just does.
Why, if she likes the cooler/less humid air does she like to lay in a room far away from the air?
Sometimes its too intense where the a/c is. She likes to just have the cooler air 'around' her, and know its there.
Will she be able to give me a sign when she is ready to go?
Latte did not answer initially. Supposably she asked a follow up question, wondering how she was suppose to know that her body was shutting down and was not going to wake up? (that made me sad - so innocent). I clarified my question to specify letting me know if I needed to put her to sleep. She said she thought it would be clear to me when she was dying. She mentioned again that she did not know if right now was that time. She said today (yesterday) was not, but she did not know what the days ahead would bring. Apparently, in a cat type of way, she said she was spiritually ready to die.
I asked her to tell Latte how much I love her.
She said Latte appreciates all the love I give and feels a special bond with me. The AC noted numerous times in the conversation it was obvious Latte felt very close to me.
I told her to let Latte know that when she was gone I would miss her so much, think of her every day, and probably be very sad...but I would be okay. I had her tell her how grateful I am to have her in my life.
Latte responded in a similar fashion as the above question, but also said she had not really thought about that...about dying and how I would feel ( :lol: --that made me chuckle).
*I was sitting next to Latte during this time. For the first time all day she became very vocal (could have been that I was on the phone), and rarely took her eyes off me.
*it was said many times that Latte's answers were somewhat foggy and a bit incoherent. At the end of the conversation when I brought up the medicines she was taking (bupe), she thought it was possible that had something to do with it.
*Most of what I was told I kind of knew already (likes/dislikes). I think the next time Latte is seen by a vet I will have them look at her front, left molar. If anything seems wrong with it, then I may get a little wigged out. For now, Im taking what comforts me. And letting the rest just sit.
*would like to add a special thanks to Amy's Winston for the opportunity to do this. I dont know if the timing was good or bad. I think it was meant to be, tho ((((((((amy)))))))
, and she knows that. 
