Hi Penelope
@Penelope and Mačka
I know what you mean about this feline diabetes wreaking havoc on one's mental health and on all other aspects of one's life. My partner and I have our own business and I don't think I could have done this if I had to report for work on time every morning or wasn't able to come home to check on Zorro whenever I needed/wanted to. (That said, I'm sure many diabetic cat parents on here are employed and they somehow make it work. Huge hats off to them.)
@Figaro's Liz 's story from her brother is a great analogy for us all to remember!
When I'm down and desperate my partner also often reminds me that, for Zorro, everything is actually better than it was before (ie. before we home tested, before we became more informed, etc.) It is just for us that everything feels and appears worse, and that is only because we are now more aware and informed, which leads to feeling overwhelmed at times. Think about it like this: You currently put a lot more thought into the choice of Macka's food, so he is eating better. You are home testing, which shows you how the insulin works in his little body so you can stay on top of things and eventually steer his diabetes in a state of being better regulated. You are spending more time with him and paying him more attention, which he loves. So for Macka, things are as good as they can currently be. However inside your head you are dealing with information overload, exhaustion, fear, what if, what if... All stuff that Macka knows nothing about and that doesn't worry him. When I picture how all my thoughts and fears are just my own and not Zorro's, it makes me feel better about his situation. I think we project a lot of our own feelings onto our kitties.
Yes, Zorro's blood glucose levels are all over the place, as you saw. It really brings me down at times, especially when I record a few consecutive high numbers.
Zorro was diagnosed in August 2017 and his diabetes was very badly managed for 18 months before I decided to become more informed. Our vet had recommended dry food to us so for 18 months that was all that I religiously bought and fed Zorro. I was also discouraged from home testing his bg. I'll send you the link to my introduction post soon then you'll see just how bad Zorro's start with diabetes was. I believe those first 18 months have a lot to do with the struggle I'm having now. You are in a much better position, home testing from the start, feeding better and starting off with Lantus insulin so I think you'll have it easier once you find the right starting dose.
Also note that I've only been following this board's TR protocol since June 26, so it's really just the bottom few entries of the SS that should be looked at. The fact that I've changed my dosing schedule and dose so often before starting this protocol is another factor that has slowed down progress, I think.
About how I feed: I hope I didn't give you wrong advice there so experienced members can comment to help me too. I have never really focused on having Zorro eat right before I dose him, for a few reasons: Zorro eats everything and getting him to eat his meal is never a problem so I'm not afraid that he won't eat after I've dosed him. I use Levemir insulin which has a slower onset (like Lantus) than say, Vetsulin, so Zorro always has a meal at least before onset of the insulin. I shoot at 7:30am and 7:30pm and I feed at 7:30am, 12:30pm, 5:30pm, then his evening meal that would normally give at 10:30pm I now divide between 9:30pm (+2) and 10:30pm (+3). Then another small meal at 2am or 3am.
I used to only feed Zorro FF Classic Salmon Feast which is on the lower end of the carb scale, I believe. I have used it a few times to bring his bg up successfully with only about a 1/2 a can so I don't think it can be fed limitlessly.
Hang in there, we'll get to a better place - hopefully soon!
