Crystal passed peacefully at 4.00 pm this afternoon, held in my arms, until she rested her head on my shoulders and went to sleep. I had time to love and stroke her before and she was at peace, I told her of all her extended LL&L family's messages of love and which kitties to look for at the Bridge to help her adjust to her new life. Our vet was very kind and I could see she was upset as well, she said she would have done the same thing so I have no regrets, only that we didn't have more time together. We are having her cremated and will get her ashes in about 2 weeks' time. I am so happy that we had some special time together this morning in the spring sunshine, she sat and took it all in as if she knew ........ it just doesn't seem real, there is a terrible hole in my heart that I don't think will ever heal. I've never seen John so upset but he couldn't face being there at the end, he said his goodbyes before we left.
Today I wore my beautiful crystal heart pendant, which Crystal was named after because it was the very first thing she reached out to as I held her close all those years ago when we found her as an abandoned three week old kitten. Every time I wear it I always think of Crystal, now it will be even more poignant.
I can't begin to thank you all for your messages, and especially the poems, they have been a great comfort to me. I intend to make a memory box for her in a few weeks, and will print off and keep all your kind words. The vet cut a lock of her fur for me so that will go in her special box too.
I never envisaged that we would get this far but it is all down to the invaluable advice and support of the wise acrokitty mums, my special "Team Crystal" who guided us through our journey. There are many other special friends we made along the way who listened, supported, cheered her on every time she had a small victory and rejoiced when she became FD regulated. Together we managed to give Crystal an extra 18 months, for which I am eternally grateful. But most of all I just want to thank each and every one of you for just loving Crystal as your own - she was a very special girl who fought bravely with never a murmur, always loving, always trusting to the very end.
I can no longer
See you with my eyes
Touch you with my hands
But I will feel you in my
heart
Forever