Yesterday’s Condo
Yesterday's recap:
326 - amps 13uL
277 - +1
311 - +11
308 - pmps (13ul & 1.5uR)
254 - +1
236 - +2
263 - +3
306 - +4
338 - today's amps 13uL
Now how sad it that! I thought I could sneak in a bit more R and get her down to a nice color to surf, but the Lantus decided it was not going along with the plan, and I think the Lantus never even showed up. I am hoping that it was the Lantus was crap since it was the last draw from this cart. There was a bit left in it, but nowhere near a single Shadoe dose.
And since the Lantus may have been crap- scrapping the bottom of the cart so to speak, and I could not stay up later to test more, I did not bother with some R at mid cycle. I have never gotten to the end of any cart; usually, it's past the 28 days or her numbers were slipping back up. Way back then, acro did not exist in my mind, so her numbers being stubborn meant try fresh juice.
No rush since Shadoe is happy, happy lately and was feeling fine last nite too.
So this morning, we cracked open a nice, fresh cart. I'll stay for a +1, but that's it till tonite.
Shadoe is getting quite pushy to get her shots, so I am feeling good to know she must feel better after her shots if she is getting up on the table beside my chair and meowing close enough to my right ear that I can feel her whiskers on my skin. So we tested and shot 5min early to shut her up. Seriously, she plunks down in her meatloaf, shot-accepting pose, and I know it's time. And it was not food or treats that she wanted because I had given her some pre-shoot chicken cubes of which she had just a few, and she did not go to the snack dispensing location after her shot! She must have been so happy to get her shot that she just stretched and jumped up onto the pillow on the sofa. She is now happily purring and waiting for her L buzz to come on.
I am not feeling as chatty as I once was, rather I find myself ever more focused on how Shadoe is doing and what can be done for her. I don't get around much to visit other condos lately, and there have been times I have stopped mid-post to tend to a complaining Shadoe. She has never been much of a talker, but she's getting better at it and I usually figure she doesn't talk at me for no reason.
I think that once you get to a certain dose, things change in the bean's brain and how the situation is seen and approached. Before, I would think whoa, 6u is so high! Now, sitting at 13u and intending to go to 14u tonite, I look back and think boy, it will be great if one day we can get down to a dose like 6u. Now, I look ahead and think that 20 or 25u are high doses. Everything is relative I suppose.
There's not much else to say right now; time to finish getting ready for work then catch a +1 before I head out the door. Maybe things will settle down soon, once we have a good plan in place, once the u/s is done, once we know how Shadoe is handling and utilizing R, once all of these and many other things get happening, I can think of a life for me again.
Sometimes, beans fall into a rabbithole and lose sight of themselves and their lives, I think.
Sometimes, beans need to be reminded that an unhappy and tensed up bean can't be good, because kitties know stuff and they sense the negative, making some efforts all for naught if the help and the tensions cancel each other out.
Sometimes, we beans need to step back and enjoy what is.
Be strong. Keep positive.
Yesterday's recap:
326 - amps 13uL
277 - +1
311 - +11
308 - pmps (13ul & 1.5uR)
254 - +1
236 - +2
263 - +3
306 - +4
338 - today's amps 13uL
Now how sad it that! I thought I could sneak in a bit more R and get her down to a nice color to surf, but the Lantus decided it was not going along with the plan, and I think the Lantus never even showed up. I am hoping that it was the Lantus was crap since it was the last draw from this cart. There was a bit left in it, but nowhere near a single Shadoe dose.
And since the Lantus may have been crap- scrapping the bottom of the cart so to speak, and I could not stay up later to test more, I did not bother with some R at mid cycle. I have never gotten to the end of any cart; usually, it's past the 28 days or her numbers were slipping back up. Way back then, acro did not exist in my mind, so her numbers being stubborn meant try fresh juice.
No rush since Shadoe is happy, happy lately and was feeling fine last nite too.
So this morning, we cracked open a nice, fresh cart. I'll stay for a +1, but that's it till tonite.
Shadoe is getting quite pushy to get her shots, so I am feeling good to know she must feel better after her shots if she is getting up on the table beside my chair and meowing close enough to my right ear that I can feel her whiskers on my skin. So we tested and shot 5min early to shut her up. Seriously, she plunks down in her meatloaf, shot-accepting pose, and I know it's time. And it was not food or treats that she wanted because I had given her some pre-shoot chicken cubes of which she had just a few, and she did not go to the snack dispensing location after her shot! She must have been so happy to get her shot that she just stretched and jumped up onto the pillow on the sofa. She is now happily purring and waiting for her L buzz to come on.
I am not feeling as chatty as I once was, rather I find myself ever more focused on how Shadoe is doing and what can be done for her. I don't get around much to visit other condos lately, and there have been times I have stopped mid-post to tend to a complaining Shadoe. She has never been much of a talker, but she's getting better at it and I usually figure she doesn't talk at me for no reason.
I think that once you get to a certain dose, things change in the bean's brain and how the situation is seen and approached. Before, I would think whoa, 6u is so high! Now, sitting at 13u and intending to go to 14u tonite, I look back and think boy, it will be great if one day we can get down to a dose like 6u. Now, I look ahead and think that 20 or 25u are high doses. Everything is relative I suppose.
There's not much else to say right now; time to finish getting ready for work then catch a +1 before I head out the door. Maybe things will settle down soon, once we have a good plan in place, once the u/s is done, once we know how Shadoe is handling and utilizing R, once all of these and many other things get happening, I can think of a life for me again.
Sometimes, beans fall into a rabbithole and lose sight of themselves and their lives, I think.
Sometimes, beans need to be reminded that an unhappy and tensed up bean can't be good, because kitties know stuff and they sense the negative, making some efforts all for naught if the help and the tensions cancel each other out.
Sometimes, we beans need to step back and enjoy what is.
Be strong. Keep positive.
