Re: 3/3 Tawny +13 PMPS 128
Sienne and Gabby said:
Now, was that so bad? We'll be shining up those BOS in no time!!
LOL Sienne! My BOS's are definitely a
little a lot rusty!
Alarms are set for every 2 hrs. I haven't warned DBF about this tonite yet LOL!
Guess maybe I should elaborate on the DBF "yes I have a boyfriend" comment for the newbies...it sounds kind of strange now that I read it again. I was in such a hurry...pizza in the oven...diabetic kitty drama....
Long story short (as short as I can possibly make it anyway): in 2009 my 49 y/o DH who was also my BFF died tragically & unexpectedly after a wk in the hospital. He got better & on Friday they told him he'd be going home the following Mon or Tues. On Saturday he was dead. He loved Tinkerbell (I didn't have Tawny yet) & all our cats & critters dearly. At the time we only had 6 cats, the 3 dogs, & 4 horses. On Fri I took him his laptop and the very 1st place he logged onto was FDMB, to ck on his beloved Tinkerbell. I had been posting condos all wk which included DH updates.
2009 had already been a horrific year for us as the oldies here will remember. This board, these people, were my rock. When he died, my lifeline. Literally. I posted my pain, my grief, my horror, my fear. & I got support here. Love, kindness and support. Unparalleled support. dozens of cards in the mail. hundreds of posts to help me thru, to let me know the people of FDMB were there for me. This board, & Tinkerbell, literally saved my life. Tinkerbell, b/c if I hadn't had her to take care of I know I would have just withered up and died too, and FDMB, for the constant support. Sometimes I couldn't even post, the grief was so intense, but I would sit for hours upon hours, in the dark, in the middle of the night, read condos & surf the board. Night after night. When I posted, everyone came back with love and support and kindness. Even writing about it now brings me to tears when I think of the love of the people on this board.
This is why Tinkerbell's OTJ video is dedicated to Thom.
One never recovers from this kind of trauma, this kind of pain. I still get blindsided by it out of the blue sometimes. But I am still here. You never, ever recover, but I think maybe you can finally learn to live outside that big black monster, grief, in your center. This is what I am finally trying to learn to do. Live outside the big black monster called grief.
And every day, Tinkerbell, Tawny, all my other critters, and this board, continue to help me learn how to do that.
So anyway that's why it was kind of weird about the whole DBF comment.
& he's great, and he loves all of us. & he totally gets the whole critter thing, and the diabetic kitty thing. When Tawny was in the hospital, he was nothing but supportive. Tonight, he had to wait over an hour for his pizza b/c of Tawny, no problem. Right now he is waiting for me to finish posting! no problem.
You just gotta love a guy like that. I miss Thom, I can't even begin to express how much.
But I am really lucky to have had two men in my life that totally get it.
Desi