3/3 Bubbas No AMPS

[Bubbas and Katrina]

https://www.felinediabetes.com/FDMB...mps-415-urgent-need-help.287287/#post-3157971

Today is the day and I hate this. I keep gong back and forth on if I should put him down or not. But there is nothing I can do financially that will help, and I can’t just let him die from starvation. I know this is what’s best but this is torture. He hasn’t been sleeping with me at all lately but last night he did. He came up and laid right next to me, he slept in his usually spot on my bed, now he’s sitting on my chest for the first time in a while. I don’t want to do this, I don’t. There is a terrible aching pit in my stomach knowing there is only 6 hours left before my child’s life is getting taken and it’s just hard to accept. He’s been eating a little more though which is good I think? He finally went to the bathroom after not going all yesterday. And maybe this is wishful thinking but I feel like the yellowness of his ears are going away a little? I don’t know .

 

[Alicia & Kit cat (GA)]

I'm so sorry Katrina, I know this is such a tough decision to make. Maybe he understands and is trying to give you some last comfort?

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

I'm so sorry Katrina, I know this is such a tough decision to make. Maybe he understands and is trying to give you some last comfort?

I hope so. I just hope this is the right decision.

 

[Marje and Gracie]

Have you tried to syringe feed him…..anything at all?

 

[Staci & Ivy]

Oh Katrina this is the hardest thing in the world. I’m so very sorry you are going through this. Bubbas knows how much you love him.
I’m sending you support and love in whatever you believe is best for you and Bubbas

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Oh Katrina this is the hardest thing in the world. I’m so very sorry you are going through this. Bubbas knows how much you love him.
I’m sending you support and love in whatever you believe is best for you and Bubbas

I hope when he gets to heaven, God tells him how much I love him since I can’t. But thank you, I need all the love and positivity today.

 

[Staci & Ivy]

I hope when he gets to heaven, God tells him how much I love him since I can’t. But thank you, I need all the love and positivity today.

He definitely knows how much you love him. No doubt

 

[cecile & bella]

I'm sure he knows. I don't know what to tell you, I understand what you are saying when you say you would like to wait, I think taking this decision must be so hard.
I never had to do it myself, but I think what you are doing, deciding that you do not want him to suffer, is a great proff of love and courage. I am thinking about you a lot today

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

I'm sure he knows. I don't know what to tell you, I understand what you are saying when you say you would like to wait, I think taking this decision must be so hard. I never had to do it myself, but I think what you are doing, deciding that you do not want him to suffer, is a great proff of love and courage. I am thinking about you a lot today

Thank you

 

[Dyana]

And maybe this is wishful thinking but I feel like the yellowness of his ears are going away a little? I don’t know

Maybe you can put it off for a day. Have you tried giving him small "meatballs" of food placed into his mouth.
I'm glad he's eating a little more. Smallish frequent meals is what he needs.

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Maybe you can put it off for a day. Have you tried giving him small "meatballs" of food placed into his mouth.
I'm glad he's eating a little more. Smallish frequent meals is what he needs.

The lady is coming in an hour and my dad is almost here with half of the money. I can’t cancel now unfortunately. I’ve tried a lot of things since he stopped eating like 4-5 days ago. He hates me trying to force feed him and will just spit it out.

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

It’s been done. He passed away in my arms. That was by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. He passed with his eyes opened, which I didn’t know happened so that was odd. But after he passed in my arms we put him in a basket and the vet left. I’m going to wait to get his ashes and figure out what to do with them.

I am still in shock that my child, my best friend is gone. Having to live without him is going to be such an adjustment and a change. But I know this was for the best. I am beyond heart broken right now. This is going to take a long time for me to be ok but I know he’s with God right now and looking down on me.

 

[Tiger(GA) and Ruth]

Katrina I am so sorry it was time for Bubba to cross over the Rainbow Bridge. You did the hardest thing in the world there is to do, you essentially transferred his pain to yourself, that is the most loving act of love ever. I heard you say in a previous post you hoped Bubba knew you loved him? I am certain Bubba knew you loved him and even now, you keep saying it over and over, he hears it in your prayers. A comforting friend explained to me that you don't really ever "get over" a loss, best case, we get "through it" with lots and lots of healing time. Every tear you shed, that shows your love for Bubba.

Fly Free Bubba and land softly at the Rainbow Bridge
You are so loved!

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Katrina I am so sorry it was time for Bubba to cross over the Rainbow Bridge. You did the hardest thing in the world there is to do, you essentially transferred his pain to yourself, that is the most loving act of love ever. I heard you say in a previous post you hoped Bubba knew you loved him? I am certain Bubba knew you loved him and even now, you keep saying it over and over, he hears it in your prayers. A comforting friend explained to me that you don't really ever "get over" a loss, best case, we get "through it" with lots and lots of healing time. Every tear you shed, that shows your love for Bubba.

Fly Free Bubba and land softly at the Rainbow Bridge
You are so loved!

Thank you for the kind words. I will be praying to him so much. And yeah I will never get over this, it’ll just be easier over time.

 

[cecile & bella]

You will miss him but he will stay with you. I hope you are ok tonight. I keep thinking about you

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

You will miss him but he will stay with you. I hope you are ok tonight. I keep thinking about you

I probably won’t be ok for a while. I don’t know how I’ll be able to sleep or eat for a while but I will have to push through. But thank you, please keep me in your thoughts, I need as much strength as I can get.

 

[Jack & Mopem'sMom]

Oh Katrina, he most certainly knew you loved him, and in the end, made the hardest but most loving choice for HIM. I think he knew this, and was telling you he loved you by his actions. We never get over a loss like this, especially when there is such a close bond, but there is healing, and eventually peace. This is my prayer for you, that you will find the peace that you gave to Bubbas. He is free from pain, from struggle, from all the hurt and confusion. I'm sure he will send you signs that will sustain in the days/weeks/months to come. You and he will remain in my prayers. Please reach out via PM if you wish. Sending you much love, many hugs, and holding you close in my heart.

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Oh Katrina, he most certainly knew you loved him, and in the end, made the hardest but most loving choice for HIM. I think he knew this, and was telling you he loved you by his actions. We never get over a loss like this, especially when there is such a close bond, but there is healing, and eventually peace. This is my prayer for you, that you will find the peace that you gave to Bubbas. He is free from pain, from struggle, from all the hurt and confusion. I'm sure he will send you signs that will sustain in the days/weeks/months to come. You and he will remain in my prayers. Please reach out via PM if you wish. Sending you much love, many hugs, and holding you close in my heart.
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Thank you so much for the kind words. I know it was for the best but it was still the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I can’t wait to see him one day again. It’s going to be hard to live life without him, I’ve had him for almost half of my life…adjusting to life is going to be hard. I took the day off work today to grieve. Even though I wish I could take more days. But this first night without him was rough. I woke up crying…

 

[Jack & Mopem'sMom]

Thank you so much for the kind words. I know it was for the best but it was still the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I can’t wait to see him one day again. It’s going to be hard to live life without him, I’ve had him for almost half of my life…adjusting to life is going to be hard. I took the day off work today to grieve. Even though I wish I could take more days. But this first night without him was rough. I woke up crying…

 

[Marje and Gracie]

My very deepest condolences.

Gentle journey, Bubbas.

 

[Deb and Tiger]

Of course he knew how much you loved him, they always know. You made the biggest sacrifice of all by taking the pain off him and putting it on yourself. You freed him of his pain and allowed him to be young and pain free in a better place. You were a great mom to him, never doubt that and remember all the good times….he’ll be with you always.

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Of course he knew how much you loved him, they always know. You made the biggest sacrifice of all by taking the pain off him and putting it on yourself. You freed him of his pain and allowed him to be young and pain free in a better place. You were a great mom to him, never doubt that and remember all the good times….he’ll be with you always.

Thank you for the kind words and I am looking forward to seeing him again in heaven.

 

[Diane Tyler's Mom GA]

Oh Katrina I just saw this, I actually have tears , Bubba def definitely knew how much you loved him. You freed him from all the pain. I had a kitty years ago that turned yellow , wouldn't eat . I had to set him free so I know how you feel. I just lost Tyler's brother 4 years ago from kidney disease, he was my heart kitty. I know it's very hard but try and remember all the joy Bubba brought you . It's going to take time but eventually you will start to feel a little better. He will always be with you in your heart.
I'm sending you lots of hugs and strength.
Please please take care of yourself, I'm sure that's what Bubba would want.
Fly high sweet Bubba ,I'm sure you are chasing butterflies right now, running around like a kitten again.
You will be missed but never forgotten. ♥

 

[xelo y sinver]

Ohh what a great sorrow...I feel for you tears are falling in my eyes...but we do all we can for them and also decide we don't want to make them suffer, he knows you have taken great care of him and given him the love he deserved. He is rested and now it is time to go through the mourning how hard it is to think about going through that situation we all have to do it .... I am sorry for your pain and I hope he is in kitty heaven. I send you lots of encouragement I'm sorry ... take care of yourself I send you lots of kisses and hugs ....

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Oh Katrina I just saw this, I actually have tears , Bubba def definitely knew how much you loved him. You freed him from all the pain. I had a kitty years ago that turned yellow , wouldn't eat . I had to set him free so I know how you feel. I just lost Tyler's brother 4 years ago from kidney disease, he was my heart kitty. I know it's very hard but try and remember all the joy Bubba brought you . It's going to take time but eventually you will start to feel a little better. He will always be with you in your heart.
I'm sending you lots of hugs and strength.
Please please take care of yourself, I'm sure that's what Bubba would want.
Fly high sweet Bubba ,I'm sure you are chasing butterflies right now, running around like a kitten again.
You will be missed but never forgotten. ♥

Thank you so much for the kind words. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I keep trying to convince myself I did the right thing but I still regret it so much.

 

[Bubbas and Katrina]

Ohh what a great sorrow...I feel for you tears are falling in my eyes...but we do all we can for them and also decide we don't want to make them suffer, he knows you have taken great care of him and given him the love he deserved. He is rested and now it is time to go through the mourning how hard it is to think about going through that situation we all have to do it .... I am sorry for your pain and I hope he is in kitty heaven. I send you lots of encouragement I'm sorry ... take care of yourself I send you lots of kisses and hugs ....

Thank you! I am trying my hardest to take care of myself.

 

[Diane Tyler's Mom GA]

Thank you so much for the kind words. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I keep trying to convince myself I did the right thing but I still regret it so much.

I do feel you absolutely did the right thing ♥We can only do so much to help them . It's quality of life that counts , that's how I feel anyway.
Sending you gentle hugs ♥