What a great picture. That expression sorta says, "I don't know mama; I'm trying."
And she is. And so are you. That's all we can do, you know. Oh sure, high numbers are demoralizing. Egads, I know that first hand! And I remember how hard this dance was when Polly and I started back in April. And how I felt everything was my fault.
It wasn't. And it wasn't Polly's fault. It just was. All we could do was keep plugging along. And that's what we did. Followed the protocol as well as we could; sought advice from the experienced people here, and kept plugging along.
FD isn't linear. It's terribly unpredictable at the beginning. Sometimes it seems we're just throwing spaghetti at the wall and waiting for some of it to stick. Then some of it sticks and we get so excited. 'Til that lonely little strand starts sliding off the wall and we have to start throwing spaghetti again.
Yes, it is hard to manage this disease alone. I know that, too. But I'm lucky. My work takes me out of the house only about 5-6 hours a day. Sleep is something I come by when I can. Several others here manage their cat's diabetes on their own, too. Yup, makes it harder in many ways. But it can be done.
Again, all we can do is the best we can.
Bring your questions here. Vent your frustrations here. We have your back. We want to help.
Lots of hugs. I so remember how it was. More hugs.
Marilyn and Polly