rhiannon and shadow (GA)
Member Since 2012
yesterday and beyond
please, please, please, please, please let this just be a bad dream. :cry:
This is so hard to type.
Everything is starting to make sense.
I've said something still wasn't right since she went into remission. (those of you who have been tuned in with my past condos)
When she was 5 months old, my dd fell off the bed holding her and landed on Shadow. It sheared off the head of her left femur. We almost pts but
we didn't want our dd to think she had killed her cat. So she had surgery to remove the ball.
She would do okay without it since she was an indoor cat.... maybe a little more issues when she got old.
They did 3 x-rays... no sedation... she layed still for them....
The xray from her post surgery shows a nice clean line where they corrected her femur, cut off the jagged parts.
The xray from today shows fuzziness, it's not a clean line anymore... And her pelvic area is a little off too.....
My vet thinks it is likely cancer.
They are sending the xrays to the radiologist to get his opinion.
This explains why she'll attack my hand in the morning when we lay in bed and I try to stroke her nicely or touch her backside.
She's been doing that for a few years.
This explains her grumpiness even though she will play some but not for very long.
This probably even explains why she doesn't always want to eat especially when the selection isn't what she really wants.
It is not operable, especially if it is in the pelvis too.... You can't amputate a pelvis.
For now, Her quality of life isn't any different than it has been for the last 2 years.... since before her dx.
Now we know for sure she is still in some pain.... and they will give me the tiniest dose of bupe for her. ( I have to go back and get it)
Bupe has made her dysphoric in the past. Hopefully she can tolerate a tiny amount without getting overstimulated.
I don't know how long we have but as you all know I am completely devastated.
I fear this times out with my dd 's wedding ( aug 1) and her moving out..... and I was already grieving the empty nest that is coming.
This is my worst fear.
Having to pts before her qol gets really really awful.... that point where you feel guilty if you don't do it.
I'd rather her just have a heart attack..
I don't know where her line will be.... obviously .... to be determined.
And do I just let her go back to her favorite foods..... 14% friskies shredded turkey and cheese ........
:cry: :cry: :cry:
i'll be back... I just have to go scream for a while.... :YMSIGH:
please, please, please, please, please let this just be a bad dream. :cry:
This is so hard to type.
Everything is starting to make sense.
I've said something still wasn't right since she went into remission. (those of you who have been tuned in with my past condos)
When she was 5 months old, my dd fell off the bed holding her and landed on Shadow. It sheared off the head of her left femur. We almost pts but
we didn't want our dd to think she had killed her cat. So she had surgery to remove the ball.
She would do okay without it since she was an indoor cat.... maybe a little more issues when she got old.
They did 3 x-rays... no sedation... she layed still for them....
The xray from her post surgery shows a nice clean line where they corrected her femur, cut off the jagged parts.
The xray from today shows fuzziness, it's not a clean line anymore... And her pelvic area is a little off too.....
My vet thinks it is likely cancer.
They are sending the xrays to the radiologist to get his opinion.
This explains why she'll attack my hand in the morning when we lay in bed and I try to stroke her nicely or touch her backside.
She's been doing that for a few years.
This explains her grumpiness even though she will play some but not for very long.
This probably even explains why she doesn't always want to eat especially when the selection isn't what she really wants.
It is not operable, especially if it is in the pelvis too.... You can't amputate a pelvis.
For now, Her quality of life isn't any different than it has been for the last 2 years.... since before her dx.
Now we know for sure she is still in some pain.... and they will give me the tiniest dose of bupe for her. ( I have to go back and get it)
Bupe has made her dysphoric in the past. Hopefully she can tolerate a tiny amount without getting overstimulated.
I don't know how long we have but as you all know I am completely devastated.
I fear this times out with my dd 's wedding ( aug 1) and her moving out..... and I was already grieving the empty nest that is coming.
This is my worst fear.
Having to pts before her qol gets really really awful.... that point where you feel guilty if you don't do it.
I'd rather her just have a heart attack..
I don't know where her line will be.... obviously .... to be determined.
And do I just let her go back to her favorite foods..... 14% friskies shredded turkey and cheese ........
:cry: :cry: :cry:
i'll be back... I just have to go scream for a while.... :YMSIGH: