GA 11/9 Disco is a Guardian Angel now...forever in my heart

Teri & Disco NoFurNo (GA)

Teri & Disco NoFurNo (GA)

Member Since 2019
Yesterday's Condo 11/8: https://www.felinediabetes.com/FDMB...sp-distress-at-er-in-dka.238269/#post-2675825

Today is so different than yesterday, but I am grateful for the wonderful life I shared with Disco. Especially as I retired last year and we have had such a perfect year together traveling, adventuring and becoming even closer since his diabetes diagnosis a year ago.

Waking up this morning at 7am, as I have been doing so I could test him and feed him and give his insulin, the sadness was overwhelming, knowing I had no reason to wake early now, but not wanting the emptiness to let me stay in bed being sad.

I now no longer have to feed my other two cats separately and watch to make sure Disco didn't eat their food too. I miss him... The supplies in my nightstand and the Hypo Kit next to my bed are now put away, and that empty place in my heart aches.

Today I am so sad, and am trying not to have regrets or second guess my decisions. What if I hadn't had Disco's dental done, would he still be here. I am glad I had his heart ultrasound done before that procedure, but that did not prevent complications to the heart disease he did have. After only being on IV fluids 4 hours, he went into congestive heart failure. The balancing act of fluids and getting his electrolytes balanced in the midst of massive doses of Lasix diuretic was not something that could continue, I knew that.

The ER doctor was wonderful, very experienced in critical care and so compassionate and we talked at length about Disco's options and prognosis and she consulted with other vets and all said I was making the right decision. I also had the experience many years ago of going through a very similar experience with one of my cats with heart disease who failed after a dental procedure and I have many regrets about both the care he received at the vets (where I worked) and my decisions with his care. I did not want to do that to Disco...

My other two cats need me, and as I told the ER vet, I always felt the most sorrow for clients at the clinics I worked at who had no other pets to go home to to comfort them. I will be okay, and Disco will be in my thoughts every day for the rest of my life and one day I will be able to think of him without tears, but that will take time...

I want to thank each and every one of you who were part of Disco's Care Team, those of you who left me comforting messages and will try and keep checking on our cat friends here because we are part of a family who care about each other. I will miss posting my Daily Disco photos and while I hope I don't have to make this Sugar Cat journey again, I know where I can come for support and love and knowledge now, something I didn't know a year ago...

Fly Free my sweet Disco, I know you know you were loved...
 

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Thank you for sharing your thoughts - You made the best decision you could and it is not your fault. It was to help Disco being pain free (dental). We cannot control what may happen after a decision is made. I am sad for you. Sending love. I will miss Disco's outfits and adventures.
 
Siiiiiiiiigh. I'm so sorry. No cat had as many adventures, or a bigger closet! Even though I haven't been on lantus very much lately, when I was here I'd look for a Disco post, just to see what the well-dressed cat was wearing that day. Such a sweet boy, he will be so missed.

I'm glad you have your other kitties to comfort you. It's a big space in your life to fill, and they may grieve as well. Take care of yourself during this time, it's so hard...

:bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
 
Teri, you gave that final gift we never want to give. He knows he was well loved and you did everything possible for him. You are right about coming home to an empty home. It doesn’t make the pain any less but it makes you have to get moving every morning. Your other two will likely be grieving as well as Max did for Tiffany. Take care of yourself. I know your civvies are in the best of hands. :bighug:
 
Oh Teri, My heart is breaking for you. I too always looked for your Posts with the Disco man...even when you weren't posting, I checked on your spreadsheet to see how everything was going. I will truly, truly miss you both here. Take care of yourself, and please extend my scritches and long, long strokes to your other kitties.

Fly free, sweet Disco No Fur No. You will be leading the GAs before you on some awesome adventures. cat_wings>o:rb_icon:
 
Teri:bighug::bighug::bighug: I didn't see yesterday's update until now. I am so sorry and am in tears reading this. I grieve with you. Making the unenviable, heartbreaking decision to let him fly free was a truly selfless act of pure love for your Disco. :bighug:
I came to know Disco through the adorable "Daily Disco" photos. They always provided such a lighthearted moment in a place that is often anything but. They often made me laugh. I could always see and feel the joy in them. I hope that in time those photos and your memories bring you comfort.:bighug:
 
Oh Teri, I am so sad to read this and hear Disco has gone to the rainbow bridge. It is the hardest decision of all to make to help them cross but there is no doubt you made the right decision. It is normal to wonder afterwards if you did the right thing, but be at peace and know that you did and it is the greatest gift you could have given him.

The change in routine afterwards was very noticeable to me after Sheba died. I kept thinking I needed to check her BG or feed her or it was time for he insulin. I’m glad you have two fur babies at home to comfort you. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
It is always so hard. After Gabby crossed, it was so strange to not have her spreadsheet open, to not be posting a condo as I drank my morning coffee, to not have to run home for a 5:00 shot. It made my heart ache. But, she was in multi-organ failure and any decision other than helping her to cross the Bridge would have been for me and not for her. You made the hardest and most loving choice that anyone could make.

Please visit when the time is right. You are a part of our family and family is always welcome. There are new member who can benefit from your warmth and knowledge.
 
Oh Teri...my heart is just breaking for you...I'm so very sorry to read this...but your love for Disco has always and will always shine through. Your selfless act of courage and kindness is demonstrative of your pure love for him...

I'm so very sorry for your loss...and so grateful you allowed him to cross when he needed too...

Sending you my heartfelt prayers and hugs at this time...we'll miss that little guy and his adventures and his clothes...:bighug:cat_wings>o
 
(((Teri)))) On this hardest of days, make sure you take care of you too. :bighug::bighug: The loss of routine on top of loss of the cat leaves such a big hole in one's heart. I know you did all you could, Disco could not have asked for a more loving and knowledgeable bean. You were between a rock and a hard place with his conditions. No second guessing.
Fly free Disco. Our GA's will welcome you and show you the best places for adventure. cat_wings>o
 
}}hugs{{ Am shedding tears too and now some for you as well, letting them go when we don’t want to do so is a hard decision to make but, down the road when our hearts stop being so broken, we will see it was the right ones to make.. our babies are in a better place now and free of pain, remembering this when tears won’t atop does help bring some comfort and i hope it does for you as well in future days.
 
Oh, Teri.... so terribly sad to hear about losing Disco. He was an all star on the FDMB site - with his daily photos and his charismatic charm. All who met him (albeit virtually) couldn't help but to fall in love with him. It's definitely a sad time for all. These darn sugar cats worm their way into our hearts, keep us on a tight schedule and then leave us all too soon. Hugs and more hugs to you and the rest of the family, friends and people who you would meet on your outings. Just can't believe it.... :(:bighug:
 
With Max in remission, I haven't been on here very often - too much else going on in my life, but nothing compared to what you have gone through. I am so very sorry that it was Disco's time to fly free. I so enjoyed your posts during the time I was struggling with Max. We lost our 14 yr old dog back in September, and while not a diabetic cat, I had meds to give him and it took me a bit to get used to not doing that or looking for him and not finding him asleep on the floor. I am glad you have two other kitties who need you - the distractions are definitely good to have. I hope you have found some peace in the last week. While I still miss our old guy, life has found a way to keep me so busy that I cannot dwell on the loss of him. That's both good and bad, but for right now, I'm doing what I need to do I suppose.

RIP, Disco
:rb_icon:cat_wings>o:rb_icon:
 
Teri & Disco NoFurNo (GA) said:
Yesterday's Condo 11/8: https://www.felinediabetes.com/FDMB...sp-distress-at-er-in-dka.238269/#post-2675825

Today is so different than yesterday, but I am grateful for the wonderful life I shared with Disco. Especially as I retired last year and we have had such a perfect year together traveling, adventuring and becoming even closer since his diabetes diagnosis a year ago.

Waking up this morning at 7am, as I have been doing so I could test him and feed him and give his insulin, the sadness was overwhelming, knowing I had no reason to wake early now, but not wanting the emptiness to let me stay in bed being sad.

I now no longer have to feed my other two cats separately and watch to make sure Disco didn't eat their food too. I miss him... The supplies in my nightstand and the Hypo Kit next to my bed are now put away, and that empty place in my heart aches.

Today I am so sad, and am trying not to have regrets or second guess my decisions. What if I hadn't had Disco's dental done, would he still be here. I am glad I had his heart ultrasound done before that procedure, but that did not prevent complications to the heart disease he did have. After only being on IV fluids 4 hours, he went into congestive heart failure. The balancing act of fluids and getting his electrolytes balanced in the midst of massive doses of Lasix diuretic was not something that could continue, I knew that.

The ER doctor was wonderful, very experienced in critical care and so compassionate and we talked at length about Disco's options and prognosis and she consulted with other vets and all said I was making the right decision. I also had the experience many years ago of going through a very similar experience with one of my cats with heart disease who failed after a dental procedure and I have many regrets about both the care he received at the vets (where I worked) and my decisions with his care. I did not want to do that to Disco...

My other two cats need me, and as I told the ER vet, I always felt the most sorrow for clients at the clinics I worked at who had no other pets to go home to to comfort them. I will be okay, and Disco will be in my thoughts every day for the rest of my life and one day I will be able to think of him without tears, but that will take time...

I want to thank each and every one of you who were part of Disco's Care Team, those of you who left me comforting messages and will try and keep checking on our cat friends here because we are part of a family who care about each other. I will miss posting my Daily Disco photos and while I hope I don't have to make this Sugar Cat journey again, I know where I can come for support and love and knowledge now, something I didn't know a year ago...

Fly Free my sweet Disco, I know you know you were loved...
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I am very sorry to hear about Disco. He was very fortunate to have such a dedicated person who loved him enough to make the best decisions, right up until the end. Take care.:bighug::bighug::bighug:cat_wings>o
 
Sam&Milo&Singha said:
I am very sorry to hear about Disco. He was very fortunate to have such a dedicated person who loved him enough to make the best decisions, right up until the end. Take care.:bighug::bighug::bighug:cat_wings>o
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Thank you for your comforting thoughts, I miss him deeply, but am grateful I was able to kiss him goodbye...He always shook his head when my smooches vibrated his ears and he did that when I kissed him for the last time..
 
Rebecca & Max said:
With Max in remission, I haven't been on here very often - too much else going on in my life, but nothing compared to what you have gone through. I am so very sorry that it was Disco's time to fly free. I so enjoyed your posts during the time I was struggling with Max. We lost our 14 yr old dog back in September, and while not a diabetic cat, I had meds to give him and it took me a bit to get used to not doing that or looking for him and not finding him asleep on the floor. I am glad you have two other kitties who need you - the distractions are definitely good to have. I hope you have found some peace in the last week. While I still miss our old guy, life has found a way to keep me so busy that I cannot dwell on the loss of him. That's both good and bad, but for right now, I'm doing what I need to do I suppose.

RIP, Disco
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Thank you for your message and sharing your memories of loss...my Coco & Brighton are comforting me and I am glad they need my loving and I’m sure they miss Disco, too...
 
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Judy and Freckles said:
Oh, Teri.... so terribly sad to hear about losing Disco. He was an all star on the FDMB site - with his daily photos and his charismatic charm. All who met him (albeit virtually) couldn't help but to fall in love with him. It's definitely a sad time for all. These darn sugar cats worm their way into our hearts, keep us on a tight schedule and then leave us all too soon. Hugs and more hugs to you and the rest of the family, friends and people who you would meet on your outings. Just can't believe it.... :(:bighug:
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Just as you said, many who had the pleasure of meeting him have reached out to me with their memories of my Larger-Than-Life cat. I know this group is large, and I'm so glad he brought a smile to so many...
 
Sylvie said:
}}hugs{{ Am shedding tears too and now some for you as well, letting them go when we don’t want to do so is a hard decision to make but, down the road when our hearts stop being so broken, we will see it was the right ones to make.. our babies are in a better place now and free of pain, remembering this when tears won’t atop does help bring some comfort and i hope it does for you as well in future days.
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Thanks you for the “hug” and lovely words
 
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