GA 11/26 Rosie

Oh, Carol, I am so, so sorry to hear it was Rosie's time to leave for the Bridge. My heart breaks for you. Sending may (((((hugs))))), love, and strength.

Fly free, sweet Rosiecat_wings>o

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Thank you all for your very kind words. I have "liked" every post, but I love how much you care about us! Thank you all very much. Yesterday was very hard. I got up for T/F/S but just stood there and looked at the counter with all of her supplies and wondered what I should be doing. Of course I know the routine we had, but what is the routine now? That continued for most of the day. I was watching the clock - each time I knew there was something I should be doing with food, meds, etc. I kept looking over at her bed to make sure she was OK. :(

I kept her bed out where it has been because the other cats were looking for her. I saw each one go over and smell her bed and look around. They miss her too. Lately, her bed was rarely empty. Each time I saw her empty bed I wanted to find her. :( As the day went on, I felt and increasing level of stress because I wasn't doing the routine things. I kept feeling like I wasn't doing what I should be doing.

I re-read all of these posts a few times to make it through the day. I was prepared to be sad, but I wasn't prepared to be so lost. I have structured almost everything around her care and now I feel totally useless. I felt good when she had a good day, I felt bad for her when she had a bad day. Now, I am just lost.

I don't want to just feel sorry for myself. I don't want to cry all the time. To do something constructive, I decided to focus on her supplies. I had just restocked everything to avoid any Holiday related shipping delays. I felt good about having everything well stocked and organized. :banghead: I'm going to return anything that is returnable and give away anything else I can to people or organizations who will use it.

Meanwhile, I want to appreciate everyone who took the time to write. I still feel very sad and lost, but am a little less alone because of each one of you. :bighug:
 
Carol, I know how hard it is not to be doing what you think you ought to be doing. But gradually you will settle into new routines. It is good that you left Rosie's bed out for your other kitties to visit. They need to grieve, too. Take it one day at a time and keep Rosie in your thoughts as well as in your heart. She's looking out for you, you know. I still fill Rusty's water glass every day and it sits in his place on the table while we eat. It is strangely comforting.

Sending you lots of hugs, and scritches for the kitties.
 
I'm sorry Carol, I completely understand :bighug:, taking care of our kitties can be all consuming, especially when they need extra special care, changing our routine is just odd, and confusing, especially when it has been so for many days/months/years. Take care of you :bighug::bighug:
 
{{{Carol}}}

I saw myself in so much of what you said. I used to come downstairs in the morning and automatically look at the spot where my Minka would always be. But she wasn't anymore. :( It was months before I sat all the way back on my desk chair, because I was so used to Harvey occupying 75% of it.

Losing one of your furbabies, after putting so much of your heart and soul into caring for them, is deeply traumatic. It will take time to adjust to your new normal. Everyone does so at their own pace. Missing her is part of the process, and I know it is hard to watch your other babies miss her, too. Give them extra love - it will help all of you. We are here for you throughout. :bighug::bighug:
 
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