Re: 10/29 Paisley- AMPS~194?, +2.75/357, +6/313
Good to be back, thanks.
Most of the times are actually pretest times off the monitor to help me if I've gotten behind so there is a little more consistency. Mostly it's me not focusing and giving myself enough time to prepare before the shot is due. Some is not being home right on time. Some is stalling. Some is due to the lag time between doing the test, asking for help here, getting it and implementing it. That can be a good half hour at best.
I'm still not real sure about what to do when numbers are low. I'm not certain now I know what low is. I've read the sticky and have tried to follow that, which results in stalling. I'm especially not sure what to do when the preshot is higher but she's had so many greens. Guess I'm still confused. Looking back, I'm not sure why I dropped the dose. On the 10/26 I was so tired and afraid I'd miss if she went hypo. I'd slept through the alarm several times and was trying to be safe. I figured it'd work itself out eventually. I'm terrified of her going hypo and me missing it because I fell asleep and didn't hear the alarm or wasn't home to catch it.
All in all I guess I still am very unsure about what I'm doing, despite reading things over and over. I'm afraid of asking for help too much or asking about something that seems so obvious to others or something that is close to something I'd previously asked but I'm not seeing that it's the same. Sometimes I think I understand something then a situation arises and I'm not so sure. I'll go back and reread a sticky and think I have it but guess maybe I don't. Sometimes I wish I hadn't adopted Paisley, in hindsight. My memory of Barry before he went OTJ was that I knew pretty much what I was doing. Now, not so much. The last thing I want is to hurt her and I feel like I'm not giving her the best care she could have gotten with someone else.
I'm working on getting everything ready so she gets her shot right on time. I'm setting my watch alarm to warn me it's time to get ready and am working really hard on not getting distracted during that time. What is the maximum time between pretest and shot? Is there a preshot number where I should be stalling besides the sticky that says 150? Am I not completely understanding the concept of a "low" number?