I stepped away for a while today, because I was feeling really discouraged...
Tiny's diabetes, Cookies' un-diagnosed problem...all going on since May.
Thank heavens we are a two-income household, because I can't tell you the expenses we've had since May and having both cats ill.
But, it's a LOT, and we are so tired, and so scared, and we want our kitties to have a good quality of life, but ours is currently suspect.
Karen and I work at intense jobs - this has been the worst work year for me; my boss is retaliatory because of his patriarchal ego and I just wish he would fire me, although I've not done anything wrong. He just threatens to fire me, so the pressure is immense from him and from the work.
I care for my 93 y/o mom who is independent, but too much of a risk-taker, so I worry about her daily.
This has been a very difficult year, and it hasn't let up, so I go up and down emotionally...discouraged to encouraged to discouraged, etc.
I know many of you are experiencing similar challenges - emotional, financial, work, personal, but I just feel spent.
I am so tired constantly that I can feel my own health diminishing, and with no end in sight to all the issues...it's just discouraging.
I used to be so happy, patient, loving and giving and I just feel so spent.
I'm not needing or seeking sympathy or encouragement, I just want you all to know where I am, so if you don't see me for a day or two, it's because I'm empty.
I realize everything will work out as it's supposed to and resolutions come and go, as do more challenges, but honestly...a break would be great.
I cannot express enough how grateful I am to have found each of you - thank you for reaching out to offer guidance and encouragement.
Obviously, I need it.
I'll be back on the +4 or +5 with more data on Tiny.
XOXO, J.